Author Note: Hey ppl this is my first fanfic so i need reviews to tell me if i should continue! i already wrote chapter 2 and i like it better than this chapter so lets see... if i get 4 reviews ill post the next chapter... im in school so it might b a while for the 3rd chapter ok have fun reading!
o yea almost 4got... i dont own Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, or any of the characters :(
"Ugh!" I sighed as I flopped down onto my bed. "You have got to be kidding me! This is unbelievable!"
I had just finished reading Eclipse, the third book in the Twilight Saga. When I was reading Twilight, I was 100 Team Edward. But of course, there were no other options back then. Then when I read New Moon, I was just undecided. I couldn't believe that Edward had left, and even when he came back, I just didn't trust him anymore. Jacob Black seemed pretty nice to Bella and I felt bad for him at the end of New Moon. But after I read Eclipse, I began to realize the intensity of Edward and Bella's relationship and also realized that Jacob was not giving up. All through Eclipse, he was turning into a jerk and acting like a little kid. I couldn't understand why he could not figure out that Bella was with Edward…forever. There was no changing that. Jacob just couldn't let go. I knew he could eventually come back in Breaking Dawn (the fourth book in the Twilight Saga), but Breaking Dawn doesn't come out for 8 more days! I now had eight days to find something to occupy my mind away from the books, with was probably gonna be an impossible challenge. I loved them all too much.
I decided to start getting ready for school. I took off my pajamas, took a shower, and changed into my new Aeropostle dress that I got for my 13th birthday last week. I looked outside my window and saw the bright sun in my home town of Flagstaff, Arizona, knowing it would be another good day. I packed my algebra homework from last night into my bag, along with Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse, and went downstairs for breakfast. Of course, my little twin brothers were fighting again over who got the last donut. I ignored them, grabbed my soccer bag for practice tonight and a cold blueberry poptart from the cupboard, and went out into the blistering heat. When I turned the corner, I noticed that my best friend Amber was waiting by the bus stop; she had beaten me there. As soon as she saw me, she ran over and practically shouted the same question that she had asked me every morning for the last 10 days.
"Sara, did you finish reading Eclipse yet?!"
"Yes," I told her so she wouldn't die of anticipation.
"What did you think?" She was practically hyperventilating with excitement.
"First, you need to settle down or you're going to have a heart attack" I told her, trying to quiet a laugh.
Amber loved the Twilight Saga about the same as I did, but she wasn't afraid to show her love and addiction to the series. The series was practically all we talked about every day, and today would be no different.
Amber and I were complete opposites and we pretty much only had one thing in common- absolutely loving the Twilight series. I was always a shy, quiet girl, and it never bothered me. I was more comfortable with not being the center of attention. Unlike me, Amber always wanted to be in the spotlight. She was very pretty, with long, straight black hair and dazzling brown eyes. She had great complexion and was about 5'6. She had an older sister named Shelby, who was already in her third year of high school. Amber was very talkative, always making friends easily. She had a great personality and was fun to be around. I have no idea why she chose me to be her best friend, but there was apparently something about me that she liked.
I was totally different from Amber in a multitude of ways. I had dirty blond curly hair that went down to my shoulders; light blue eyes, and was about 5'8. I never had what people would call a "pretty" figure; I was always on the heavier side. I never wore makeup; I really don't think it would do any good if I wore any, and I had glasses that I was hopefully getting rid of soon. I never made friends that easily, mostly because I was too nervous to introduce myself. I certainly didn't do very well with boys and pretty much had given up on that subject, at least for the time being.
My family and I lived a pretty normal life. My dad works for an engineering company and my mom worked for a clothing line, before she became a stay-at-home mom. We had a fair amount of money, so that was never a problem. We lived in a two-story house in a good part of the neighborhood, with Amber living just down the street. My two little brothers, Lukas and Andrew, shared a room and I got my own room at the end of the hall. I loved my room, it described me perfectly. I had light yellow walls and blue carpet. I had pictures of some of my favorite celebrities up on my wall, and my bedspread was a splash of colors. My secret favorite was tie-dye and seriously, I have no idea why I love it. There are a lot of things about me that I just don't understand. My favorite part of my room though was my doorway. As soon as you walk in, you are surrounded by purple beads. I love the way they clash together when someone walks through my door… okay, sorry, getting off topic here, let me get back to the bus stop.
