This cant be good. To think one day you could be sleeping in a lonely. A month later your with another man whose sleeping naked beside you. I smelled the smelt of sex in the bed and felt the auroua.. It was present and you could tell. It was winter break and I decied to stay. My other friend decided to stay too. It was odd since we both liked to g home. See our Mum and Dad. My Mom was not in a good mood due to Fred's comming out and my dad wasnt that peachy either.
So I sat up and looked at the man beside me. Well actually boy since he isn't really a man yet. Im a boy or a man. Well who cares what I am. I cant believe this is happening to me. Every time this happens it turns out not good. Thats how I know that this cant be good. I only fell in love many of times. Short lived and not mentioned. They were all secret because I was at a exploration age. I loved women but lusted for men. You could say I was bi but I call it love whoever you want. All I know is that every time I fall in love its bad.
After Harry cheated on me with Malfoy in the broom closet I promised myself not to ever fall in love. I know its despising but you gives a rats ass. All I could do was mope and be depressed all of fourth year. He really ticked me off during the tournament witch added to everything. I wanted to be a good friend though. So I guess I just made amends and we were friends. Still,I just wanted to kiss his lips again. But we just kept it at friends,nothing more. Harry was not my first heartbreak though. There was tons of I dont need to name. Well im not a whore. Just about two more then thats all my heart breaks.
I always had by eye on Seamus. The boy who always made me smile. Even when he was being an arse at times. Hes stubborn, sometimes rude but I love him. We became good friends for sure. This year that is talking,playing chess and all that great stuff. Overtime I knew what was happening. That smile,that hair. Oh I was falling in love again. I told myself I never would. I knew this cant be good. What I feel know,i felt before with Harry. I tried to fight this but I dont know if I should. How much my heart wants this to be good. It wants this. So one night while playing chess since everyone was at dinner and alot on holiday. He won so he got to ask for anything. It was a kiss.
A bloody kiss,I knew that couldnt be good either. So I gulped and let him kiss me. Those swollen lips touched mine and it was nearly out of this world.. That night was magical and it played through my mind as I look at him now. His eyes closed,with pale skin. His lips softly closed too.. His nose wiggles slowly as he sleeps. Seamus also jerked cutely in bed. I just smirked and sighed. My long red hair over my eyes a bit. I brushed it out of the way and stood up a bit more in the bed. This just cant be good. Maybe I should givce it a try ? Or maybe not.
Seamus jerked again and his eyes opened slowly. He smiled weakly at me and spoke "Top of the mornin'" he said,his accent going threw my ears. I smiled widly "Morning." I replied. "Will this be good ?" I asked him laying back next to him. I faced him and he looked awkwardly toward me. He then smiled "Yea,it will be trust me." he replied. I held his hand,maybe it will be good. Maybe not. But I am going to give him a chance.