Disclaimer: Evangelion is not mine unfortunately; Gainax does.

Note: This is a yuri between Rei and Asuka! So I don't want any flames because you don't like this kind of stuff.

She touched her face gently, wincing at the dull sting that came from earlier. Am I a doll? Is this who I am? Today was one of her good days. Rei Ayanami only got slightly injured due to a malfunction with EVA 00. It usually never malfunctioned; but lately it was going out of control.

I wonder if it's me? I wonder if my own insecurities are the cause of its problems? She pulled a bag of cotton balls out of her medicine cabinet. After pouring a little amount of a rubbing alcohol into the fuzzy element, she dabbed the cut on her cheek with it. She winced at the stinging pain of the cut being cleaned and the forming bruise under it.

A tear of solitude rolled down her pale, soft cheek. She despised being alone. She wanted to be held, to be loved by a human being and to return those feelings. She had one person in mind. Whenever she saw this being, she felt like she was flying through the clouds. Her flaming red hair caused Rei's breath to catch in her throat. Asuka Langley Sohru was an amazing girl who turned Rei's world upside down.

When she first met Asuka, she had been cold and reclusive and Asuka had been fiery and mean. She had teased her and degraded her, but Rei stilled couldn't help but fall in love with her. Her eyes…her face…the way she walks…I always feel so drawn to her. I feel like I can't breath when I'm around her. What is this I'm feeling? She stared at her reflection for a few more minutes, trying to figure out the answer to her questions.

She raised a finger and touched the glass of the mirror. It was cold to the touch that also reminded her of her own coldness. She started to sob quietly. She couldn't take it anymore. The pain…the solitude…it was just eating her from the inside. I don't want to be alone…I want someone to love me.

Asuka beat the wall in frustration. She was having the worst day. I'm so worthless. Why is it always wonder- girl and Shinji who get the recognition? She hated having competition, especially in love. She had seen the way Shinji had looked at Rei. She saw the way his eyes gleamed when they rested upon her pale form. It made Asuka boil with anger. Wonder-girl is mine you moron! She always felt possessive when it came to her. Something about Rei Ayanami made her want to rip her hair out.

Why is it every time she talks to me, she seems so bold? No one else can act with that much courage around me. They either cower beneath me or back away quietly. It gets boring every once in a while.

She examined her bruised fist after punching a hole in the wall. She smirked to herself. Misato was going to have her ass this time. This was the third hole she had punched in a wall this week! She didn't really care at all though. Misato could just kiss her ass. She could care less about what anyone thought of her.

All I want is for someone to love me. I want someone to hold me and take care of me when I can't take of myself. I don't want to be a burden though. I want to be the dominant one in a relationship. Screw male dominance…I always take the lead. She was always that way, ever since her mother committed suicide. She had felt the need to grow up and in the process pushed away everyone away she had ever cared about.

Kaji was the first man she had ever felt like she could love forever. Sure there was a huge age difference but she didn't care. She didn't even care about Misato's relationship with him at the time! She knew that deep down; Kaji really loved her and not Misato! Why would he even want to be with that disgusting woman! She wanted to slap herself when she heard about his death. She used to lie in bed at night and wonder how he died and what was going through his mind before his spirit left his body.

I wonder if he was thinking of me…or was he thinking of that bitch Misato! She hit the wall again in frustration…but this time not so hard. At least the wall would be spared from her fury for the rest of the day. Right now she wanted to yell at someone. The person on her mind at that moment was Rei. She wanted to make the first child cry a river of pain.

She opened the door and walked briskly out of the bathroom. She opened her closet and looked over her wardrobe. Wow…I can't believe I haven't even worn half this stuff! She grabbed a medium length red dress that accentuated her curves. She wanted to attract a lot of attention to herself. Then maybe wonder girl would actually show some emotion around her. She looked at her hair. She groaned with frustration. Her hair looked like that every single day; always in two pigtails with the loose hair flowing down her back. But not today; no today she was going to try something different.

She grabbed her brush and pulled her elastics out of her hair so that it was lying on her slim shoulders. She brushed her hair until it shone beautifully. Then she just left it down. She looked the finished result in the mirror. She was beautiful…the dress fit perfectly and her red hair made her look like some sort of goddess. She was happy with her look and left out the front door. She was going to go shopping with Hikari since she promised she would yesterday. She didn't know that she would see someone very unexpected there though.

Asuka boarded the bus and sat down in the first empty seat she could find. All the men were looking at her. She felt giddy from all the attention she was getting. She pulled out her CD player and pressed the play button. A few seconds later, she heard the sound of Megumi Hayashibara's music ringing in her ears. She had always respected her because of her amazing singing voice. Not many people's voices could compare to hers; at least that what she thought.

After ten minutes or so she heard the familiar sound of the bus's brakes squealing. This must be my stop she thought to herself. She got off gracefully as almost everyone watched her do so. She smirked. She loved getting that kind of attention. It was nice to be noticed. She grinned when she saw Hikari standing around waiting for her. Her anger started to boil when she saw Rei standing with her.

She stomped over to Hikari. "Hey what's wonder girl doing here?" she hissed loudly, not caring if Rei heard her or not.

"I invited her," Hikari managed to stammer. "Sssshe wwwaasss wwalking arround aaalll aaalonne."

Asuka laughed cruelly. "Oh I get it…so you felt sorry for wonder girl?" She turned to look at Rei. Her face was blank without expression. "Well aren't you going to say anything? Or are you really a doll who just follows orders?" Her face continued to show no emotion.

"I am not a doll," she answered plain and simple. "I follow the orders I am given but that does not make me a doll." Asuka growled and slapped her across the face. Hikari was helpless to do anything to stop her.

"Yes you are. You follow every order Commander Ikari gives you! What are you his slave?" Rei remained stationary; she didn't even cover the hand imprint with the palm of her hand.

"I am not his slave. I only do what he tells me to because it's the only way…" Asuka grabbed her blouse and pulled her to face her.

"Only way? What the hell are you talking about dammit?" Rei removed her hands gently. Asuka felt her breath catch in her throat. Her hands…they're so soft and silky.

"It's the only way I will find peace. Is that what you wanted to hear?" Her voice remained monotone and cold. It sent shivers down Hikari's back. Is it possible for someone to be so devoid of emotion? Maybe she isn't even human. Asuka let Rei get off easily on this one, but next time she wouldn't be so lucky.

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