Forever Eighteen Chapter 1, a twilight fanfic

This is my first fanfic so I really hope you like it.

Summary: What happens when Edward leaves Bella and Victoria finds her? What does Edward think when Alice tells him Bella's future disappeared? Will Edward move on? Will Bella move on? Or will they both mourn over a lost love that isn't really lost?

Disclaimer: I don't own twilight, Stephanie Myer does, but like many other fans I can dream so here it is.

Chapter One: Victoria

B-Pov

I felt a unnatural wind blow pass me and I knew he had left. I opened my eyes and I was alone. I always knew one day he would leave. I always knew I wasn't good enough for him. I just didn't know it would hurt this much. My feet unconsciously carried me further into the woods. I kept running and running hoping I would find him. I tripped a lot and was on the ground more that I was walking but I had to find him. I couldn't not be with him. As it got darker and darker I lost track of time. I tripped over something. I didn't bother looking down to find out what it was nor did I bother getting up.

I laid on the forest floor for months, even years it seemed like. The rain came and went but I was still there. The forest floor became my home. I could tell I hadn't been out there as long as it felt because the sun never rose. Or maybe I just couldn't see it. There was know light at the end of the tunnel for me. Edward was gone and with him he took a part of me I can't live with out. My soul.

I closed my eyes as rain started to fall again. I couldn't bring myself to get up. Someone would come looking for me. Eventually. I hoped they would find me. Or did I? Did I really want to be found? I would be forced to live without him. If no one find me I didn't have to live at all.

I felt more than I heard that I was no longer alone. I opened my eyes to a pair of pale feet. I slowly looked up. There standing before me was Victoria as red headed as ever. Her hair looked like a flame blowing in the wind. I knew I should be afraid but I couldn't bring myself to feel the emotion. Any emotion was a thing of the past to me. I was numb I couldn't feel anything but the hurt Edward left me with. I couldn't become numb enough the keep that emotion away.

"Hello Bella." she said to me.

When I heard the sound of her voice I knew anytime before yesterday I would have been shocked to hear it. It didn't sound nearly as menacing as she looked. It sounded like it went with blond curls and pink bubble gum. That was when I realized it was the first time I heard her speak. She hadn't said much of anything in that first encounter with James.

"Look if you're gonna kill me let's just get it over with." I told her as I sat up and leaned my back against a tree.

I couldn't bring myself to care whether or not she killed me. Without Edward I had no reason to live. I was happy though. I was grateful for the time he let me have with him. It was more then I thought I would have. It was more than I deserved.

"Ready are you? Edward is just going to love how brave you were. He'll be mad but it's only payback. He killed James now I get to kill you. I have nothing against you though. You understand don't you."

"Sorry to burst your bubble Vikki but if you wanted to hurt Ed-Him, then maybe you should have come sometime last week."

"Ok now what is that supposed to mean?" she asked aggravated by the delay in her plans but slightly curious to know what I meant.

"Edward left me." I said angrily. I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at him. I was mad at myself for not being good enough. "He doesn't love me anymore."

"What happened?" she asked. She instantly went from slightly curious to extremely curious. She looked truly interested so I figured why not prolong my death by a few minutes.

V-Pov

"What happened?" I asked truly interested in why Edward would put his family in danger for this little human and then leave her.

"Three days ago it was my eighteenth birthday." she started. "Alice being herself went totally over board with decorations and a huge cake that only I would eat. While I was opening my presents I got a paper cut."

I gasped. Bella's blood smelt simply appetizing through her skin but flowing out in the open I wouldn't have handled that too well. I wondered what it was about her that made her smell so good.

"Yeah I know. Edward knocked me into a pile of glass plates to protect me from Jasper but ended up making a bad situation worse. A piece of glass from one of the plates cut me from the inside of my elbow to my wrist. Jasper tried to attack me. The rest of the family got him outside but they had to go out too cause they couldn't handle my blood either. After that Edward started to get distant. Today he told me that the family was moving and he didn't want me to come. He said he was tired of pretending to be something he wasn't. He told me I wasn't good enough for him and then he left."

