Okay well, this is my first fanfiction. It's a Kaworu x Shinji kind of deal so if a story about two guys falling in love creeps you out or anything like that, this is not the fanfic for you. Otherwise read on, and also I do not own the Evangelion characters, this is just something I came up with during spare time. If things work out and people like it there could be more chapters in the future thanks and enjoy.

Chapter 1- Secret Confessions

Tokyo 3 was an unexciting city, barely anything happened. But now that NERV had started up many people seemed to be moving into Tokyo 3 making it a hustle and bustling city. Shinji was walking to school with his childhood friend Asuka as usual, running late of course. Along the way Rei joined the group and Asuka gossiped with her as Shinji became detached from the group.

Who wants to listen to girls gossip he thought.

Shinji and Co. entered their classroom for homeroom. Shinji sat behind his friend Kenske and, his friend Toji sat behind Shinji. They immediately started a conversation as did everyone else. But they were interrupted by the class rep Hikari shouting,

"Everyone shut up and sit in your seats!"

Misato, their homeroom teacher came in and started to take attendance.

"Is Ikari Shinji here?"

"Here" Shinji replied raising his hand. The attendance seemed to drag on and Shinji started to space out staring at the blackboard until a certain name was called.

"Is Nagisa Kaworu here?"

"Present" Kaworu said raising his hand as he found his seat. Shinji couldn't help himself but look to see his best friend but little did Kaworu know that Shinji thought the world of Kaworu. But he knew it was an unrequited love, for Kaworu had his girlfriend Mana. (Mana is a character from the Girlfriend of Steel Evangelion dating game for those who don't know, she looks like Asuka but with shorter hair.) They had been dating since the summer before last; they were so close Shinji felt like they were brother and sister with how they acted.

Kaworu noticed that Shinji was staring at him and gave him a smile after he sat down. Shinji quickly looked away and blushed slightly, embarrassed that the person he had feelings for noticed him. Class went on as usual until lunch time came along, Kenske and Toji left for the school store, Rei and Asuka left to eat in the school courtyard to gossip about boys some more. Shinji decided to stay in the classroom when Kaworu came up to him.

"Shinji if you want you can eat on the rooftop with me and Mana, I'm sure she wouldn't mind."

"No, its ok Kaworu I'll sit here and eat, I wouldn't want to sacrifice your time to be alone with Mana." Shinji said embarrassed at the thought.

Mana came up to the two of them. "Shinji come on I don't mind if you eat with us plus its better than sitting in the classroom, you need fresh air."

"Yeah come on Shinji." Kaworu said grabbing Shinji's hand and pulling him along as the three of them ascended the school stairs. They reached the top and opened the double doors releasing a breeze.

"Ah, it feels so nice out." Mana said putting their lunches down as she sat on the ground.

"Come on let's eat I'm hungry." Mana spouted opening her bento lunch.

They both started to eat their lunches sharing each other's meals. "Kaworu you should try this chicken I made it's really good," Mana picked up a piece with her chopsticks, "Now say Ahh." Kaworu opened his mouth and Mana inserted the chicken.

"Wow this really is good Mana thanks. Hey maybe Shinji wants to try some right Shinji?"

"Umm sure why not..." Shinji said confused of why he was dragged along if the two of them were going to be so lovey-dovey.

"Okay now say Ahh Shinji…just kidding." Kaworu said though Shinji had his mouth open ready for whatever Kaworu would've inserted.

"Oh Kaworu you tease! If I didn't know better I'd say you like Shinji more than me!" Mana said jokingly. Shinji blushed at the comment.

"Awww Shinji did Mana hurt your feelings?" Kaworu asked sympathetically as if it was a sign he liked Shinji.

"Naw it's ok, let's finish eating and head back to class." Shinji said with a smile.

While the three finished their lunches on the rooftop, Rei and Asuka gossiped in the courtyard.

"Oh did you hear Rei?"

"Hear what, Asuka?"

"The class rep has a crush on Toji, can you believe it!?"

"I can actually see those two making a cute couple; oh did you hear an even juicier rumor? It's about Kaworu Nagisa."

"No I don't hear much gossip on him actually, what is it? What is it?" Asuka asked in anticipation.

"Apparently before he transferred here and moved to Tokyo 3 he lived in Kyoto and he had…a boyfriend."

"Oh that is a juicy rumor. But I thought he liked girls why does he like Mana then? Oh my, maybe Mana is a guy?!" Asuka said jokingly.

"Poor innocent Asuka you do know people can like either gender right? Come on I know you Asuka, you like Shinji you're just too scared to admit it, and I know something else." Acting all serious, Rei leaned in close to Asuka. "You like me, right Asuka?" Asuka blushed at Rei's comment.