"Amber, of course I loved it, just like I loved all the other books." I explained to her. "I got up at like, 5:30 in the morning to finish reading it."
"Wow, awesome! I knew you would love it! Now we can talk about all your favorite parts," she told me when the bus pulled up. I had asked her before to not talk about Eclipse until I was done with it, hoping not to get any un-wanted spoilers. We talked about how hot Edward Cullen was how idiotic Jacob Black was on the way to school. Since our lockers were right next to each other, we talked about it up until the first bell.
School, in general, is pretty boring. Remember how I told you that Amber and I are exactly different? Well, I have all honors classes and Amber doesn't. School was never a problem for me, it came pretty easy. Amber, on the other hand, needed help with homework and subjects during school that I wouldn't have thought possible. I'm not calling Amber stupid or anything, but she just doesn't get things the way other people do. It's harder for her to concentrate and she has told me before that school bores her. I don't blame her.
As usual, whenever I could get a free moment, I would take one of the three books out of my backpack and open to a random page. I always loved doing that; I never knew what part I was reading until I actually started reading. Twice, I got scolded for not paying attention in class (who could blame me, I was thinking about Edward). When school had ended, I grabbed my backpack and my soccer bag and went to the locker room to change. Amber was already there; it seemed like she was beating me at everything today. I quickly changed and ran out onto the field to practice. Amber and I kicked the ball around until the coach called us in. That's when I noticed for the first time that the 8th grade boys track team was practicing outside too.
'Perfect' I thought to myself.
I was never that great at soccer, or any sport in general. I felt out of place on a court or a field, but I tried out anyways. There were only two reasons that I tried out for the soccer team- 1) Amber was trying out and I loved to be with her and 2) I knew I needed to get in shape for the summer. Summer was only a few short weeks away, and I wasn't sure if I could look good enough to be in public in a swimsuit without feeling self-conscious. I was going to try though, so I needed to work out somehow. It was a mystery to me how I managed to make the team; everyone who tried out seemed to be better than me. The coach told me I had a never-ending spirit or something like that at tryouts so I guess that's why he put me on the team- I knew it wasn't because of my talent. So every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, I put on my shinguards, got my soccer ball, and went out onto the field to practice.
I always felt very weird around boys; from about the time I turned 11. I told my mom about it and she said "Hormones, sweetie" and was distracted by Lukas playing with the oven. My mom and I never really had a heart-to-heart conversation, and that was fine with me, since I wasn't really up to talking about anything sexual related with her. I never knew how to act around boys; I always seemed to trip or stare at them when I was around them. I wouldn't call myself attracted to them, more like confused. The last thing I wanted a boy to see was a sweaty, overweight girl playing soccer badly on the field- me.
"Wonderful." I whispered to Amber in a sarcastic tone. "The boys are practicing."
"It's not so bad" the girl with the perfect figure and great soccer-playing skills whispered back. "Just ignore them."
Easier said than done.
After I fell once and missed three shots in a row, I knew that concentrating was going to be impossible. I tried to focus all the thoughts on soccer, but they kept wandering from Twilight to the track boys to New Moon to the track boys to Eclipse until finally I just couldn't take it anymore. I swore I saw two boys laughing at me when I fell, but I couldn't be sure. I usually wasn't clumsy, but that could change in a second according to my situation. This was a bad situation.
Practice finally ended, much to my delight. I practically ran to the locker room and was out of sight before anyone could notice. I tried to ignore the stinging of my hands where I cut them when I fell as I took off my socks. I waited for Amber to finish, and we walked out to meet my mom who was going to drive us home. The car ride was pretty loud, with my brothers screaming loudly and way off key to the Power Rangers theme song, but Amber knew that we would talk when we were in my room. I flew up the stairs and into my room as soon as my mom stopped the car, with Amber behind me.