By the end of her story she was crying. I couldn't believe it but I actually felt bad for her. Edward took from me the one thing I thought I would always have. Love. It's obvious he took that same thing from her. I knew it was what we both needed. Someone to love and to be loved back. There would never be someone to take James place so I wasn't looking but Bella she could be like a sister. We both knew the pain of loss and could be a rock for the other. In some ways I think her loss is greater than mine. James didn't choose to take himself from me. Edward had a choice.

"So back to point one you won't really be hurting Edward if you kill me. You'd just be killing another innocent person but I guess that doesn't really matter." she said breaking me out of my thoughts.

"You know Bella I am human. Well not really but you know what I mean. I have feelings. I'm not just some heartless bitch. I have heart. It doesn't beat but it is there. I wanted to hurt Edward but since he's gone I guess hurting you really wouldn't matter to him."

"So what are you saying?" she asked.

"I know what you're going through." I replied. "I know what it's like to loose a love. I'm not gonna kill you Bella."

"So you're just gonna let me go free and I never have to see you again?" she said sarcastically.

"No I didn't say that." I told her.

Her eyes widened and I could tell she caught on.

"You mean…"

"Yes Bella. How would you like to become a vampire?"

"Charlie." she whispered.

That was a good sign I thought she would have said no. Not as if she had a choice.

"Bella…" she looked up at me.

I started to tell her she didn't have a choice but then I heard something. It sounded like a huge animal. It was sniffing for something. Maybe Bella. She was in the woods laying on the rain drenched ground. Alone. Maybe someone put out a search party for her. Well they wouldn't find her.

"This is gonna hurt." I told her.

B-Pov

I heard Victoria gasp as I told her about the paper cut.

By the end of the story I was crying. Reliving the story out loud made it seem that much more real. He was gone and so was the rest of his family. My family. They left and nobody said bye. It really hurt to know that they could just leave without thinking twice about me. I thought I knew Alice better than that. The only one I couldn't bring my self to be mad at was Rosalie. She never really liked me so of course she had no reason to think twice about me. But had she liked me would she have cared. Probably not but I'll never know.

"So back to point one you won't really be hurting Edward if you kill me." I told her. "You'd just be killing another innocent person but I guess that doesn't really matter."

"So what are you saying?" I" asked.

"I know what you're going through." she replied. "I know what it's like to loose a love. I'm not gonna kill you Bella."

"So you're just gonna let me go free and I never have to see you again?" I said sarcastically. I couldn't believe that. It didn't sound possible.

"No I didn't say that." she told me.

I stared at her wide eyed. She couldn't be telling me what I think I was hearing. She wouldn't.

"You mean…"

"Yes Bella. How would you like to become a vampire?"

"Charlie." I whispered. My dad was the first thought to pop in my head. I wanted to be a vampire. I'd begged him all summer. But did I still want to be a vampire? I wanted to be like him so we could be together forever. Without him did I still want to live forever? No I didn't want to live the rest of the night. I looked at Victoria she didn't look like she was actually giving me a choice.

I watched as Victoria turned to look at something. She seemed to be thinking something over. I wondered what she was looking at.

Then I heard it. It sounded like a wild animal sniffing. A big wild animal. Victoria looked back at me then back to the direction of the noise.

"This is gonna hurt." she told me.

E-Pov

I gave her one last kiss on the forehead and ran off. Lying to Bella was the hardest thing I ever had to do in all of my existence. It almost killed me to do it but the though of her being safe, moving on, and having a happy human life kept me moving.

I took a long route back to her house and climbed through her window. I took great notice in the fact that it would be my last time ever climbing through that window. I went to the side of her bed where her cd player sat and removed the cd I made for her on her birthday. I then got three pictures out of her photo album. The picture of me in the kitchen, the one of me and Charlie, and the one of me and her.

I made her a promise I was intending to keep. It would be like I never existed. That was the way it was supposed to be. I shouldn't exist.

I wanted to take the stuff to keep my promise but it just didn't seem right. I bent to the floor and pulled up one of the floor boards. I sat the cd and pictures in and closed it. Part of me hoped she would find it but another part wanted all of those things to stay right where I put them.

I made my way to the hotel my family was staying at running the whole way. Carlisle didn't want to go too far away just yet incase I changed my mind.

