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1 - Never Again:
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Spoilers: Each chapter may or may not contain a spoiler. This chapter happens to contain spoilers for the episode Crash and Burn.
Summary: A look into Grissom's and Sara's famous relationship. It's a series of song-fics, so every chapter is a song fic or has a song in it. GSR
A/N: The song in this chapter is called Never Again and it belongs to Kelly Clarkson, so I don't own it. This is your last warning...this whole story consists of song-fics. Don't read it if you don't like them.
A/N 2: I am hopeless when it comes to choosing a title. If you have any ideas for one, please leave a review and suggest one. Keep in mind that this whole story is made up of song-fics. Thanks!
Sara could not believe that Hank would to that to her. He went out with Sara even though he already had a girlfriend. It had been three weeks since she found out his dirty little secret. Tears welled up in Sara's eyes, but she quickly blinked them away. What really made matters worse was the fact that he asked Elaine to marry him. Sara shook her head in disgust and told herself how stupid she was for believing Hank. She walked around her apartment and threw away any photographs of Hank, or anything else that reminded her of him. She even burned some blankets and pillows because they smelled like him.
He left her a letter a few days ago, which she hadn't opened yet. She really didn't have any desire to open it or read it, either. She was planning on burning it or disposing of it later. It probably was an apology, but she would never accept it. She decided to write him her own letter, just to let him know how she felt.
"Hope whenever you look at her, you see my face," she mumbled under her breath as she wrote. "I hope the ring that you're going to give to her will infect her finger. I hope when your in bed with her, you smell my scent, and think of me...hopefully you'll be ashamed."
I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when you're in bed with her,
You think of me
"I don't want anything bad to happen to you – I'm not that cold – but I really don't want you to live the perfect, happy, satisfying life everyone dreams of, because you don't deserve it," she said as she scribbled down her thoughts on the piece of notebook paper.
I would never wish bad things,
But I don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words?
She walked back into her living room and stopped when she saw the envelope on the coffee table. She scoffed as she picked it up, tore it in two, and threw it in the fire place. There was something satisfying about how the envelope and letter shriveled and turned to ashes. She laughed harshly and she said bitterly as she wrote, "Did you honestly think a letter would fix everything? Well, I never read it, because I knew it was most likely and apology...well, I'll never forgive you!"
I never read your letter,
'Coz I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer,
Try and make it all okay
"Does it hurt, Hank, knowing that you'll never wake up next to me again?" she asked coldly as she continued to write down these harsh words. "My face and name always appears on TV because of the crimes people commit, so you'll never be rid of me...sucks to be you! You're the one who had to end our relationship by having another girlfriend...and don't try to tell me that you're sorry and didn't mean it. You didn't lose you're way...you knew exactly what you were doing! Elaine may believe that you're sorry, but I never will! I'll never believe you again."
Does it hurt?
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
See my face everywhere
It was you,
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew,
Exactly what you were doing
Don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you, but I never will
Never again
"Okay, truthfully, she deserves you," Sara wrote. "She'll be the trophy wife you've only dreamed about...real cute! But, ignorance is bliss, right? Elaine, you're day will come when he's had enough and he's through with you! He'll distance himself from you and try to juggle another relationship with another woman. He'll keep it a secret and you'll grow old and die together, but you'll be alone at the same time."
If she really knows the truth,
She deserves you
A trophy wife, oh, how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes, and he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together, but alone
"I'm still marveling over the fact that you wrote me a letter, Hank," Sara said, continuing to write down her thoughts. "You couldn't face it like a man and say it to my face. You'd probably give me some religious and sacred answer which is a bunch of bull anyway...just stay away from me."
You wrote me in a letter,
You couldn't say it right to my face
Well, give me that Sunday-school answer,
Repent yourself away
"I'm going to haunt you for the rest of your life, Hank," Sara wrote quickly. "We'll meet each other on the job...I'll be investigating the murders of the people you couldn't save. You'll see me everywhere! You'll be reminded of what you knowingly did, and each time you'll try to apologize! Other people may believe that you're sincerely sorry for your actions...I WON'T!!"
Does it hurt?
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
See my face everywhere
It was you,
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew,
Exactly what you were doing
Don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you, but I never will
Never again
"I'll never listen to you again," she said, writing all of this down. "I'll never miss you, I'll never fall for you! I'm never going to kiss you or ever have the desire to, I'll never want you, I'll never love you! NEVER!"
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never
"So, after reading this letter, does it hurt?" she wrote, trying to come up with a conclusion to her cold, bitter letter. "Are you dreading to see my face again? Will you be reminded of what you did to me? Did Elaine know of me? Was I the last to know what you were doing? Was I the last to know that you were aware of what you were doing? Will you ever confront me after this? If you do, just don't say you're sorry and that you lost your way, because I will never believe you...never again."
Does it hurt?
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you,
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew,
Exactly what you were doing
Don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you, but I never will
I never will
I never will
Never again
"Hmm, that doesn't sound half bad!" said Sara in surprise as she read over her letter. "It's a bit lengthy...but still, I think it sums up what I'm thinking and feeling. Alright, now to go find Hank and give this to him."
She walked out her front door and towards her ex-boyfriend's house. She saw him walking his dog and she stopped. He also stopped in shock. She walked over to him and handed him her letter. Without waiting for a response, she turned and walked away.
A/N: Hope y'all like it so far. I know that this episode aired sometime in 2003, and I know that this song didn't get recorded and onto her CD until 2007, but I really thought this song fit perfectly. The next chapter will have Grissom in it, I promise. Review to let me know what you thought, and to suggest a title to this fic.