My family has never been the best examples of love. I guess I always counted on Freddie, Carly, and Spencer to feel like I mattered. When we were about 10 years old, Freddie developed 2 things. Brains like I didn't believe possible, and a huge crush on Carly. I tried to fight against it, tried to act like it was still normal, but it didn't work. I turned cruel toward Freddie, trying to convince him that Carly didn't like him like that. But he just didn't realize it.
I love Carly, but she doesn't know very much about electronics. So when Freddie didn't show up for an iCarly episode, she was going frantic. I walked over to the cart, pushed a few buttons and turned on the camera." We're live." Was all I said. Carly smiled and managed to trip her way through the episode. Afterwards she was raging around the loft. "Where is he?! He needs to apologize for missing that! I can't believe he blew us off!" I got tired of this and soon left. I thought back to when we were little. Before Freddie's mom went ape-crazy, he used to go to the park when he was upset. Then his mom went nuts and he couldn't leave the house without her.
I walked down the streets, ignoring the sound of cars honking. They were irrelevant. I as headed to the park, trying to think of something to say. I knew why he was upset, why he hadn't come. Carly was now dating a boy named Samuel from school. I saw them making out in the hallway during lunch. My brain rewound to that moment and I remembered something. Freddie was dropping off his books in his locker. He must've seen what happened.
I found him in the swing, tracing circles in the sand. I sat down next to him and didn't say anything for a little while. "I'm sorry." I managed. Freddie snorted and for the first time, I heard real hurt and pain in his voice. "You win. Carly doesn't really like me like that huh? You got what you wanted. Here to gloat?" I shook my head. "I came to make my best friend feel better if I could." He looked at me confusion showing on his face.
"I thought you hated me."
"I hate that when Carly's in the room she's the only one you can see. That we used to be best friends, and we drove ourselves apart. That's what I hate."
"Oh."
I reached over and took his hand. "Freddie, I'm sorry about how I've treated you these past few years. It's only because… because I really like you. Love you even."
Freddie looked at my hand, wrapped within his own. "Only one way to find out." He pulled me into his arms, and curled his arms around my waist. The instant his lips touched mine, the entire world fell away from me. I was spinning through the stars, past the moon, straight into the sun. His arms tightened my waist, and he leaned into my kiss. I pulled away and tapped his nose. "Does this mean we're going out?"
Freddie laughed into the night. "Samantha Puckett, the gods above must love me enough to send you. I think we are." We walked home together that night. Holding hands, laughing and hugging each other, trying to make up the past 5 years of missing each other. I love him, and he love's me, in the end that's all that matters.