I didn't have any plans on doing that though. I would tell the family I was going away for awhile. I needed to distract myself so I won't go back and ruin Bella's life anymore than I already have.

My first distraction was to try out my hand at tracking. I was going to go search for Victoria. I know how our kind are with losing a mate so I wouldn't give her the chance to come and find me.

I didn't necessarily need to go back to the family because I'm sure Alice already saw my plans and would tell everyone but I had to say good-bye. I didn't know how long I would be gone. When I got to Tanya's house Alice was sitting outside on the porch. When she saw me she got up and went inside.

I quickly followed behind her. Everyone was in the living room I guess waiting for me.

"I didn't tell them." Alice told me. "I figured if you were coming all the way here you would want to yourself."

"Thanks Alice." I told my sister. "Carlisle, Esme, as much as I love the both of you and my brothers and sisters I think I need to spend some time on my own."

"Of course son." Carlisle said in his always understanding tone. "Take as much time as you need. We're always here when you want to come home."

"Thank you dad."

I looked over to Esme she didn't comment on my leaving but I already knew how she felt. She didn't want me to go. It was never said out loud but I was Esme's favorite and the others always made sure to throw it in my face when I did something wrong.

Emmett was irritated he didn't see why I couldn't just leave by myself while they stated in Forks if I didn't want to see Bella. He loved her just as much as the rest of the family. He thought of her as a little sister and he loved her human reactions. Mostly her blushing.

Jasper has been in a dump ever since I told him we were leaving. He sincerely liked Bella although he couldn't stand to be close to her because of his lack of control. He felt the worst of everybody because he believed it was his fault. And plus the fact he had everyone else's emotions to deal with.

Carlisle and Esme didn't want to leave because they thought of Bella as another daughter and they weren't ready to lose her. Carlisle actually thought about telling me we weren't leaving her when I first told him about the idea.

Rosalie was well…Rosalie and she was pissed. She was mad I forced us to have to move. That now meant her and Emmett would have to start school over again so they wouldn't have to move so soon again. She was happy I left Bella though. She had the same view of things as I did. She didn't want Bella to be a vampire anymore than I did. We both wanted her to stay human.

I couldn't even describe the look on Alice's face when I looked at her. She looked almost as broken as Bella did when I left. When she noticed me looking her expression went from broken to pissed.

"You could have at least let me tell her bye Edward." she yelled. "Did you see her face when you told her I left without saying good-bye?"

"It was for the best Alice." I told her quietly.

"You won't be able to stay away." she told me.

I knew it was true I couldn't. I had to though. I couldn't put her life at risk anymore.

"I can." I replied. "And I will."

"Just because you don't want to be with her anymore why does that mean we can't see her anymore?" Alice asked.

"Yeah Edward why?" Emmett added.

"Because!" I yelled. "None of you are allowed to go see Bella. I told her we wouldn't bother her anymore."

"What if you go back to her?" Alice asked.

"Then you can go see her but not a moment sooner. Even if you see it in a vision I have to physically go before you can see her."

"Agreed." Alice said obviously not having confidence in my staying away. "I won't go see her unless you do first."

I watched as Alice's eyes glazed over. I knew she was having a vision. When her eyes came back to the present she started to sob.

I missed the vision I couldn't really see anything.

"Alice what's wrong?" Jasper was at her side.

He wrapped his arm around her and pulled her to the sofa and in his lap. He rocked her and used his power to calm her. Soon she stopped sobbing and looked up at me.

"Edward." she whispered. It was so low I almost missed it.

"What's happened Alice?" both me and Jasper asked.

Instead of talking she replayed her vision in her head.

"This is gonna hurt." Victoria told Bella.

She was sitting one the ground in the forest at Victoria's feet. Victoria picked her up and cut Bella down her back with her fingers and threw her back to the ground.

"NO!" I growled.

"It's too late." she told me. "I got the vision too late. I…she…her future…it…disappeared. That's it she gone."

"No she's not." I yelled at her. "You're wrong Alice. Bella isn't dead."

"I'm sorry Edward."

So there's chapter one. Please review and let me know what you think.