I Do Not Own Twilight or anything associated to Stephanie Meyers. I own only my original character.
It's been so long now. 3 years 6 months and 15 days to be exact. That's how long I've been "recovered". At least that's what everyone else calls it; I like to call it hell.
Ever since my parents forced me into a hospital that filled my veins with sugar water, therapeutic talks, group sharing and meal planning, I've been miserable. I've done just as I've been told though, eaten every little bite they put onto my plate and keeping in down in my stomach instead of throwing it up and flushing it down the toilet where it belongs.
I've been a good girl and followed my "recovery" plan to a 'T', but now I'm tired of it. I'm tired of shutting off the voice in my head telling me I'm turning into a cow. I know it's right and I'm becoming a fat tub of lard, but I fight it. That's what everyone wants me to do, so I give into them. They say I'm getting "healthy" and I look "great" but I know they're all lying. So I have to get away, get back to who I truly am and who I really want to be.
Today's my 18th birthday which means it's the day I gain my freedom and I'm moving back to my hometown of Forks, Washington.
"Emma are you sure you're going to be alright on your own? Have you found a Therapist to work with you in Forks? "Mother says to me.
"Yes mother, I have everything under control. Promise" I reply plastering my most convincing fake smile onto my face. Obviously I'm lying. I wouldn't dream of continuing therapy.
Therapy for me is literal torture. Dr. Fields, my current therapist, analyzes every move I make. She has come to know all of my tells and it's agony. Pure agony. I won't make myself go through that any longer. I can't bear it anymore, it's all just too much.
I finish packing my things and load them up into mother's car so that she can take me to the airport to catch my flight.
I have a heaping list of things to do once I land in Forks. I've got to get myself settled into our home there, get myself a brand new scale and begin my life again.
My parents and I lived in Forks back before my brain went haywire with counting calories and working out until my muscles went limp.
I was 13 when we moved here to the even smaller than Forks, Ringgold Georgia. My parents decided to keep the home in Forks in case we ever decided to move back.
I'm extremely thankful they did because now I will have no guardians around me to monitor meal times and prevent me from stepping on the scale.
God the scale… I haven't weighed myself in so long I'm sure when I step on it it's going to break. I know I've gained a crazy amount of weight due to the fact that when I was at my best I was wearing a size 00 jean. Now, unfortunately I'm wearing a size 4 jean. It makes me sick to my stomach to think about it. I can't… not yet.
I don't want them to know.
They can't know.
Get it together Emma. You're almost free.
After what seems like an eternity in the car, we finally arrive at the airport.
"Now Emma, please don't forget to call every day. We'll be coming to visit you in a few months. Are you sure you're going to be alright? I don't want you to ruin all the progress you've made and crumble away again" mother says with disdain all over her face.
I place my hand on her shoulder and look her straight in the eye as I say "Mom, I'm going to be fine. You don't have to worry."
She seems to be put slightly at ease by my words and gives me a lingering hug before I make my way into the airport to find my gate.
Freedom at last.
The flight takes about 6 hours and in that time I'm offered a can of soda (150), a muffin (80) and a banana (105). I refuse them all and simply sit drinking my water (0).
This is going to be good.
Paul (POV)
I woke up this morning feeling lighter somehow. It's like I can sense that this day is going to be special. I leave the house with a smile on my face and head the diner on the Rez to meet up with Jake, Embry and Jared. Of course they'll all have their imprints with them. Blech my stomach turns at the sight of all the imprint couples together. Half of the time they act like no one else is even near them. They're in the own little world or something. It's seriously gross.
As I'm walking down the road, I see a taxi pulling up to the empty house at the end of my street. A family use to live there like 5 years ago or something like that. I never met any of them though. They usually kept to themselves and then they moved away.
I see the door of the taxi open and my mouth drops. I see an amazingly beautiful girl step out with a bag over her shoulder. She's got long luscious dark brown hair that comes to the middle of her back. She's wearing a light gray sweatshirt that is hanging loosely off her body with black running shorts and dark maroon vans. She's got beautiful tan skin, and legs for days.
I see her move to the back of the taxi to get the rest of her bags. I run up and offer my help.
"Hey you need any help there?" I ask with a smile plastered onto my face.
She turns around and looks at me for the first time since she steps out of the cab and my world stops.
My heart feels like it's been injected with some type of warm substance.
It's like a light has been turned on in my body. I can see clearer, everything looks so BRIGHT!
I look into her eyes and they are the most beautiful shade of gray I have ever seen in my life.
I am momentarily stunned.
After what seems like an eternity she speaks.
"Oh, uhm Hi. I think I've got it but thanks anyways."
I'm instantly disappointed. I need to help her, hug her, hold her.
"Oh… okay. I'm Paul by the way." I say trying not to sound too eager.
"Emma." She responds giving me a small smile. It doesn't seem to reach her eyes though.
Now that I'm looking at her she looks tiny. Her arms are so thin and her legs look like they could snap just from her walking.
She grabs her bag from out of the trunk and turns to walk towards her house.
I realize I need to say something, anything.
"Maybe I'll see you around Emma?" I ask hoping her answer is a resounding yes.
"Maybe" is all she replies and then she walks into her house and I can no longer see her anymore.
I hope you all enjoyed this first chapter. I know it seems a little jumbled…. I really just wanted to introduce my character. I will elaborate more on her past and anything and everything else in later chapters. I'm going to make a goal to update this daily! Please feel free to leave a review!