In A Glance
Disclaimer: They're not mine, I love them anyway though.
A/N: My last attempt at Lily/James I think. It's just too sad.
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake
I pray the Lord my soul to take
"Lily, take Harry and go! It's him! Go! Run! I'll hold him off—" In his haggard, frantic face, she read all the things he wished that he could say.
I love you Lily, please understand. I'm sorry to leave you Lily, I love you so much. But if anyone ever knew how much I had to try, it would be you. You know me well enough. Know that I have to be the first. I hate to leave you, to leave you all alone. But you understand, please understand, I would sacrifice myself to let you breathe for five more seconds. I love you, and because I love you, I will try anything to save you. I don't care if it's stupid and foolhardy. I don't care if it won't work. I need you to support this decision. I need to take my last chance to save you. I will do anything. I can't feel useless anymore. I can't go down without a fight.
It's all my fault isn't it? All my fault for changing my mind. I can't let you die for my mistake. I won't let you die for my mistake. I love you.
Even now, you are beautiful. I want to memorize your face. I want to see you one last time. I want you to be the last thing I remember, to see your eyes in that rush of green.
Don't be afraid. You can manage on your own. I've always thought that you could survive better without me than I could without you.
I'll miss you. I'll miss Sirius and Remus and Peter. I'll miss this life I have, which has been a good life. I regret nothing but the end.
Be strong now Lily. Harry needs you. It is so important that Harry keeps you. I love him. He needs someone to take care of him. Take care of him.
I wish I had time. I wish I had time to tell you everything. To give you all the things I promised. I'm sorry for all that I'll miss. I'm sorry for all the birthdays and anniversaries and quidditch matches.
Know that I love you. Always. No matter what. I am not afraid for myself. I am resigned. I am afraid for you. I am afraid that you will not survive the night. Stay alive. Keep our son alive.
I love you
I love you.
I love you.
Goodbye.
Lily nodded and stumbled from the room.