hey guys this is my first fic, so please bare with me. I hope you enjoy it.

Chapter 1 : I remember..

The carnival, it's been a year since that dreadful incident happened. Although it may seem a while back, to me it feels like it was just yesterday. I can recall every single detail that occurred during that time. How could I forget? It was the day Shizuru and I died. Shizuru … I fought against her. It was hard, she was so very strong. I knew that if I killed her, I too will follow the same fate being her most important person. I could see it in her red, blood shot eyes. The eyes that look like it belonged to a murder. Eyes like a wolf hunting down its prey. But even though I could see all the murderous intentions she held, still I could make out a faint of sadness and hurt in her eyes. It left me wondering, did I do this to her?

(Flash back)

Strike after strike, I tried my best to defend but I could feel myself warring down. I try to attack her with my gun but bullet after bullet, it just kept missing her. Shit shit! I was running out of strength I try to think of a plan. Too late the massive bell fell on me, trapping and leaving me with no place to go. Her weapon wraps itself around my slender frame, pulling me closer and closer to her. As I got close enough I lost all hope and faith, knowing my fate to come. But, to my surprise she held me very tight as if I was going to float away if she let go.

Muffled cries are what I heard and then my shirt became wet. Wet? Realising she was crying. I wrapped my arms around her small figure and held her very tight, as if to squeeze all her tears until she no longer shed any. "sorry, sorr-y, sorry, sor-rry" she whispered like a broken record playing a never ending song. More tears where shed from the eyes that I've always found myself staring at, deep red so deep I sometimes find myself drowning in. All I could do was hold her tighter and say her name again and again like a soothing lullaby. Eventually, she started to calm down, so I gently pushed her so that we were facing face to face. Hey eyes were wet and puffy with trails of wet tears making its way down her neck and outward. There was a moment of silence that surrounded us. She then decided to break that silence.

"I love you Natsuki I never ever wanted to hurt you" she said. Did she mean that? What love is she referring to? Do I love her the same way? As I made up my mind I leaned down and captured her pert lips. As I was leaning down I could see her eyes go wide she was very shock indeed but that shocked soon turned to happiness and complete bliss as are lips touched for the first time. Was it a first? As I leaned back to take another look at her beautiful face I see her touching her lips that seconds ago I was kissing.

Shizuru… my mind replayed the name over and over again like a broken record. I looked up at her straight in the face, deep green meeting blood red eyes. We were held in a trance for a few seconds but I decided it was time to break it. "Shizuru" I said trying to master the most gentleness tone I could. "You are the most important person in my life". "You are everything to me" I paused taking a deep breath before continuing on.

I told her that before I met her my life was full of hatred and darkness. I could not trust anyone let alone get close to them. I had no friends and no one to love until I met her. You Shizuru "You brought light to my dark life. You taught me to forgive and love others rather than hate them." Forgive those who took my mom away. "You taught me to love and gave me the most important friend I could ever wish for." Tears started to flow freely down her cheek again. I feel my eyes getting watery but I suppressed it like always and continued on.

Again I told her I loved her…but – "I don't think I could ever love you the way you want me to." More tears fell from her eyes; she then hugged me again this time a lot tighter. I wrapped my arms around her too matching the tightened grip she held. Her last words that I heard before the green light completely engulfed us were "I'm happy that Natsuki doesn't hate me". Then green light then enveloped us. Hate? How could I ever hate you Shizuru? No matter what you do I will never ever hate you.

(end of flash back)

A slender frame moved around the apartment looking for her biking suit. As she spotted it she quickly put it on and grabbed her keys and wallet from the drawers and dashed out the door. Raven hair swinging around as the wind played with it. please wait for me shizuru..

TBC