Hello all! This is my first fanfic of any kind. What better series to start with than Peach Girl? Anyway, this story closely follows the events of volumes 11 and 12. So if you've only read the English version, BEWARE, this will spoil chapters that TokyoPop is quite far off from publishing! Don't say I didn't warn you!
About names. Kairi is 'Kiley' 's original name in the Japanese tanks. Ryo is Kairi's older (nearly identical) brother. Aki Misao (last name Aki, first name Misao) is Kairi and Momo's school nurse, who has been a character since the earliest chapters. But here we learn exactly what the secret behind her and Kairi's relationship is.
This really isn't much of a fanfic so far..it's more a synopsis of volume 12 -_-. I wanted to expand on the feelings, to write about what everyone must be going through in that volume, and to do that I had to include a lot of the details from the manga, so, sorry if it's not very creative.
Dialogue broken off with *** indicates flashbacks. Quotes surrounded by - indicate first-person thoughts.
Again, this is my first fic so if anyone reads this, pleeease leave a review!
-Parakiss
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Circle of Trust Chapter 1: Don't You Love Me?
"I'm sorry."
Momo collapsed to her knees, sobs wracking her body as she shook her head vigorously, trying to get the the image out of her head.
"I'm sorry."
Kairi's face. Kairi of the eternal smiles, frowning, looking grim, forlorn, and..ashamed.
Momo buried her face in her hands, her crying momentarily muffled. So many feelings building up..intense, painful feelings..but nothing could stop her mind from replaying the scene.
***
"Do you still..do you still love Misao?"
Kairi's expression became graver, which Momo would have thought impossible. He hesitated, and she felt her heart leap into her throat.
"W..well? Okayasu.."
He flinched.
"Tell me!"
A sharp intake of breath.
"...yes."
Silence.
"I'm sorry."
***
The shock, the anger, the devestation..such devestation..began to build up within Momo once again as she staggered to her feet, only to collapse onto her to bed.
Momo shut her eyes and grabbed a nearby pillow, clenching it between her fists.
-All that time. All that time for him to tell me..all that time to lead me on..-
Nothing made sense anymore. Only her anger at him. What was he thinking? Why..how could he do this?
She recalled in her mind the time she first met Kairi. When he first defended her. When he first asked her out. When he first said he loved her..he loved her...
"THAT JERK!!!" She flung the pillow across the room, exhaling deeply as it hit the wall with a resounding smack.
Nothing, nothing at all made sense. Only one person pursued her when she had her heart set on Toji. Only one person defended her image and reputation when they were targeted. Only one person believed her, her alone, and never, ever Sae. Kairi. Weeks, months of Kairi following Momo around, declaring his love, making advances, helping her win Toji, and helping her recover when it ended. He did everything for her. He believed in her. He made her love him.
Another round of tears threatened to spill from her eyelids as only one thought ran through her mind.
-Why?-
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kairi stared blankly at his cellphone, having left his fifth message to Momo in little over an hour. "No missed calls" blinked repeatedly, and he shoved the phone into his pocket in annoyance.
He leaned back against the street light, oblivious to the chatter and bustle of passerby around him. Momo's eyes, Momo's tearful and stunned eyes, stared back at him no matter where he directed his gaze.
He couldn't think straight. He thought he'd done the right thing..and yet he'd been so very wrong. He thought he'd be hurting her less, when really he'd hurt her far more.
The truth. Who needs it?
Kairi sighed, nudging a candy wrapper on the ground with his foot. Momo caught on. She caught on to the one thing about him no one else in the world knew or suspected. And she confronted him..and he told answered her suspicions. He couldn't..he wouldn't..ever lie to Momo. He wouldn't have had a chance to, anyway..so sudden. It all happened so suddenly, her questioning. He hadn't been prepared for anything but a simple, honest, brutally painful answer.
Yes, he loved Misao. He always loved Misao. In ways that no one would understand. How does one explain the feelings he had? All his life, Kairi was a shadow. A kid, a nuisance, an unexceptional nobody with an exceptional somebody for a brother. Kairi was amusing..Ryo was amazing. His parents..his friends..his girlfriends...to them he was always second-best. The world belonged to Ryo, and Kairi was just an afterthougt inhabitant. He didn't want to be better. He didn't want to be popular.
