Bella lives a hard life with her abusive husband, James. The couple moves to a small town in Texas. There, Bella finds that her green-eyed neighbor saves her in more ways than one. E/B, Rated M for abuse, rape, language, mature themes.
Warning: My warning is simple. If you can't handle it, don't read it.
Chapters are all short. Their meant to be that way.
Chapter 1
I tell myself I'm safe. That it will be different this time. He won't get upset. He won't get angry.
He won't
He won't
He won't
I tell myself everything will be fine, that the bruises mean nothing. The yelling means nothing. He will get better. He has to. The man I love isn't supposed to be this way. Love doesn't work like that.
He will get better. He will.
As soon as I let that small sliver of hope in I hear the front door open. I hear his footsteps as he walks to the kitchen. I am frozen, rooted to the spot, staring hard at the dinner I was preparing. He stands in the doorway, leaning against the frame and I know he's watching me.
I slowing start to work at the food again
"You made pot roast."
I jump a little. "You're favorite." The words barely register through my lips.
I can feel his eyes on me.
"You know I don't like peas." He says slowly, as if I'm stupid.
My hands slow. "It- it came in the packaging." I stutter.
He sighs and shuffles into the kitchen.
Oh God
Oh God
Oh God
"Do you deliberately do things to make me mad?" he says loudly and I cringe.
"Of course not." I say.
"Of course not." he mimics me.
"James, please…"
He ignores my plea. "Do you enjoy it when I punish you?"
I'm shaking now
"You must do, since you've been getting a lot of it by late." he sneers at me.
He's so close now I can feel his breath on my neck
He smells of alcohol
He leans into my neck and snarls, "You naughty girl."
He slides his hand down my body and I want to throw up
Please no
Please please no
I try to take a step away and I know I've made a terrible mistake. He loses control and then there is pain. So much pain.
Then I'm falling
Until there is nothing
I am nothing.