A/N: Hiya peoples! This is just a 'lil fic from Daisukes POV about the relationship between TK and Kari. Just so you know, I kinda jump around with the names, if you know what I mean. Except Daisukes', not calling him Davis. It just doesn't sound right! Daisuke is a better name anyway! In my opinion. So uh, this is kinda short, I threw some poetry in there too, go figure. Me writing poetry, whatta surprise! Oh, and as for Dai, I kinda have his personality jumping around between, the selfish Kari belongs with me jerk Daisuke that many of you know him as, to the sad, thoughtful, sweetheart Daisuke that I know is in there some where. So that's 'bout it, PLEASE r/r!! Oh yeah, and, enjoy!
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It seems I see
Them everyday
They're just friends
Or so they say
I see the way
They always act
But it's all a lie
And that's a fact
They don't want to hurt me
And so they try
To hide their feelings
With every lie
But their feelings are obvious
They're not like they were before
And each time they try
It just hurts me more.
~~~
I sighed. There they go again. Hugging. Hikari hugging Takeru. Hikari laughing and smiling with Takeru. Damn you TK, you just had to come along and ruin it didn't you? You just had to come and take her away from me. To take Kari away from me. Why Takeru? You're supposed to be my friend. Your supposed to want me to be happy. Your supposed to let me have Hikari! I'm supposed to be with her! I saw her first!
OK, how selfish did that just sound? Pretty damn selfish! God Hikari, why do you do this to me? Why must you steal my breath away with every smile, hell with every frown? Why must you be so beautiful? So God damned beautiful that I can't even think clearly in your presence? Oh, jeez, shut up Daisuke! You can't blame this on Kari! You can't blame your own stupid feelings on Kari! It's not her fault that I fell in love, I just, did. I couldn't help it. How could I? How could anyone? Takeru certainly couldn't.
But now I'm getting mad a Takeru again. I shouldn't be, he's my friend. And it's not like I could blame him for liking Kari so much, for loving her. Love. Love is supposed to be a good thing. When you love someone they're supposed to love you back and your supposed to be happy. So why couldn't I be happy? Why did love have to have such a different meaning to me? Why for me did love have to be associated with such pain? Why did it have to be associated with such jealousy?
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I just can't help but be
Jealous of those two
Jealous of their happiness
In everything they do
I guess jealousy's an ugly thing
And I guess that it's wrong
It makes you feel so lost inside
Like you just don't belong
It makes your heart
Ache all to much
Longing to be close to her
Longing for her touch
Longing for the thoughts I have
Not to be so grim
Longing for her to see me
The way that she sees him.
~~~
What does he have that I don't? He's no better looking then I am, is he? Mr. Hot shot basketball player, is that it? He's the star of the basketball team? No, that can't be it. I'm just as good at soccer as he is at basketball, I'd be the star of the team too, if it wasn't for Taichi. And now I sound like I'm blaming Tai. Only I could find a way to blame Tai of all people for Kari not liking me. What the hell is wrong with me?
Am I obsessing? Maybe she doesn't even like him. Maybe they are just friends. Maybe Kari even likes me. Nuh. There's no way. I'm not lucky enough for that one. Kari could never love me. There's nothing special about me. I'm just that guy. The one who always hangs around her at school. The one she sees as a friend, a friend and nothing more. TK's the one she loves, he's the one she wants to be with. Hikari and Takeru. They sounded so perfect. They were so perfect. So sickeningly perfect that I felt like I might break down at any minute.
But I couldn't. I had to be strong. If I ever wanted any chance at being with Kari, I had to be strong. Jealousy would get me no where. All it does is make me feel worse. I really do need to stop it. Why can't I just get over it and let them be together. Did I love her that much? And if I did then why did I insist on taking her away from him. Away from my friend who I should be happy for. Away form the one I knew that she loved. Could I really be that selfish? To expect her to be with me when it was so obvious that she had feelings for Takeru? When I knew that it was him she loved and not me?
~~~
I guess it's all a delussion
The simple thought of us
That she could actually love me
But now it hurts so much
To even be around her
To always see her face
Cause seeing her with him
Just seems so out of place
Why can't she love me
The way that I love her
Why must she hurt me
With every word
Why can't we be together
Why can't she love me
I love her so much
So why can't she see?
