The sky was really dark today. I could'nt help but felt more alone. He wasn't here with me now. The only man I will ever love. He left me, just like everybody else. I squeezed my hands together, compressing the agony I felt within. Maybe he never loved me, maybe it was all a lie.
What have I become? I used to be so happy, just like the ray of sun. Now im just a dull piece of crap. What happened.
A man claims I was a monster, now standing right in front of me, preparing to burn me to hell. The whole village was against me, now even the man who loved me, adored me and swore to protect me, will never come to save me.
I yelled from the burns, the fire tore through my skin, I bled as I screamed again and again, for mercy.
I woke up. From yet, another nightmare.
Tears flow out from my eyes, uncontrollably, I cried. My lover, was awaken by the sound of my misery, and held my hands. " Another nightmare?"
I nodded silently, trying to hold in the screams and heart wrenching pain.
"I'm so sorry, I left you in this state. I never wanted to see you like this."
The lump in my throat made me impossible to talk. I just broke down.
Again.
He held me in his arms so tight, regretting of all the loneliess he put me through, everything I done for him. Now my heart is in the worst state, and nightmares of the loneliness still come to haunt me. But thank god he's here with me now. I recalled the moment i popped pills into my mouth and blacked out. He came back.
Soon after that, i woke up in the hospital. I was so close to ending my life. No one want a demon around, i was nothing, but a threat to everyone. Who rescued me? I turned to see a dark raven hair man beside me as he smiled in relief.
"Thank god, you're still alive. I was not late.."
I remember hitting him a thousand times for abandoning me. But yet, no matter how many times I hit him, the burden did not lessen. All the pain and terror still lingers around me.
The fear of being alone again was intense. It scared me shitless.
I hugged him, " Please don't leave me again. Please. "
"I'm sorry." He spoke in a soft manner.
Time and time again, i woke up after the nightmare, of those days I was alone, and everyone was against me, whoever killed me had a great amount of money. Who didnt want money back then? I had to hide and run for all those years. Starving and abused, and sometimes i dare not even sleep in the woods or the dark alleys. Fearing for my life. Up till this day, the insecurities never go away. The hell everyone put me through, replays and replays again. I fear for my life, I fear being on my own. I was scared, so damn scared.
The taller man hugged me, attempting to comfort me and my worries. I was paranoid, even though the village stopped emotionally and physically harassing me, I never let my guard down.
"Come, let's go out and eat breakfast. Stop thinking so much." Sasuke broke me out from my horrible thoughts.