I felt the cab slowly come to a stop as it pulled up outside the RnR and I heard the cab driver ask for his money but I was too concentrated on what everyone would act like knowing that I'm finally cured and back for good. I slowly pulled out a ten pound note from my purse and got out. As the cab drove away I noticed the familiar face of Lucy Beale, she looked up joining eye contact with me and then walked towards me. I didn't really understand why she was walking towards me, I mean she hated me... Didn't she?

"Lauren... You look fantastic." Lucy smiled seeming to be genuine as she hugged me.

I was determined to make things right between me and Lucy. "Well thanks, I know I had a problem... But that's all sorted now, Can we just start over Luc?"

"Nothing would make me happier." She smiled. "Look, I've got to get back to work but I'm pretty sure someone wants to see you..."

I knew who she meant... Joey. This was going to be one of the toughest 'hello's' of all time. I slowly walked inside the RnR knowing that he'd be there... He was always there. I made my way down the steps and into the main bar where Joey was putting bottles on the self. He didn't even notice I was behind him until I spoke.

"Um, Vodka please." I giggled slightly as he turned around. "Don't worry, I'm clean."

"Lauren... I-I" Joey was tongue tied.

"I know, I'm sorry... I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I left, I had to keep it a secret I felt like it was easier that way. I didn't want to hurt you and I certainly didn't want to hurt myself anymore than I already was." I gulped explaining my intentions from the night I left.

"You don't have to explain yourself to me." Joey walked over to me and caressed my cheek. "I've missed you."

For a second, It felt like everything was back to normal... I was lost in the moment like it was some kinda fairy tale, or an amazing dream you have trouble waking up from. "I missed you too."

He moved away slowly. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that."

"Joey... You still have feelings for me dont you?"

He looked down at the floor, it was obvious he wanted to deny it and keep it a secret... but he didn't. "Yes, I do."

"I do too..." I spoke quietly with a smile on my lips. "But I can't stay around here."

"What? Why?" He looked up and his eyes met mine.

"My Doctor said that coming but here could cause a relaps, So I need to leave."

"But, You cant... I need you."

"I just wanted to show you that I was okay, I wanted to see you one last time before I left... For good this time. I'm sorry."