~~~
I cry sometimes. I know it sounds bad, I'm to old to cry, about some girl no less. But I can't help it. The countless times I've just lay awake, staring up at my ceiling and asking myself, why can't she love me? Why can't we be together? Why does she love Takeru? And that's when I cry. When I know I can't have her, that I can never have her. She's just out of my reach, there's nothing I can do to get her. That's when I let warm tears run down my cheeks and cry myself to sleep.
And again, I know it sounds dumb. I know it make me sound like a baby. I know it's pathetic. My whole life is so damn pathetic. Why can't I just be happy? Why can't we just be happy? It's so unfair, I shouldn't be worrying about this. I have the fate of the world resting ever so heavily on my shoulders. I don't have time to be worrying about them. My screwed up love life in no way compares to the other problems I have to face. Or at least it shouldn't. I'm the leader now, it's my job to protect them, and I can't let this stand in my way. I can't risk hurting the others because I'm upset about something. I can't!
I have to put it behind me. I have to stop feeling this way for not only my sake, but for all of our sakes. For Hikari's sake. I just wanted her to be happy, I loved her so much. And if I couldn't make her happy, well then maybe I didn't belong with her. Let Takeru have her. As much as it hurts me to see them together, the way it rips at my heart with every glance at the pair. As long as she's happy, that's all I want. I'll be at peace, as long as she's happy. No matter how many times my heart has to break in the process.
~~~
As long as she's happy
I guess I can survive
I have to get over her
And get on with my life
Let them be together
If that's how they feel
Because I know that at times
I'm just a third wheel
And as long as she's happy
It wont be so bad
I have to get over this pain
I can't be so sad
I have to move on
And leave her behind
And maybe someday
I'll finally find
That it's all for the best
Our lives can go on
And maybe then
This jealousy will be gone.
~~~
The End
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A/N: OK, that was kinda short. Nine paragraphs and a poem, that's short! Oh well, I just felt that I had to write something about Daisuke for some reason. I actually almost wrote a Daikari, but then, well I dunno I just didn't. I like Takari better anyway. So did that make sense? I'm not totally sure. Me and my weird poem/fic things, I dunno, whatever. I hope you liked it! I hope that it made some of you see that maybe Dai isn't such a jerk, well, OK, maybe he is, a little. But that's not the point! I've decided that no matter how he acts in the show, in the end he'll let TK and Kari be together. Unless I do end up writing a Daikari someday, then well, whatever, we'll see.
~~~
It seems I see
Them everyday
They're just friends
Or so they say
I see the way
They always act
But it's all a lie
And that's a fact
They don't want to hurt me
And so they try
To hide their feelings
With every lie
But their feelings are obvious
They're not like they were before
And each time they try
It just hurts me more.
~~~
I sighed. There they go again. Hugging. Hikari hugging Takeru. Hikari laughing and smiling with Takeru. Damn you TK, you just had to come along and ruin it didn't you? You just had to come and take her away from me. To take Kari away from me. Why Takeru? You're supposed to be my friend. Your supposed to want me to be happy. Your supposed to let me have Hikari! I'm supposed to be with her! I saw her first!
OK, how selfish did that just sound? Pretty damn selfish! God Hikari, why do you do this to me? Why must you steal my breath away with every smile, hell with every frown? Why must you be so beautiful? So God damned beautiful that I can't even think clearly in your presence? Oh, jeez, shut up Daisuke! You can't blame this on Kari! You can't blame your own stupid feelings on Kari! It's not her fault that I fell in love, I just, did. I couldn't help it. How could I? How could anyone? Takeru certainly couldn't.
But now I'm getting mad a Takeru again. I shouldn't be, he's my friend. And it's not like I could blame him for liking Kari so much, for loving her. Love. Love is supposed to be a good thing. When you love someone they're supposed to love you back and your supposed to be happy. So why couldn't I be happy? Why did love have to have such a different meaning to me? Why for me did love have to be associated with such pain? Why did it have to be associated with such jealousy?
~~~
I just can't help but be
Jealous of those two
Jealous of their happiness
In everything they do
I guess jealousy's an ugly thing
And I guess that it's wrong
It makes you feel so lost inside
Like you just don't belong
It makes your heart
Ache all to much
Longing to be close to her
Longing for her touch
Longing for the thoughts I have
Not to be so grim
Longing for her to see me
The way that she sees him.
