"What ya doing here,with a baby at home being raised by a man you`re not even married to?What are you doing here?"

JJ watched as Malcolm walked out the police doors with Cindy by his side and could not help but be taken back to the interrogation room and the words that the unsub had so carefully but maliciously said. They had not expected him to say anything other than deny any wrong and that was the whole point of this chosen approach to the interrogation,JJ and Emily,two women would go in and catch the mighty S& M king off guard but nothing had prepared JJ for the question.

The one question she herself did not have an answer to. Sure Will had asked her to marry him on many occassions with most of them falling during her long months pregnant where the romantic gestures that she loved so much were in full swing and would always end with a beaming Will down on one knee. The first time Will had asked her to marry him was about two months after they had found out about the pregnancy and of course she had turned him down thinking he was only asking because of the baby. The last time had been the hardest to turn down.

"Do you need everyone out in the field?"JJ had asked Hotch hoping he would understand and praying she wasn`t too late.

"Reid you can go brief port authority police by yourself"Hotch had answered"JJ you can run court from the office and why don`t you go back to the hotel and tell Will what`s going on"he continued.

JJ released the breath she was holding and made hastily for the exit with a nod and smile when Hotch had offered his congragulations.

Driving through New york traffic was a nightmare but even more so when all of her thoughts were consumed by Will and hoping she got to the hotel before he left and as soon as she had pulled up infront of the hotel,she made a beeline for the entrance and didn`t even stop to wait for the elevator but took the stairs two at a time and cringed when she thought about what Will would say when he learned of her late night exercise but she didn`t have any time to picture all the scenarios because she was standing infront of their hotel room door rummaging through her bag for the keys. She was met by silence and thought she had missed him when she saw him on the balcony leaning on the railing looking out at the city lost in thought she would stay and just watch him then remebered Hotch had told her to return after briefing Will.

"Hey"she managed

"So, you must have got the package then"he answered looking her right in the eye and making her blush like that first time she had introduced herself back in New Orleans.

"Will you can`t just quit your job and move to Virginia,"she started"you have worked at that police precinct your whole career just like your dad and...she was cut off by Will`s lips on hers and everything she had planned to say getting slowly forgotten as her mind got more clouded the longer the kiss went on.

"It is the only way to shut you up when you start rumbling"Will said as he pulled away and taking her by the hand, led them inside.

"Will you are giving up your shield we really have to talk about this"she said trying to sound like she did not want what her mind and whole body said she did.A soft sigh escaped her mouth and she lifted a finger to trace the place where a moment ago Will`s lips had been and had slowly started sending her to heaven.

"And we will,Will said from the corner of the room where he was going through his bag."You gotta read this first Cher"he said handing her what looked like a journal.

JJ sat in silence on the drive back to their hotel after they had taken Malcolm into custody. She was absorbed in her thoughts and the world around her had taken a back seat atleast until she heard Emily say something to her.

"sorry what?"she inquired

"don`t let him get to you,Mal I mean" she said using the pet name she had given the unsub

"you and Will are the poster couple for relationships in this whole thing" she gestured around her.

JJ gave a small smile and carried on looking out the window but she heard a small defeated sigh escape Emily`s lips. Emily was right sure her and Will had their fights but still,they would never sleep without saying sorry regardless of which state they were in. She would call or Will would text but they always said sorry so why was a simple question from an unsub, a cruel,uncaring,arrogant,egoistic and selfish S.O.B bothering her so much and why did she not have an answer that she herself was satisfied with. She felt the car stop and looked up to see they were already at their hotel. She said her good nights as fast as she could and made her way to her room willing for Will to still be awake despite the late hour.

The phone rang two times before she could hear him groggily answer.

"sorry I woke you up,it`s ok,go back to sleep we will talk tomorrow"she said.

"no way,I am supposed to be up soon anyway got that stakeout I told you about,"he said with a yawn starting to wake up"I already dropped Henry off at Garcia`s yesterday,so what`s wrong you guys get the unsub and is Derek`s cousin safe?

"yeah we did,everything worked out in the end but really Will i`m fine I just wanted to hear your voice,I don`t know maybe to reassure myself that you were still there and I don`t know...she finished.

"hey you know I am always gonna be here no matter what right"Will reassured.

"I know,it was just me being silly is all"

"JJ are sure everything`s fine?"

"sure,you just be safe out there tomorrow and come back to us in one piece or you are in the dog house for a month"she joked "be safe for us ok,we need you and we love you."

"will do and the same goes for you,you feel any better now?"he asked.

"yeah I just can`t wait to see you guys."The stayed on the line that way for a while until Will said it was time for him to get ready saying he loved her before he hung up.

JJ looked around her room praying that sleep would overtake her but to no avail. She got up and walked towards her closet pulled out her suitcase and unzipped the small pocket that housed the small black journal. She moved back to her bed turned on the lights and begun flipping through the pages like she had done that first night after Will had given it to her.

Will had left as soon as he had walked JJ to her car and JJ was glad he had after everything that had happened after he had left,she knew he would be sick with worry but she decided she would let him know later he was on the plane now anyway and Hotch was taken to the hospital to be assessed and find out if he could be cleared to fly. She was exhausted and wanted to crawl straight into bed after her shower and that was exactly what she was about to do when she spotted the journal Will had told her to read on her nightstand. She couldn`t help but wonder why it was so important to Will that she read it but she took it from it`s position and as soon as she was comfortable,opened the mysterious book to discover what secrets it held.