"You always seem to know everything I guess I can live with that fact. But did you know something I don't care if you know or not or even return the feeling. Because that's just how I live. But now to get back on topic, I have something you might be interested in." She said with a grimace lifting a little brown book out of her bag. "This is Shinji's journal."

"You are a conniving one aren't you Asuka? Well what's in it, I wanna see! I wann see!" Rei said jumping all over Asuka to get to the book.

"Simmer down Rei, I'll show you." They both sat next to each other on a bench in the courtyard reading Shinji's journal. "This I found flipping through the pages you just have to read this Rei." Asuka said opening the journal to page 20.

July 24th, 2015

Well today started with my mom waking me up too early in this hot summer. She asked if I wanted to go to beach, and at 6 am! But I guess that's how she is…no sense of time at all. But we didn't really leave the house till 8 am so go figure her logic. But to the point we ended up inviting Kaworu to come along for the trip. I was excited at the thought. When we got to the beach, I had no desire to go swimming unlike Kaworu, he kept on insisting that I enjoy the warm waters, as I lay on my stomach but, I had summer reading to finish. And I was trying to hide the fact that I was a little aroused at Kaworu because he was wearing a speedo instead of shorts. Then my mom and him had the idea of burying me in the sand after I denied going to swim. They pulled me down and Kaworu started digging a hole. They threw me in it and covered me up so my head was the only thing sticking out of the sand. Then my mom was making a sand sculpture of a mermaid and I was its head. My mom was giggling afterwards she even took a picture of it with her camera. I was so embarrassed I think my cheeks were burning from it. But, Kaworu just giggled slightly and he said he thought I looked cute. Not much happened after that, a few jokes were made by my mom that Kaworu and I would make a cute couple. We all laughed at them but it kind of hurt hearing that as a joke. And of course my dad wasn't there that day, he was working at NERV. I think even my mom worries about that, he never takes days off. At least my mom can enjoy herself every now and then, but my father and I rarely talk anyways so it would've made no difference if he came. Well that's it for today until tomorrow's entry.

"So…Shinji likes Kaworu eh, Asuka?"

"Yeah, but I don't hate him I just feel bad for him, there's no way Kaworu would ever go out with him, he's dating Mana after all y'know the biggest brother and sister couple the school has ever had. But I wouldn't mind it if he came sobbing to me about it either."

"You know you're a cruel one Asuka but that's why I like you. We should get back to class now come along." Asuka blushed at Rei's comment and walked with her to class.

"It's not like I asked your opinion anyways." Asuka said sitting down for their next class.

"That was a really good lunch; maybe you guys should invite me more often." Shinji said sitting down behind Kenske. The next class started and the day went on as usual until after school. Shinji, Mana, Asuka, and Rei were all part of the music club.

They practiced their instruments every day. Shinji entered the music room picking up his cello. He had arrived early so he could tune his instrument. After tuning Shinji began to play, he lost himself to the music until someone came in. The door slid shut and Kaworu, Rei, and Asuka popped in. "Hey Shinji." They all said and sat down in some chairs so that everyone was facing each other. Asuka and Rei tuned their violas and Kaworu tuned his violin. They all began to play Ode to Joy or at least what they could perform at a junior high level.

After practice Asuka and Rei left for their homes, leaving Shinji alone with Kaworu. "So why didn't Mana come to practice today?" Shinji asked concerned.

"Don't worry she just wasn't feeling well at the end of school and headed home instead. She'll be here tomorrow."

"Do you have to leave now?"

"I don't have to leave why do you want to hang out for a bit?"

"…yeah that'd be nice." And both boys walked to the courtyard watching the fountain doused with water as they sat side by side on a bench.

There was an awkward silence as the two stared at the waters from the fountain.

"I…I wanted to tell you some…something." Shinji muttered.

"What is so important that you couldn't say in front of Mana? I know you've been looking at me with concern in your eyes."

"Kaworu it's…I think I have feelings for you."

"Feelings? For me you mean? That's too cute Shinji, if I wasn't going out with Mana I'd go out with you for sure."

"You would!?" Shinji was shocked.

"Yes I would, and to prove it to you…" Kaworu said placing a hand on Shinji's cheek, he leaned in and gave Shinji a light kiss on the lips.

"I should get going for now."

"Okay, yeah I think I should go too." Shinji said. And they were both on separate paths to their homes.

When Shinji got home he entered his room and put his things on the floor and hopped onto his bed. Staring at the ceiling, Shinji touched his lips from time to time. I can't get him out of my head now! And his lips on mine…it felt so right, I can still feel it. Shinji touched his lips. The taste of Kaworu on my lips.

TO BE CONTINUED….