These Feelings
Usual disclaimer: The Sound of Music isn't mine, but I truly wish it were. Perhaps an early birthday gift is in order?
"I thought I just might find you here"
My heart stopped
I look up and see him standing there
Waiting for my response
My heart resumes beating
Slowing returning to normal
I mutter something
I'm not myself
I'm lost
These feelings inside me
He's making me lose my mind
Insanity
He's asked me why I've left
I answer him
I've only been half honest
Yes, I do have to fulfill my obligation
But I left for a reason too
I love you
And it's killing me
Yes, I did miss the children
"Only the children?"
"No! Yes!"
Damn
I curse at myself inwardly
"I'm sure the baroness will make things fine for you"
The baroness
I almost get sick from her name
If it weren't for her
I wouldn't know
I wouldn't know that what I'm feeling...
These feelings
What I'm feeling is love
Love
"Maria..."
My name
He's said my name
"There isn't going to be any baroness."
I don't understand
No baroness?
"We've called off our engagement, you see..."
"Oh, I'm sorry"
No, I'm not...
"You are?"
"Yes... you did?"
He looks me in the eyes
I almost cry
He's looking me in the eyes
Not as a governess
Not as a postulant
Not as a woman who owned only a suitcase and a dress
But as an equal
"Yes... you see, you can't marry someone..."
Yes...
"When you're in love with someone else..."
With me?
Please, please be in love with me
"Can you?"
Oh, Captain, all these feelings
He leans in to kiss me
I'm so scared
My first kiss
I'm so glad it's with you
All these feelings inside me
I must let them go
He pulls away, and I'm still looking in his eyes
"I love you"
I'd never heard those words
Never
And certainly never like that
I want to say them
I need to say them
"And I love you"
I whisper into his ear
Before he leans in to kiss me
Once more, again, again!
These feelings...
Are you feeling them too?
I think you are...
Do you truly know when I first started loving you?
I loved you when I first felt these feelings
These feelings
I think they're love...