Hello everybody! Ok, this is my first fic and besides english's not my first language (keep that in mind), but I wanted to write this anyway so I decided to give it a shot. If you find some expression that doesn't make sense (I often mix french, english and portuguese) or some spelling mistakes let me know please and I'll fix it. Also this is just the first chapter and the story isn't even in its beginning but if you have any suggestions I'll se what I can do. So please let me know what you think, if you like it or not, and know that when I get reviews I get more inspirated!

Now on with the story!

Disclaimer: No, I don't own Vampire Knight (it really doesn't have a 's') or the songs I plan on using (tought it wouldn't hurt to warn in advance) ;)

-Mind Games-

Prologue

With each passing day Yuuki felt more and more unconfortable with herself, and she just didn't know why. She couldn't even point out when this sensation had begun. Maybe some days ago when she decided to remeber her past, but now that she was aware of it she felt like it's been there all her life and just recently she realized it. Maybe it was because of this feeling that she had this suden urge to know what happened before that night when Kaname-sempai saved her.

Kaname-sempai... he'd been there for her all her life and she was so grateful for it. She loved him ever since she was a little girl, but as she grew up her feelings gradually matured. The almost fatherly figure became the man fo her life, the one who would show up in her dreams to do everything he wanted to her, everything she wanted him to do, and she would wake up flushed, embarassed that perhaps she had let out any suspicious sound that would denounce her. And he just confessed he had feelings for her too, this would have been the happiest day of her life if it wasn't for all the confusion in her head, the turmoil of emotions that had been building up inside of her for god knows how long and exploded in that exact instant. He told her he loved her and she stood there static, dazed. She couldn't believe that the one she loved felt the same way about her, it was too good to be true. The only one she'd ever let close to her, or almost. There was also Zero, her childhood comrade, who'd needed someone so badly when she first met him that made her forget about her own problems to take care of him. She let her guard down trying to ease his pain, and he ended up becoming her best friend, her protector, her strength. He was the only one she could say she was really close to, because they shared with each other things that they would never let anyone else know. She could see right through his cold manners and bad temper and he knew that deep inside, despite her cheerful act, there was an insecure and troubled girl, and whenever one would need the other would be right there. There was only one occasion when she felt insecure about their relationship, and that's when she discovered about Zero's situation as a vampire. Not because of his fangs or instincts but because of the feeling that maybe she didn't know him as well as she tought, that all those years he kept that secret because she didn't mean enough for him to share that with her, and it pained her deeply. But she hadn't given up on their friendship and she was glad, because after that they became even closer. The intimacy they developed was a precious thing to her, something she had never expected to have, a whole new experience. That's when things got really complicated (really, what in her life wasnt?). What she felt when she was with him, in those stolen moments when the vampire in him would need her... it was oddly simmilar to the sensations she experienced when she tought about Kaname. And then she would remember that question, the one that hunted her every time she saw him, What am I to you? If she coud just answer that...

Sooooo?... Good, bad, ok?... Should I even bother to continue this? (I already have 5 chapters... was I wasting my time?)

And I'd like to thank xWhiteBlossomx for the help! You really saved me there! lol When it comes to computers and internet I suck:D