So I thought about it and I've come to a conclusion that I should write another one. I can't help it I was born to write and that's exactly what I'm going to continue to do. Hope you guys don't mind...hahaha.

Enjoy!

Disclamer: I do not own SON...even though it would be cool to.

Moments Lost

It's been three months since Dani died. And let me tell you that it's been the worst three months of my life. She was my world, my everything when she was alive. She made me happy when she would come over and spend time with me. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that anything as aweful as that friday night would ever happen to us.

It feels like it was just yesterday.

"Ashley! Come on I'm leaving to go to Jasons house." Dani was getting into the car and she was plastered. I was not going to let her drive like that. Of course I wasn't all that sober either but I was still better then her. So I grabbed the keyes from her and got in the drivers seat.

"I knew you wouldn't leave me." Dani leaned over to my side and wrapped her arms around me while planting a big kiss on my lips. I swear I love that girl.

Dani and I got together last summer when I finally came out to my mom. Apparently mom could already tell because of how Dani and I acted with eachother. Shit I didn't even know up until last year when Dani told me that she loved me. It of course threw me for a loop but I knew that I had feelings for her. It just took me more time to realize everything. Dani waited for me. She said she would wait as long as it took for me. She loved me that much.

"Are you going to stay the night tonight?" Dani asked me as we were driving to Jasons house at 12 oclock at night. I glanced her way and she had this cheesy grin on her face and I knew exactly what she was thinking of.

"That sounds good to me." I smiled back with my crinkled nose that always sent her over board. She then leaped up and down clapping her hands like she was the happiest kid alive. I wasn't paying attention to the road like I should of more like I was paying attention to the women that I love on the side of me. She had me in a trance as I looked right at her. Her dark brown hair that shined from the light from the moon. Her beautiful green eyes that always made me want to melt in her arms. Her perfect body that always screamed at me when we would go swimming. Or anyting else we would be doing. Hahaha. Sorry my thoughts are getting away with me.

I should of been paying attention to the road. I shouldn't have been drinking like I did. Because of my stupid actions everything went into slow motionthose next following minutes of my life.

"ASHLEY!" Dani screamed at me and my head darted back to the road and right in front of me was a man in the middle of the street. I swirved off the road and that's when I rammed into a pole. A electric pole that didn't even budge but it sure sent Dani flying through the windshield. Well that's what everyone tells me that happened. I was unconcious for two days from slamming my head against my steering wheel. I didn't know anything that had happened to Dani. I didn't know that the accident had caused so much trauma to her head that she died that next morning in the hospital while I was laying in a bed with nothing really wrong with me but bruises and a gash to the head.

I killed my girlfriend because I wasn't paying attention to the road like I was suppose to. I was driving when I was intoxicated and I killed the love of my life. I wish that I had died instead of her. To know that she wouldn't be in my life anymore put me in a big depression and I blocked myself from everyone.

Never will I love anyone like I loved Dani.

I've had so many people in my life try to comforte me but not once did I listen to a word that they said to me. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I only wanted to talk to Dani and no one else.

Of course that just made mom decide that she couldn't really handle me being the way that I am so she told me that she was sending me to my dads. In Los Angeles. In California. With my half sister Kyla. So she paclked up my whole life and is shipping me clear across the country to get me out of her hair. I didn't really care though. I figured that no place or no person would change the way I felt.

xxxx

My flight had came into LAX at six at night and all I wanted to do was curl up into a ball and not worry about anything around me.

I walked down the terminal not really noticing anyone around me instead looking like a zombie so my mom continue to call me when we were driving to the airport.

Forgive me for not be happy after killing my girlfriend. Forgive me for not being the person I once was because now I didn't have the other half of my heart.

As soon as I walked out of the terminal Kyla stood there with dad. They looked at me as if they didn't really know what to do next. I walked over to them and as soon as my page hit the floor dad pulled me into his arms and hugged me so tight. I was not going to cry. I was not going to cry.

I cried. I cried like a baby.

After all of my emotions were released we grabbed my luggage and went home. Well I guess it's home now. I don't really know what to call it.

xxxx

"Ashley I signed you up for school. You start the day after tomorrow. Is that ok?" Dad told me as I sat in the back on the car looking out the window not really paying attention to what he was saying to me. Well more like I didn't want to hear a word that was coming out of his mouth.

"Do I have a choice?" I finally spoke out.

"I guess not." Dad responded to me.

The rest of the ride to the house was quiet and I was really glad for that. Kyla didn't really say anything to me. I guess she didn't know what to say to me. Which I'm happy about because I don't really want to talk to anyone.

The house was huge. Dad being as rich as he was didn't shock me when I saw the size of the house. He always had to go all out when he wanted something. When we pulled up there was a car filled with kids my age sitting there looking like they were waiting for someone. The were obviously Kylas friends.

We all started loading out of the car and Kyla went running up the the tall, dark hair guy giving him a big hug. Then she kissed him. I'm guessing that's her boyfriend. Hmm didn't know anything about him. I've heard about all the other ones but not this one. Then there stood another brunette mexican chick standing there like she had major attitude. Yep don't like her already. Then there was a blonde sitting on the back of the car looking my way. What was her problem?

I grabbed my things from the back of the jeep and started towards the house when Kyla called my name.

Don't stop Ashley. Just keep on walking.

"Ashley!" Damn it!

"WHAT!" I yelled back at her and I was so pissed off. Why couldn't she just leave me alone?

"I want to introduce you to my boyfriend and my friends." So I stood there and acted like I gave a damn about her friends.

"This is Aidne. That's Madison and the one sitting on the car over there is Spencer." I glanced at all of them and didn't really make any gesture towards them at all. I turned back to the house and walked away with out even a hello to anyone there.

I don't need this. I just want to be left alone.

(A/N: Ok tell me what you think...kind of just popped into my head...still alil iffy about it but tell me what you think and whether or not I should keep it going! Please R&R...thank you!)