Parker
I didn't want them to know. I never wanted anyone to know. I just wanted to be free, to jump of buildings without a harness. I didn't want to be forced to breathe, forced to live. It was too hard. I have been trying to avoid having to relive this memory but, the moment he said bicycle, it all came back to me. Actually it came crashing down on me, suffocating me and it hurt. I wanted to scream but, it always came out as a whimper. I wanted to be full of anger but, all I received was sadness. That's when the tears started to pour out and, so did my feelings. The feelings that I never wanted to feel again. The sadness, the pain, the tinge of confusion. The two person that I want to talk to, that I need to talk to is gone. He is gone because of my one stupid mistake and, he is not coming back. The other well, she just left.
I close my eyes and I try to breathe. It is getting so hard to breathe. I feel my heart beat but, I just can't breathe. I hear a door shut, which is ironic seeing as I am on the roof but, I know those feet. They're Sophie's feet.
"Who told you?" I asked.
"Tara."
I wasn't surprised. It is a grifter's job to meddle in other people's business. Honestly I don't even know why she is here. She left, she wasn't meant to come back. Yet she did.
"You know you can talk to her,or me, whenever you want. You can trust me." She said from behind me. I hadn't noticed she had moved or even gotten closer to me.
"Why should I?"
"Because..."
"Because what? You left, I wanted you to stay but, you still went. You left me and, the worse thing about it is you didn't really leave. I could still see you and speak to you but it still hurt. It hurt because I thought I could trust you to never leave me, but I guess that was my imagination!"
"Parker..."
"Everyone I get close to leaves. They leave me with no place to go and I .. I can't do... I don't" I tried to finish my sentence.
I tried but, she wrapped me in her arms and I tried to make her stop but she held strong. Somehow it mad me feel safe,wanted. It made me feel like I didn't have to breathe anymore because Sophie would breathe for me. So I cried and I cried hoping that she wouldn't leave me again. Praying that she wouldn't leave me again, even though somewhere in my heart I knew she would still have to leave. I guess that is how it is. I don't know why I posses these feelings, all I do know is that for once I am not afraid to face them. At least when Sophie is here.