Hey, I know it's a little late to be writing an OrihimexUlquiorra fic, but... well, I did. I think they're cute together! This fic is based off of Muse's song Madness (a little late for the song too), I had this idea in my head ever since the song came out, I just didn't write it until now. So these thoughts are thoughts after Ulquiorra dies. Ulquiorra thinks first about Orihime, Orihime's thoughts on Ulquiorra are second. Read&Review!

I thought I could get the image of you out of my head, but your smile… it drives me insane. Orihime Inoue… I've been having images of you and me inside my head. You and me in the human world. I don't know why I have been thinking this way. I have never had these feelings for anyone, not to mention human trash… but that's not true. You're not trash to me. You were stronger than I expected and you never gave up hope.

I have finally been able to see your appeal. I don't find your physical appearance attractive or repulsive, but your appeal isn't in your body. I know other people may want that part of you, but I am certain that your appeal is in your heart. I need to know, is this love? Or am I just unaware of how I feel? When I look back at all the things I've said to you, I still can't understand why you acted the way you did. I gave the situation to you the way it should have played out, but you slapped me across the face and I don't know why you acted that way. I understand that you care for your friends, but I don't understand why you feel that for them.

I have finally been able to see your charm. Your kindness to everyone, even to me. I've finally realized that you need someone to love and care for you as much as you love and care for other people.

I need to know if you can love me back. I need to know if this is just me misunderstanding the situation. I need to know if you care for me more than you care for everyone else. I know it's not fair for me to ask you to say that I am more important to you than your friends, so I won't ask you that. I will ask you if you can love me as a lover, not a friend.

But now I have finally seen the end of my existence in this life and I'm not expecting you to care about me. I know that you were relived that your friend, Ichigo Kurosaki, survived, but I think that you were still sad over me. I reached out to you, you hesitated out of surprise, but then you reached out to me too. You tried to grab my hand, but it was to late. But now, I have finally seen the light of your radiant smile. I have finally realized, I need to love you because you have made me understand the heart.

Come to me, not just in a dream. Come on and rescue me from my existence. Yes I know, I can be wrong, maybe I'm too emotionless. I know that if we loved each other, that love would be madness.

Ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma...

I can't get you out of my head. You never smiled, you were never happy or anything. You never showed any emotion at all. Ulquiorra Schiffer… Why are you so emotionless? I don't think it's due to your Hollow powers because other Hollows have different personalities and emotions. You didn't understand anything I did. You didn't understand why I tried to defend my friends. But, that's not your fault... is it?

I think I've finally figured a little bit of you out. Your emotionless, just like a normal Hollow, but that's not you. You're truly special. I heard from Aizen that all Espada have something they stand for. I'm not sure what the exact term for it is, but you stand for nothingness. You're alone in this world because you don't feel anything for anyone. Because you can't feel anything for anyone. You do feel loyalty, but if someone turns on you, you don't feel betrayal.

I need to know is this feeling in my heart one that will only be for you? There are different rumors of who I like and who likes me, but I honestly couldn't care less about their opinions on this. I feel something for you, something I have never felt before. Love. I do love my brother and my friends, but with you… it's different. I need to know if I actually love you.

I can see your appeal. It's in your eyes, the ones that look so distant. They hold something different, something I can't explain. I'm good at reading people, but you're more difficult to read. Somehow, I think I do understand you. I just wish that I took the chance to tell you how I feel. I wish I took the chance to tell you that I love you.

Now you're gone and I'm not expecting you to care about my feelings. I'm so selfish, but I have finally seen the light. It's okay for me to be selfish sometimes. So I'll let myself be selfish this once because I need to love you, even if you don't love me.

Come to me, not just in a dream. Come on and rescue me from my lonesome existence. Yes I know, I can be wrong, maybe I'm to determined. I know that if we loved each other, that love would be madness.

Ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma...