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ok friat warning this is a MPREG fic, so if that's not your thing then go ahead and hit the back button.

my first mpreg fic to tell me what you think

Chapter 1: The Secret

Shuichi sighed as he sat down on the couch after coming home from work. He hadn't been feeling well all day. He turned on the TV and laid down on his side one arm under his head. The volume was low enough that he could hear Yuki typing in his office. He was slowly drifting off to sleep, to the drown of the TV and the keys clicking. He'd just rest for a few minutes before going to tell Yuki he was home.

Yuki pulled off his glasses pinching the bridge of his nose. He was getting a migraine. as he was pulling out a cigarette he glanced over at the clock on the wall he looked down at the clock on his laptop fast checking the time on there. 9:30, the brat should have been home 4 and a half hours ago. He stood up, leaving the office. He was going to need another beer if he was going to be looking for the brat all night. However he did not need to go any further then the end of the hall before he saw Shuichi asleep on the couch the TV on low volume. He went and sat down next to shuichi's head.

Shuichi slowly opened his eyes, slightly confused. there were fingers running through his hair, and his head was now resting on a firm thigh. He looked up sleepily, to see Yuki sitting there looking at him cigarette hanging in his mouth.

"What time is it?" he asked tiredly.

"10" Yuki said, "what time did you get home?"

"4" shuichi said closing his eyes again, with a small muffled yawn.

"Hmm, didn't hear you come in" he said his fingers stilling.

"don't stop" shuichi said softly, "I figured you would like a little quiet" he wanted to go back to sleep, but his stomach voiced it's objection to that plan. Yuki raised an eyebrow at the sound his fingers going back to weaving through the pink hair.

"Guess I better eat something" Shuichi said, "i don't want to move" he complained before slowly pushing himself up.

Yuki watched from the couch as shuichi went into the kitchen, and seemed to rummage around for a few seconds. He then reappeared with a bowl of cereal, he came back and sat down next to Yuki.

Yuki watched was shuichi ate before laying back down, his head in Yuki's lap again.

"You sick brat?" he asked looking down at shuichi.

"I'm just tired" he yawned, "will you just hold me, Yuki" he requested. Yuki placed a hand on Shuichi's forehead feeling for a fever. The brat had to be sick, he didn't feel a fever though.

"Please yuki" shuichi whined slightly. Yuki's lip twitched, there was the annoying brat he'd known and loved for the past 3 years.

"I have a deadline, go to bed" he said standing up. Shuichi whined watching Yuki go back into his office and shut the door. He grumbled walking back to the bedroom, he laid down.

Around 1 in the morning Yuki came to bed. He laid down looking at the shuichi. he sighed he was going soft, he grabbed the boy and pulled him into his side.

The next morning Yuki woke up alone in the bed. He pushed up groggily and looked at the clock, it was 7 in the morning...on a Saturday. "Brat" he called. He listened closely for any reply his ears picked up the sound of retching. He grimaced, he knew the brat had to be sick if he had been that quiet all of yesterday. He got up and made his way to the bathroom.

"Make sure you clean up after yourself" he grumbled at Shuichi. Shuichi looked up at him, looking a little green. He reached into the medicine cabinet and pulled out a bottle setting it by the sink before he left the bathroom.

Shuichi whined softly before his head went back into the toilet. This went on for another half an hour before Shuichi grabbed the bottle of Pepto from the counter. He took a swig, before putting it back into cabinet. He walked out to the kitchen and made a piece of toast and tea. After all the microwave and toaster where the only things in the kitchen he was allowed to use. He ate it while sitting on the couch watching TV. He put his dishes in the sink, and went down the hall to Yuki's office. He slowly easier the door open, Yuki was sitting at his desk lighting a cigarette.

"Yuki, I'm board" Shuichi whined coming in.

"Go back to bed brat. You're sick" Yuki growled looking up at shuichi who was coming over to him.

"But, I'm not tired" he said crawling his way into Yuki's lap.

"I have work to do" yuki grumbled as Shuichi snuggled into his chest, and neck.

"Please, please just for a little while. We can watch a movie or play a game" Shuichi whined softly before nipping at Yuki's ear. He jolted slightly, putting an arm around shuichi.

"You are sick" he said, before standing Shuichi in his arms. He walked them back to the bed room and tossed him onto the bed. He walked back out and grabbed his laptop, and returned to the bed. He set up his laptop on his knees, back against the head board. He then reached over and pulled Shuichi against his side. Before going back to work.

"Yukiiii" Shuichi whined, his head on Yuki's shoulder.

"Go back to sleep" he snapped not stopping pouted staring blankly at the screen. Yuki looked over as Shuichi's breathing evened out

"Stupid brat" he muttered looking over at the clock, it was only 830. He could get a few more hours of sleep. He closed his laptop and set it aside before laying back down holding shuichi to his side.

After their nap everything seemed to have gone back to normal, for the next few days it became a rution. Shuichi would be sick all morning, demand Yuki give him attention, they would end up back in bed for a nap by 9, get back up and shuichi would be his hyperactive self. After 5 days of this shuichi called the doctors. He hated the doctors, which was why Yuki was surprised when he heard shuichi on the phone. The next day after Shuichi was done being sick, he came into Yuki's office and just hugged him from behind giving his ear a little nip before leaving for his appointment.

Shuichi sat in the exam room, looking at the posters on the wall. They had come and stuck him with needles 4 times already, they kept taking blood samples.

"Mr. Shindou, I don't know how to explain this but, the blood test come back positive. but I'd like to take a look before i tell you" the doctor said coming back in pushing in a machine. He had shuichi lay back and lifted up his shirt. After spreading a cool gel across Shuichi's lower abdomen he took the scanner and started to move it around. He stared at the screen, "Well I'll be damned, they where right" the doctor said. Shuichi looked at him nerves now.

"Right about what?" he asked in a panicked voice.

"Well Mr. Shindou let me be the first to congratulate you, you're pregnant" the doctor said

"WHAT!" Shuichi yelled looking at him with wide eyes. The doctor nodded pointing to a blur on the screen.

"See that right there" he asked and Shuichi nodded looking at it "that's you're baby"

Chapter 2: Lyrics of Resolution

Shuichi looked at the bowl of ice cream sitting in front of him. It had been a month since his doctors visit. When he had come home Yuki had asked him what they had said. Shuichi in a panic had don't something he never thought he would do, he lied to Yuki.

He'd told him that it was just some bug, and they assured him that it wasn't contagious.

After Yuki had gone back to his office, Shuichi had faced a harder challenge. The medication and vitamins they had give him. Where could he put them where Yuki wouldn't see them. In the end he had decided that putting them in his shoes was the best. That way he could take them with him to work, and Yuki never bothered with his shoes.

Now, a month later here he sat thinking about something that had never really crossed his mind. Well it hadn't had the reason to until now. Did Yuki want kids? Would Yuki be a good dad...well shuichi was sure he would be but, that was only if he wanted a kid. Deep down he knew that he was scared that Yuki wouldn't want kids, that he would order Shuichi to get rid of it. But, shuichi couldn't do that.

So, here was the biggest question of all...did he stay or go? If he stayed he would have to tell Yuki, soon. He was sure the man would notice that is lover was gaining weight, if he hadn't already. But, if he left he'd have to take sure that every thing was set up for him to just leave. He felt tears gather at the thought of leaving, but oddly the thought of staying scared him more then the thought of being on his own.

If...no when he left, he would be on his own, as much as he hated to admit it, he knew Hiro would just come and yell at Yuki for being an asshole. And that would be counterproductive. He felt the tears roll down his face, he didn't know if he could do this all alone.

Yuki found him like that sitting at the table crying, with a bowl of melted ice cream in front of him.

"Brat?" he asked looking at shuichi, who quickly tried to wipe his eyes with his sleeve.

"Yeah" he said forcing a smile on his face as he looked at Yuki. Yuki raised an eyebrow at that.

"You hungry?" he asked after a minute, Shuichi nodded standing up and the bowl. He took it into the kitchen and washed it putting it away. Yuki watch as he, himself, pulled out the stuff to make a fish curry. It was one of shuichi's favorites, He had noticed his lovers reluctance to eat much the past few weeks. It was as if he was debating how good it would taste coming back up.

Shuichi sat on the counter watched Yuki work, he had long since been banned from cooking. He'd have to learn, he could live on take out once he was on his own. He nodded to himself looking up at Yuki.

"Yuki?" he asked waiting for the blonds response.

"Yeah" he said not looking up from the fish as he cut it.

"Can I help? I wanna know how to cook" he said looking at the man with puppy eyes as he turned to look at him with sharp eye, "I promise not to touch the stove" Yuki sighed, this was not a good idea. But he nodded anyway. Shuichi hopped off the counter and came to stand next to his lover, He was given a bowl of spices and told to cover the strips of fish in it as Yuki handed them to both worked on dinner silently until everything was done. Yuki had to say it was nice to not have to worry about the boy cutting himself or burning down the kitchen. Everything had gone smoothly. They both sat at the table eating, he almost smiled when he saw shuichi's face as he ate.

After the meal, Yuki decided he had done enough work for today. He sat on the couch with Shuichi, as they watched the news. Shuichi rested his head against Yuki's side. It wasn't until an hour later when the news was over and Yuki was feeling a little wanting, that he noticed the younger man was asleep and from the looks of it had been for some time. He sighed and picked him up going back to their bedroom.

The next morning, Yuki woke up to find his lover gone from bed. He looked around, and then heard the sounds of retching once again coming from the bathroom. He stood and went to the bathroom fast. Sure enough there kneeled Shuichi his head in the bowl.

Shuichi wanted to kick himself, he'd forgotten to take the morning sickness pill last night. And he was defiantly feeling it now, he started to cry. When he felt a cool cloth on the back of his neck. He looked up to see Yuki kneeling next to him.

"This the same thing?" he asked his hand resting on his back. Shuichi nodded before putting his head back in the bowl. Yuki sighed and pulled out the Pepto, he waited until shuichi stopped and handed the boy the bottle. Shuichi took it and took a big swig, before standing up.

They spent the rest of the day in bed, Yuki sat with his laptop while shuichi slept a little longer. Around noon he woke up, and let Yuki know this by nibbling on his ear. The Novelist gave him a look before closing his laptop. He made sure it was a safe distance from the bed. Before he pulled the pink pop-star into his lap and kissed him senseless. He flipped them over pulling back slightly, "You get me sick and you're dead" he said before going back in. The next few hours were filled with yells of pleasure from both men.

The next day everything was back to normal, Shuichi went to work, and Yuki locked himself in his office. Shuichi surprised every one by being the driving force to finish a CD early. K had promised 2 months off after the CD was finished. Suguru and Hiro sat down as they came out for the day, they only had one more song to go. Shuichi just hadn't written it yet. Shu sat at the table with a note pad scribbling away, if this was going to be his last song it was going to be good.

I can't look into your eyes

it will only make this harder

i'm sorry i can't be here

but i have to go

be on my own

Chorus:*

the tears will fall

as the baby cries

are they yours

are they mine

i know i've cried

but by the end

you look

you don't see

I've been here the whole time

but, now i'm not

and i wont be again

Chorus

Don't forget me

that's all i ask

for i know

I will never forget you

you were the world

but now...

now there's more to it

and...

Chorus

You'll see

my tears are really

your own

Shuichi looked it over rereading it a few time, before nodding. It was perfect, he scribbled down the title, More too it now. Before handing it to K. The blond looked surprised and looked over the lyrics.

"Well this is a change, i like it" K said handing Hiro, who looked at the page.

"Wow Shu this is really different" Hiro said he liked it, it was going to be slower, and have a bit more behind it.

"Do you like them?" he asked looking at Hiro, the guitarist nodded with a smile.

"Suguru and I will get to work on the arrangements, why don't you head home." Hiro said letting the teen see the lyrics as, shuichi bolted out the door.

I wrote the song, so tell me what you think i'm a little iffy on it myself.

OK so there are the first two chapters please telling me what you think. but remember be polite.

also looking to a beta for this one so any one who's interested