~~~
What does he have that I don't? He's no better looking then I am, is he? Mr. Hot shot basketball player, is that it? He's the star of the basketball team? No, that can't be it. I'm just as good at soccer as he is at basketball, I'd be the star of the team too, if it wasn't for Taichi. And now I sound like I'm blaming Tai. Only I could find a way to blame Tai of all people for Kari not liking me. What the hell is wrong with me?
Am I obsessing? Maybe she doesn't even like him. Maybe they are just friends. Maybe Kari even likes me. Nuh. There's no way. I'm not lucky enough for that one. Kari could never love me. There's nothing special about me. I'm just that guy. The one who always hangs around her at school. The one she sees as a friend, a friend and nothing more. TK's the one she loves, he's the one she wants to be with. Hikari and Takeru. They sounded so perfect. They were so perfect. So sickeningly perfect that I felt like I might break down at any minute.
But I couldn't. I had to be strong. If I ever wanted any chance at being with Kari, I had to be strong. Jealousy would get me no where. All it does is make me feel worse. I really do need to stop it. Why can't I just get over it and let them be together. Did I love her that much? And if I did then why did I insist on taking her away from him. Away from my friend who I should be happy for. Away form the one I knew that she loved. Could I really be that selfish? To expect her to be with me when it was so obvious that she had feelings for Takeru? When I knew that it was him she loved and not me?
~~~
I guess it's all a delussion
The simple thought of us
That she could actually love me
But now it hurts so much
To even be around her
To always see her face
Cause seeing her with him
Just seems so out of place
Why can't she love me
The way that I love her
Why must she hurt me
With every word
Why can't we be together
Why can't she love me
I love her so much
So why can't she see?
~~~
I cry sometimes. I know it sounds bad, I'm to old to cry, about some girl no less. But I can't help it. The countless times I've just lay awake, staring up at my ceiling and asking myself, why can't she love me? Why can't we be together? Why does she love Takeru? And that's when I cry. When I know I can't have her, that I can never have her. She's just out of my reach, there's nothing I can do to get her. That's when I let warm tears run down my cheeks and cry myself to sleep.
And again, I know it sounds dumb. I know it make me sound like a baby. I know it's pathetic. My whole life is so damn pathetic. Why can't I just be happy? Why can't we just be happy? It's so unfair, I shouldn't be worrying about this. I have the fate of the world resting ever so heavily on my shoulders. I don't have time to be worrying about them. My screwed up love life in no way compares to the other problems I have to face. Or at least it shouldn't. I'm the leader now, it's my job to protect them, and I can't let this stand in my way. I can't risk hurting the others because I'm upset about something. I can't!
I have to put it behind me. I have to stop feeling this way for not only my sake, but for all of our sakes. For Hikari's sake. I just wanted her to be happy, I loved her so much. And if I couldn't make her happy, well then maybe I didn't belong with her. Let Takeru have her. As much as it hurts me to see them together, the way it rips at my heart with every glance at the pair. As long as she's happy, that's all I want. I'll be at peace, as long as she's happy. No matter how many times my heart has to break in the process.
~~~
As long as she's happy
I guess I can survive
I have to get over her
And get on with my life
Let them be together
If that's how they feel
Because I know that at times
I'm just a third wheel
And as long as she's happy
It wont be so bad
I have to get over this pain
I can't be so sad
I have to move on
And leave her behind
And maybe someday
I'll finally find
That it's all for the best
Our lives can go on
And maybe then
This jealousy will be gone.
~~~
The End
~~~
A/N: OK, that was kinda short. Nine paragraphs and a poem, that's short! Oh well, I just felt that I had to write something about Daisuke for some reason. I actually almost wrote a Daikari, but then, well I dunno I just didn't. I like Takari better anyway. So did that make sense? I'm not totally sure. Me and my weird poem/fic things, I dunno, whatever. I hope you liked it! I hope that it made some of you see that maybe Dai isn't such a jerk, well, OK, maybe he is, a little. But that's not the point! I've decided that no matter how he acts in the show, in the end he'll let TK and Kari be together. Unless I do end up writing a Daikari someday, then well, whatever, we'll see.