What if Bella realized she loved jacob , when they kiss before the fight in Eclips?
What will she do? What will she say to Edward, more interesting what if she CHOOSE Jacob Black ..
What if Bella had choose jacob after all ?
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( BELLA POV )
" Come Back " i whispered, how can he doubt about me ?
He shook his head and smiled, not the smile i loved , he looked just like sam.
" You didn't meant that " He said.
It took a while before i know what he meant.
And all those time he looked at me , he was so sure of my reaction, but before i know what to say and what he meant i threw the words out.
Never thought of the consequence off my words.
"Will you please kiss me Jacob ? "
Jake's eyes grew wide of surprise, and then he became a little suspicious.
"Youre lying "
" Kiss me jacob, kiss me and come back "
He thought about it while he was standing in the shadow.
He was fighting againt a war with his body, I could see it.
Jacob turned around with his upper body, as his feet still stood still where they stood.
Still looking away when he made an unsure step towards me, and then another one, his face still turned to me, he looked unsure for the first time.
I looked back no idea what he could read on my face , but it was clear that he could read something.
He leaned backwards on his heels before he walkeld towards me.
Eying the little space between us before closing it with three big steps.
I know he would abuse the situation, i knew it , my fingers made in to fists hung by my side.
Then his hands took my face and his lips found mijn with an hungry almost agressive!
I feeled his anger when his mouth found mine passion.....
One hand found my neck and made a fist round mij hair, his other hand tooked my schoulder and shook me, pusht me towards him.
His hand slipt over my right arm , wrappd around my wrist and pulled it over his shoulders, what was he doing?
I layed it there, my hand still into a fist
I didn't know how to go further in my despair to keep him those time his disturbing warm soft lips searched on mine.
After he was sure that u didn't drop my arm,he let go of my wrist and searched a way down to my waist , his burning hand found the skin on my back and pulled me further against him.
His lips stopped for a moment, but i know he wasn't done yet.
His lips followd my jaw eximineted my neck, he let go of my hair and took my other hand to lay my arm around his shoulder like my other arm.
He pulled both his arm around my waist, his mouth found my ear.
" You can do better than this Bella " he whispered hoarsely " You think about it to much " , I shivered when feeld his teeth on my ear.
" Good " he said "For one time , Let yourself feel that you really feel " I shook my head heavily when his hands grabbed my hair again to hold it still.
His voice was ice cold " Are you sure you want me to come back, or do you actualy want me to die ? "
The pain and anger of what he said goes right trough me, it was not fair.
My arms where allready around his neck so i ignored the pain in my right hand who was still broken, i grabbed his hair with both hands and fought back and did my best to pull my face away from his.
Jacob understood it wrong, he was to strong to understood that my hands tried to pull his each hair out of his head and wanted to hurt him.
Instead of anger he felt passion, he thought that i finally answered him, trying to catch some breath he pusht his mouth back againt mine.
When his hands took my waist, my angers already had my weak attempt trying to get some restaint beaten from the lead , and because of his unexpectend enchanted reaction it dissapeared completely.
If he maybe was a little reasonable i could resist him, This was it.
His defenselesshes of joy got trough my determination, i gave up.
My head broke lose off my entire body i kissed him back, my lips moved allong with his on a differant way ther never moved before.
Because with jacob i don't have to be carefull and he wasn't carefull with me at all.
I grabbed him tighter only to pull him closer to me,
He was every where, the sunlight illuminated the kand side off both my eyes red, it was exactly the right color he fits with heat.
The heast was every were, i feeld and heard nothing more than Jacob, Deep inside the littl piece of my knowledge asked me questions like
* Why cant i quit? *
* Why wouldn't i ? *
* What does it mean that i don't wanna guit ?"*
That my hands hold his shoulders and that i liked it that they are big and strong, that his arms are thight around my waist and pulled me close to his body, and yet is wasn't enough for me.
It where stupid questions because i knew they answer : I lied to myself , Jacob was right he was all along he was more than a friend to me thats why it was impossible for me to say goodbye to him.
Because i was in love with him, also on Jacob. I loved him more than i should , i really loved him ? how could i lie to myself , how could i lie to edward , lie to myself and hurt te two most importand people.
He was there for me when Edward was gone,and when he came back i left him behind hurted him and i feeled it , because when Edward was gone , in our minds i always was his , his Bella.
Even back in the days when we where younger and i spend the summers here in forks , spending my time with him we where best friends more than that , we were one
And at this moment we where one again, one person, his pain has always bin mine pain,my pain has always bin his pain , and now his joy was my joy i could feel it.
And on the other moment for a little minute i saw my other path , with him.
It was like i could see trough his thoughts , i saw every thing.
I saw Charlie en Renee with Billy and Sam at the first beach in La push ,years went by and they meant something.
I saw me holding an giant red-brown wovle wich i loved, who will protect me when i needed him.
And in an tiny flash i saw two little children playin in front of us with thick long black hair it where our children it must be, and then they where running into the forest , the La Push Forest.
Our children ... Who prossibly in the future will protect there people of de reservation as the Quilleute werewolves just like there father, And then at the begin of the forest a saw white flash it stayed there.
When i saw it better, i saw that is was watching me , it was Edward.. Who always will be waiting for me.
And then i saw nothing, it was gone.
I feeled it, the still remaining hole is my chest was ripped out of my heart, it was gone.
Jacobs lips stopped before mine where ever thinking off it, i opend my eyes to found him staring at me with bliss in his eyes, he was happy.
" I have to go " he whispered in my ear.
" No please .. "
He smiled at my reaction, " I won't be gone for long " He promissed , it didn't feel right like i was going to lose him soon, " But first "
He bent forwards to me, to kiss me one more time , this time was different, his hands lay soft down on my face.
His warm lips tender on top of mine, unexpectedly hesistant , it was short to short but very sweet.
His arms hugged me tightly, when he whispered aigain. " This should have been our first kiss " - " Rather late then never "
Tightly againt his chest where he couldn't see them , rolled those tears from my eyes down on my cheeks , i was afraid of loosing him.
I couldn't loose him, Not again , Not this time.
" ill be right back " and then he was gone , running allong with his wolve brothers, fighting with the cullens against the new born vampire army Victoria created.
I walked to the tent to lay down on the air bed in the sleeping bag, it smelled like jacob, my jacob. and before i could turn around Edward opend the tent to look at me with his friendly smile.
What should i say to him i can't hurt him .
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