My name is Kimberly Baker. Kim for short. Everyone always thinks that my life is perfect. Eleven awesome siblings – everyone thinks it's so great. Yeah, right. It's the farthest thing from perfect. The Kim everyone knows isn't the same as the Kim that I know – me. Everyone knows the nine year old. I'm fifteen now.
Ever since Jessica got that scholarship... Things have been so different for me. Everyone thinks they know the Kim that was perfect, had perfect grades, and did everything the right way and never screwed anything up. They knew her when she was nine. But when Jessica and I turned thirteen, things started to spiral down. She got on the National Junior Honor Society... While I was turned down. My huge family was so concerned on celebrating Jessica's victory that they didn't even notice me. Of course, I was sitting in the background watching everything go on. Then, when school let out that year, Jessica took a summer course so she could start getting high school credits.
That's when it happened.
The crash.
It's been a nightmare, but we've lived through it – well, some of us. Jessica had decided to carpool one day with Me, Dad and half of Mike's hockey team. Mike and his friends had decided to play "car hockey". The hockey puck lost control and hit the roof. Mike tried to catch it, and... Well. I don't like to talk about it, but instead of Mike catching the puck, it hit Dad in the head, and he turned around to yell. Jessica screamed for Dad to look at the road, but he couldn't hear her. Me, sitting in the front seat, took the wheel, and turned it, trying to get the car to go straight.
The car didn't go straight. In fact, it went in just about every direction BUT straight. Before I knew what was happening, the car spun off the highway into the nearby 7-11.
I'd like to say no one blames me for it, but – that's not true. Everyone knows it was my fault. The only people that are okay with me still are that half of Mike's hockey team, and Mike. Mike claims it's his fault, but I claim it's mine. But Jessica will never forgive me for what happened, no, definitely not Jessica. That night after everyone got back from the hospital, she moved into Sarah's room. I wish I could go back and change everything.
But you can't turn back time. And I'd give anything, anything to do so.
I want my sister and best friend back; I want my family to love me again. It could almost all happen. But in that accident, two years ago, one of us didn't survive.
My dad is dead.