He wanted to be seen.
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More chapters coming soon. Feel free to email me, parakiss@prodigy.net
About names. Kairi is 'Kiley' 's original name in the Japanese tanks. Ryo is Kairi's older (nearly identical) brother. Aki Misao (last name Aki, first name Misao) is Kairi and Momo's school nurse, who has been a character since the earliest chapters. But here we learn exactly what the secret behind her and Kairi's relationship is.
This really isn't much of a fanfic so far..it's more a synopsis of volume 12 -_-. I wanted to expand on the feelings, to write about what everyone must be going through in that volume, and to do that I had to include a lot of the details from the manga, so, sorry if it's not very creative.
Dialogue broken off with *** indicates flashbacks. Quotes surrounded by - indicate first-person thoughts.
Again, this is my first fic so if anyone reads this, pleeease leave a review!
-Parakiss
~~~~
Circle of Trust Chapter 1: Don't You Love Me?
"I'm sorry."
Momo collapsed to her knees, sobs wracking her body as she shook her head vigorously, trying to get the the image out of her head.
"I'm sorry."
Kairi's face. Kairi of the eternal smiles, frowning, looking grim, forlorn, and..ashamed.
Momo buried her face in her hands, her crying momentarily muffled. So many feelings building up..intense, painful feelings..but nothing could stop her mind from replaying the scene.
***
"Do you still..do you still love Misao?"
Kairi's expression became graver, which Momo would have thought impossible. He hesitated, and she felt her heart leap into her throat.
"W..well? Okayasu.."
He flinched.
"Tell me!"
A sharp intake of breath.
"...yes."
Silence.
"I'm sorry."
***
The shock, the anger, the devestation..such devestation..began to build up within Momo once again as she staggered to her feet, only to collapse onto her to bed.
Momo shut her eyes and grabbed a nearby pillow, clenching it between her fists.
-All that time. All that time for him to tell me..all that time to lead me on..-
Nothing made sense anymore. Only her anger at him. What was he thinking? Why..how could he do this?
She recalled in her mind the time she first met Kairi. When he first defended her. When he first asked her out. When he first said he loved her..he loved her...
"THAT JERK!!!" She flung the pillow across the room, exhaling deeply as it hit the wall with a resounding smack.
Nothing, nothing at all made sense. Only one person pursued her when she had her heart set on Toji. Only one person defended her image and reputation when they were targeted. Only one person believed her, her alone, and never, ever Sae. Kairi. Weeks, months of Kairi following Momo around, declaring his love, making advances, helping her win Toji, and helping her recover when it ended. He did everything for her. He believed in her. He made her love him.
Another round of tears threatened to spill from her eyelids as only one thought ran through her mind.
-Why?-
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kairi stared blankly at his cellphone, having left his fifth message to Momo in little over an hour. "No missed calls" blinked repeatedly, and he shoved the phone into his pocket in annoyance.
He leaned back against the street light, oblivious to the chatter and bustle of passerby around him. Momo's eyes, Momo's tearful and stunned eyes, stared back at him no matter where he directed his gaze.
He couldn't think straight. He thought he'd done the right thing..and yet he'd been so very wrong. He thought he'd be hurting her less, when really he'd hurt her far more.
The truth. Who needs it?
Kairi sighed, nudging a candy wrapper on the ground with his foot. Momo caught on. She caught on to the one thing about him no one else in the world knew or suspected. And she confronted him..and he told answered her suspicions. He couldn't..he wouldn't..ever lie to Momo. He wouldn't have had a chance to, anyway..so sudden. It all happened so suddenly, her questioning. He hadn't been prepared for anything but a simple, honest, brutally painful answer.
Yes, he loved Misao. He always loved Misao. In ways that no one would understand. How does one explain the feelings he had? All his life, Kairi was a shadow. A kid, a nuisance, an unexceptional nobody with an exceptional somebody for a brother. Kairi was amusing..Ryo was amazing. His parents..his friends..his girlfriends...to them he was always second-best. The world belonged to Ryo, and Kairi was just an afterthougt inhabitant. He didn't want to be better. He didn't want to be popular.
He wanted to be seen.
~~~~~
More chapters coming soon. Feel free to email me, parakiss@prodigy.net