Chapter One

It was raining so hard that it was impossible for Meredith to see any other vehicles on the road she hurried and pulled into Seattle Grace Hospital. It had been a long night she hadn't slept at all she just kept thinking of him. When he left he had told her that he just needed space time on his own to clear his head. But that was almost five months ago everyone told her to move on and to forget him but it was impossible. She had found out yesterday from Chief Webber that Dereck would be back today and she wasn't for sure if she was ready for the roller coaster ride yet again.

Dereck pulled into Seattle Grace hospital excited to be home. He still remembers the day he left he had hurt her so bad and knew that she was serious when she told him that if he left her again she wouldn't take him back. He didn't want to leave her he just needed time, time to see if he could handle being alone. He had to find himself and knew that he couldn't do that around Seattle. Dereck was determined to make things right with Meredith he would prove that he would never leave her side again. He prayed that she had not moved on.

Meredith walked into the locker room and realized she was almost an hour early for her shift but she didn't care. Dr. Bailey would be happy that she was on time today since she had been late three days in a row. Meredith hurried and unloaded all of her belongings and was about to head at when she ran into Christina.

"What are you doing here this early? You are never early. What's up Meredith?" Christina asked accusingly.

"I couldn't sleep at all lastnight knowing that Dereck would be here in this hospital today. So after tossing and turning all night I decided to just come in and face the music." Meredith stated.

Dereck jumped on the elevator rushing to get up to see the chief. He missed riding the elevator there were so many memories that he shared with Meredith on this elevator and he was excited to make some more. Just then the doors opened and he was face to face with Meredith. She got on the elevator and turned to face him.

"So your back?" she asked as she turned back around.

He could smell the scent of lavender in her hair and breathed in the sweet smell. He loved the way she smelled and all he wanted to do was bury his nose into her hair. He walked up behind her and grabbed her around the waist.

"I am so sorry that I left you. I missed you." he held on to her until she pushed him away.

"I hope you realize that we can not pick up where we left off there is just to much water under the bridge now." she told him as the elevator opened up and she walked away.

Meredith walked over to Dr. Bailey. "Dr. Bailey I would like to work in the pit this morning." she was determined to keep her distance from Dereck.
"Grey since when do you decide where you work." Dr. Bailey asked.

"You have been requested to work with Dr. Shepherd. Last time I checked I was your boss so you will do as I say." Dr. Bailey said sternly before she walked away.

Dereck knew that it would not be easy getting Meredith to forgive him but if she worked with him today maybe he could get her to understand his actions.

"Dr. Shepherd Bailey said that you requested me." Meredith was frustrated knowing that Dereck was trying to use his power to win her over.

"Meredith you have to let me explain you have to give me the chance to make us okay." he reached for her hand but she quickly pulled away.

"Do not touch me. I will work with you but I will not talk about our relationship. It's over, we are over and you can not turn back time. It's time we both moved on." she went to turn around but he jumped in front of her.

"Its not over Meredith I know that you still love me. And I am madly in love with you. Why are you making this so hard on us." he smiled trying to win her over with that McDreamy smile.

"If you really loved me you wouldn't have left me alone. Dereck you left this hospital five months ago and never turned around. You never called to see how I was doing. I kept thinking you would call if only you had called and let me know something maybe it would be different but you didn't. You keep walking away from me and I am tired of hurting. So I have decided that it is time that I moved on and its time that you move on as well." Her eyes were cold towards him as she stood staring at him.

Dereck let Meredith walk away for now this wasn't over he would make her see how much he loved her.

Mark Sloan had never been one to fall in love but here he was falling head over heels in love with Christina Yang. She was feisty and always put her work before anything else which he tended to do as well. They had been dating for a couple months but when he woke up this morning he realized that he was falling in love with her.

"Mark do you want to get drinks tonight at Joe's" Dereck yelled. He hadn't realized that Dereck had returned but knew that this could only spell trouble for Meredith.

"Yeah I will meet you there around seven" Mark yelled back.

Meredith sat quietly eating her lunch when Izzy slammed her tray on the table.

"I feel like going to Joe's tonight care to join me Meredith?" she rolled her eyes when she saw Alex headed towards them.

"Yes I get off at 6 I will meet you there." Meredith picked up her tray.

"Christina are you up for some drinks tonight." she said with a grin.

"Hell yeah that sounds perfect." Christina stated.

Meredith quickly emptied her tray and headed back inside she needed some tequila to wash away the pain she was feeling in her heart. She was not focused today and knew that she had to concentrate because she was scrubbing in on one of Dereck's surgeries in a couple of minutes. Yet she just really wanted to end her day and head over to Joe's where she could drown her sorrows in a bottle.