Title: Three Takes (On Life)Show: Skins
Character/Relationships: Tony, Chris, Cook
Rating: pg-13
Note: Written for a challenge at tvnetwork2_las
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Tony has always known that he is meant for something bigger, for something great. Everyone always tells him, and he himself could not agree more.
He is special. But he also knows that this does not mean a thing.
In the blink of an eye, or the turn of a bus, everything can be over. Because, wasn't Chris the most special of them all?
Life doesn't give a fuck if you have accomplished anything yet. You need to make it count, no time to waste.
So Tony leaves, and he learns, and he loves and he fucks, like it is the last thing he will ever do. (And maybe, it is.)
Live as if you'll die tomorrow, dream as if you'll live forever.
James Dean said it, so it must be true.
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Life is short, Chris knows this, no need to tell him, thank you very much. (Peter taught him years ago.) But he doesn't care. He does not feel like he needs to accomplish something that will make his name known forever. (He is not Tony. Or Jal.)
He just wants to be, wants to feel, just a little bit longer.
So he tries, and experiences and screws up, but he always, always tries.
Fuck it, he tells himself.
Fuck it. Fuck it. Fuck it.
No day like today. And who needs tomorrow, when you've got pills and spliff and friends and a girl to good to be true.
The good ones always die young, so it is a compliment, really.
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Not many people are aware of it, but before Chris' mom left and before Cook's mom kicked him out (basically before everything turned to shit) Cook was his friends.
Chris was someone who got him, who understood.
But time went by, and things changed. Chris got soft. Cook got angry.
Cook doesn't go to the funeral. But he moves into Chris's old room, and when he looks at the fainted drawings on the walls, he remembers.
He does not go to Freddie's funeral either, cannot stand to look at his best friend likes that.
Cannot stand to say goodbye, because what is left to do after that?
Karen screams at him for not showing up, for not paying his respect. But she fucks him the same night, nails digging into his back and tears streaming down her face when she comes.
He doesn't complain though, she is the closest to Freddie he will get now.
Sometimes he wonders, if maybe he lived to fast.
If he already did everything he was supposed to do and felt everything he was supposed to feel, and now there is nothing left to do but wait it out.
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fin.