You found me

by ImpalaChevy67

Neji is confused and torn apart between what his heart tells him and what his sense of duty orders him to do. He is faced with a chance at being free if, of course, he becomes a traitor. What will he do? How will he cope? First person POV, Yaoi. I'm not sure if there will be a lemon so I rate it M, to be sure.

1. Prologue It felt so right

Pairing: ItaxNeji

Warning: Angst, OOC, Yaoi (MxM), Language, Violence, First person

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or the characters and I don't make any money from this.

A/N: So this is an ItaNeji I came up with at school... R&R

You found me

Prologue: It felt so right

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My eyes flew wide open as I gasped for air, choked sobs escaping my throat. I lifted my body to a sitting position and tried to regain the equanimity that characterizes me and everyone who bears the name Hyuga. I prayed to whatever Gods there were for some well-deserved luck. I hoped that the scream that left my pale lips did not make it out of my room. I shot a glance at the clock. 3:56AM.

Another nightmare. Another restless night, haunted by the demons that lurk in the dark and get stronger every second I hesitate. Another twist of the dagger impaled in my heart at a time when no one can hear and save me.

In the silence, the overwhelming quietness before the storm, I am left alone, fighting myself and my own morals. Torn apart between freedom and duty. Love and village. Us and them.

And how do I escape from this cage constructed by my fears? These bars forged with shattered dreams and hatred that was bottled up for years? All I have to do is reach out. Reach for the key, for the door, for his hand.

His hand... I can't even remember how many times he held his hand out for me and told me to follow him. To leave everything behind and be free. Free... In the end, what does it mean to be free? Would I be free if I btrayed my village? If I did, for once, what my heart told me?

No. No, I wouldn't. I could never be free, it just wasn't my fate and I should think of it no further. I am a shinobi, my role is clear. I follow orders and I'm no hypocrite to convince myself otherwise. He is not my fate. Yet no matter how many times I tell myself that, the exact same number of hours I spend with him away from everything and everyone.

I can't keep doing this. I have to end it or it will eventually destroy me. Now is the time to choose whose side I'm on. Now is the moment of judgement. And I already know I will pick him. Because it doesn't matter that it is wrong. It doesn't matter because... it feels so right.