D-San: D-San here with a more Canon-centric series. This story is about letters. Letters between characters, between me and some other characters, and so on. Settings jump all over the place, and so do ages, so I'll be typing some additional info in here.

Numerous pairings; both yaoi, yuri, straight, box-animal x box-animal, Human!Box animals x Human!Box animals, what have you. There will be happy letter, advice letters, sad letters, so some characters may be OOC depending on what letter they're featured in, but I'll keep them as in character as I possible can. What else...Oh, yeah, the rating. It'll be rated T for suggestive content, alcohol, drugs, language, and use of the word VOI in any of Squalo's letters.

Prompt: "Oyasumi Nasai"

Inspired By: Higurashi OST - Dear You

Central Characters: Yamamoto Takeshi, Gokudera Hayato.

Small Summary: They were always separated by a small stream that could easily be crossed. In the end, it was all a large shoving match that one of them ended up losing for all eternity. But here's a letter to remember how the game panned out...

Anyway, I hope all of you enjoy.

Disclaimer: D-San doesn't own any of the KHR! characters or plotlines. She just owns whatever convoluted letters she publishes here.

~ ( Oyasumi Nasai ) ~

I tried reaching out to you so many times before, but you were always so far away. We were separated by a small stream; I could easily leap over it and reach you if you let me. I smile wryly whenever I remember the way you'd glare at me. You yourself were the barrier that always pushed me away from you. And although I didn't know how to tell you that without upsetting you…I guess you already knew that yourself, right? And that's why you stayed the same and I stayed the same. Neither of us changed, did we? I kept living my life, and you kept living yours. The both of us in a relentless shoving match; me trying to shove my way in and you trying to shove me away.

Did you know that I was always there for you? I suppose you wouldn't. You took measures to make sure that I could never reach you. Ah, but I found a loop-hole. It's like that Mordor Shctick; you can't simply stroll into it. Like with you; I couldn't reach you just through your body. No, I had to reach you through your heart. Even though I don't know if I accomplished that…you made me smile. Even now, you still do. Even your glare sends my heart into a home-run crash course with yours. You don't understand exactly how much I…

I wrote this before the fact, so I hope you'll excuse some errors. Before I found you, I felt lonely. What are friends, what are companions, without a love to enjoy them with? Even when I fought valiantly for all of you, I fought for your future. And I never really wanted this letter to sound as sappy as it does right now. I still have so much to say, so I'll try to put it all in letter form for you. Don't throw this away yet; I'm not done!

Silver hair like fine wire, green eyes like summer leaves, pale skin like…hm. I don't have anything to compare your skin to, haha! I'll come up with it later, I guess. Let me move on. Your scowl…it was one of the cutest things I've ever seen! Okay, wait. I don't like this section.

He scribbled out that portion with permanent marker…how grim.

I guess I had grown used to your scowl. I really did. The first few times I saw it, I laughed it off on the outside but felt hurt on the inside. I mean, I felt like you didn't like me. But you were just trying to be there for Tsuna as much as you could. When we were kids…I admire that about you; you're loyal. You're also blunt; not afraid to speak your mind. That's admirable in a person. You could be concerned when you wanted to be, in your own unique way. I liked the way you always yelled at me when I did something stupid. It showed me that you cared, y'know?

Remember the adventures we had? The best adventure ever was in the Future. I remember when we had gotten separated; I had Lal Mirch on my back and you were with Future Ryohei. The floors started to move, and I was going down while you moved up. You actually reached out to me; extended your hand to try and save me…After staring at your palm for a while, I just rejected it. I didn't want you to sacrifice a hand for my sake. Just the fact that you did that made me smile. I was like, 'Awesome, he really does like me'. When we watched Tsuna fighting together, we were both united. We were both worried about Tsuna's wellbeing, and…I…I had never felt closer to you than when we were worrying about Tsuna.

That became an issue, didn't it? I got a little jealous of Tsuna. It was always him who got your attention. You loved Tsuna more than anything, like a good right-hand man. I guess I was kind of selfish, wanting you to show more affection to me. But then again, I wasn't because I never did anything about it. I just sat there and laughed. I laughed like some deluded moron, and that only added to your vision of me as an idiot. Maybe that was why you never showed your affection for me outright; I was a moron.

We were never very romantic towards each other. Not in the strict sense of the word, anyway. The most we ever did was hug, and even those moments were few and far between. I would buy you the occasional coffee or tiramisu, and you would buy me a coffee and a candy bar from the store. Now, I notice one thing about you that you didn't notice about yourself. You never, ever, ever-ever-ever bought me a store-made bento box with sushi in it. That means a lot to me. You know that I'd get insulted if you bought me something like that. Processed fish; disgusting. So, we bought each other things, and we'd occasionally invite each other to our houses…if that made sense. What I mean if that I'd come over your house and you would come over my house. I'd cook you Italian dishes, and you would prepare sushi or other Japanese dishes that I liked. You're still the only one that knows that I can't stand sushi. I've had it for twenty-two years; you have to get tired of it after a while. Dinner over at your house was awesome. Especially since you had so many racing games. Your cars were always decked out. I always got the defaults.

You cast a spell on me, that's for sure. I remember the first time we hugged. That was awesome! We were at Hibari's house that time—not sure why, now that I look back on it. But you had just wrapped your arms around me, and you drew me closer to you. I hugged you close, almost too close, because you grumbled and hit my chest. Your love taps were so cute.

I didn't start off loving you like I did; in the beginning, you were actually pretty weird. Then we became comrades. When did that really happen, I wonder…when we faced Mukuro? When we faced the Varia? I think it was when I was fighting Squalo, when you actually acknowledged me as an intelligent fighter. Yeah…then after that, I slowly started to love you. It was a surreal experience, loving you. And I was glad that I had the chance to do it, even though you tried your hardest to shove me away. I got through to your heart. At least, I feel like I did. Even while you're reading this, you're trembling, right? That's the kind of reaction I'd want.

This isn't going to be considered smart by you. But like I said, I wrote this before the fact. Planned out everything. Yep, even that moment. Instantaenous death is more romantic, right? Well, catch you later, lover. I'll see you underneath the big blue sky again, I promise.

Oyasumi nasai.

That idiot…I'm not trembling. Not for him. Not at all.

D-San: Yeah, this is going to work...well, this was the first letter, albeit sad. More letters are being written, and I'll put them up soon. Until then, Owari, my beautiful audience!