When I got there, I let the few tears escape that I was holding back through the practice. Amber was there to comfort me, telling me nothing had happened and that I was a soccer player with great potential. And that all boys that didn't like me were jerks because I was perfect. I didn't believe a single word she said, but it was nice to have someone talk to me like that. After I was done, we talked about Eclipse until it was time for her to go home and eat dinner. I knew we would never be finished talking about our favorite books, but I would see her tomorrow. My mom had to go to a party with her friends and my dad had to work really late, so I was stuck watching the 6-year-old twin terrors after Amber left. Andrew managed to break a lamp and overflow the toilet with his action figures in an hour, so I knew it was going to be one of those nights. I finally settled them down with a Power Rangers episode and curled up next to them on the couch, Twilight in my hands. I looked up a couple of minutes later to find them both sleeping.
'Yes!' I thought in my head as I carried them one at a time up to their room. After I was finished taking them, I went to my room and sat down on my bed, wondering what to do. I haven't had any homework that day, I wasn't hungry, and it was still too early to go to sleep. Of course, I decided to lie down and read Eclipse until someone got home. I changed into my pajamas and lay my head down on the pillow, with my reading lamp on. I was actually very tired, I realized. As I read of Edward's battle with Victoria, I wondered if I could ever find someone that would love me the way Edward loved Bella.
'Probably not,' I thought in my head. 'Edward loves Bella more than anyone can imagine. I wonder what it would be like to be Bella Swan? She had to go through that first day, and was so lucky that she didn't get killed, even though she didn't even know she was in danger. She got saved by the van that was gonna crush her, and didn't understand how Edward saved her so quickly and he didn't even get hurt. Edward then saved her from those men in Port Angeles, and he finally told her his secret. She had to find out that Edward and his whole family are vampires, something that is unbelievable. She almost died again by James, a non-vegetarian vampire who wanted Bella's blood. Edward saved her again, and they all live happily ever after until the next book.
In New Moon, she has Edward, who is her only true love, whom she can't live without. Edward leaves her, thinking that is what's best for her. She goes into a horrible depression for many months, which must have been terrifying for her. She lost Edward- her soul mate and destined lover. She lost a whole future with him, and they can never be together again. She finally goes to her semi-friend Jacob for comfort, support, and to try to get her life back. They grow into something more than friendship, which probably was confusing for Bella, since she has only loved one person and always will- Edward. Bella must have thought she was crazy when she figured out Jacob had turned into a werewolf- I mean, who else would pick mythical creatures as their lovers and best friends? She still managed to keep up the friendship with him though, because she loved Jacob like a brother. Jacob loved her differently though, and was crushed when she left to save Edward. Bella, even though Edward left her and doesn't want to be with her anymore, still risks her life to save him. If that doesn't show true love, I don't know what does. She succeeds, and they all live happily ever after again, only this time with miserable Jacob in the story.
In Eclipse, she wants to become a vampire so she can live forever with Edward, but Edward is very stubborn on changing her and even when he agrees with her plan, he still doesn't like it. That's got to be hard. At least she doesn't have to worry about Victoria anymore, since Edward killed her. On the other hand though, she still has to worry about the Volturi, who plan to kill her if she doesn't become a vampire in the near future. Oh, but she won't be human much longer, hopefully if Edward and Bella stick to their 'compromise'. But what does she do about Jacob? She already broke his heart, his life, his reason for actually living. How can she live with herself? She has a very hard life. Wow, I wonder what it must be like to be Isabella Swan…'
Author Note: I know, ur like "another author note?!" i dont blame u. but i just wanted 2 let u know that pictures of outfits for this story...including other chapters that are soon to be posted!!... r on my profile...yea and if u have time and r bored, read my profile cuz its awesome! ok i think im done now ok bye!