Summery

Flora is in a way aren't we all. A series of events that leave her broken, Flora is all alone until she meets Riven. After battling depression, and a eating disorder she's back and wishing to just forget her painful past and just move on. But some memories leave scars on the mind and even the skin.

Prologue

You know that place between awake and asleep ,where you mind wanders, where anything is possible.

A place where my mother never died, where my father didn't leave, and I'm with my brother.

I hate that place.

A place where the world isn't cold and cruel.

A place full of lies that disguises themselves as truths.

Where there is no sadness, no hate.

A place where I was never depressed.

A place where I never discovered what a sharp blade could do to your wrist,arms,and legs

A place where I didn't care what I looked like.

A place where I'm not damaged.

Flora's pov

I blink back the pain caused by the sun's violent rays. There was a book open on my lap. It sat there unread and forgotten. I had my earbuds in, my full attention on the outside of the window. The sun was bright almost too bright. The sky was blue but didn't seem blue enough. Perhaps the brightness of the sun made the the sky pale blue. Perhaps it made the sky dull.

I pulled out my phone and snapped the picture. I'll draw it later.

My phone buzzed.

Jake-Hey there sis, you doing ok? I know you're coming back today sorry I can't be there to welcome you home. Unfortunately my classes started today so it might be a while before we see each other again.

I smiled. Jake goes to school in Maine. That's where his adoptive parents live. He also skipped two years so he is a freshmen in college. I know it makes me look like a total failure.

Me-It's ok…..

Me- It'll be good to finally be home. Riven moved while I was away. He now lives in Gardena.

Jake-That's good. A new school will be good that last one sounded like hell.

At my old school I was bullied severely. That's what started my depression and why I was sent to England for rehab and treatment.

Me-It was but at least Riven was there to help

Jake- True…...By the way what grade are you going into

Me- I'm a Junior you idiot. Stop trying to act all old

Jake- ;) love you kid

Me-Love you too

Riven's pov

"Don't tell me you're nervous," Nabu said through speaker phone.

I glared at my phone. I could practically hear him smirking.

"Of course I'm not nervous," I shot back.

That was a lie if I ever heard one. Of course I was nervous. I haven't see Flora in a little over a year. Would she be the same sweet kind girl. Did I want her to be the same because that same Flora was also depressed. Are her both physical and emotional scars healed. Or are they still bleeding. Could she be the same but happy. Would she eat.

I mentally kicked myself for that. Of course she would be different she was in rehab for a year. Though my mom did warn me that it would be hard for her and that once you are depressed it is easy to become depressed again and that leads to harm.

I remember the first time I saw her hurt herself. She was wore a straight face as she made the cut. I remember yelling at her, then her yelling back,then her yelling turning to sobs.

"Hey you still there?" I snapped out of my thoughts. "Uh yeah I'm still here."

"Bro stop stressing out you're going to get yourself in a car accident. She's like your sister and she just went to school, you just haven't seen her in a while," Nabu stated in his usual calm voice.

"Yeah thanks, I got to go I'm here."

We said goodbye and I ended the call just in time to pull into the airport parking lot. I parked then grabbed a sign. I waited by the door with other people waiting. I held the sign which said Flora Linphea in my messy handwriting. I watch as people slowing made there way through the doors they looked around until they spotted the person picking them up. When Flora exited the door a smile spread across my face. She was slightly taller. Her golden brown hair that she cut before she left had grown long and was now kept in a braid. She was wearing black ripped jeans and a pink crop top.

She looked around, when she spotted me she smiled.

"Hey," she said when she got closer.

"Hey," I said giving a hug.

Flora's pov

Riven's car was nice. When I left we were just learning how to drive. Now he pulled out of the parking lot and switched lanes with confidence. I told him about my recovery and the amazing things I saw in England. He told me all about moving and his friends Nabu, Sky, Brandon, Timmy, Helia, Aisha, Bloom, Stella, and Tecna. He also told me about his girlfriend Musa.

"You really like her don't you?" I asked.

He actually blushed though it was almost unnoticeable I could definitely tell. "Yeah… she's really cool. You'll like her."

I nodded as I rubbed my scar covered forearms. I am not ready for school.

After about an hour we pulled in the driveway, the house way pretty big but not too big. I grabbed my suitcase.

"Home sweet home," Riven said as he got my other suitcase from the trunk.

I looked up at the house and sighed though I don't know if it was one of relief or regret.

We made our way to the door, before we even go to the porch the door flew open. There was a cry, the sound of footsteps then I was locked in a tight embrace. I closed my eyes and returned the hug. I stepped back Melissa stood there, tears in her eyes but a smile on her face. Julian walk up behind her, I gave him a hug as well. They stood next to each other. I smiled at Melissa and Julian, Riven's parents, my adoptive parents.

During dinner we laugh and told stories like I never even left, like we were always a happy family. Afterwards went to my new room. I unpack most of my clothes before my eyes grew heavy.

I crawled under my covers and prayed for a dreamless sleep. Things were going to get better. Things were going to change.

"I'm home," I whispered into the dark. Then for the first time in what seemed like forever, I fell asleep with a smile on my face.

First chapter done! Sorry that's not very long but I didn't want the first chapter to be very long. I wanted to find out what between awake and asleep is called and it is called Hypnagogia :). Anyways please review and tell me what you think. No flames but criticism is always welcome.

Until next time, Rebel's Secret