"That was amazing" Castle said to his love as he gives her a soft kiss.
"I told you, you would have no idea. Now do you believe me?" Was Kate's reply.
"Do I ever?" Said Castle.
As Castle sat up a little higher and put his right arm around Kate's neck, she rested her head on his chest. Hearing as his heart and breathing was fast paced. So was Kate's, well after the events that just took place it would be amazing if they weren't short of breath or their hearts weren't beating one hundred kilometres an hour. As he gently stroked and played with her hair, she was running circles around on his chest with her pointer finger.
"What are you thinking about?" asked Castle.
"My mom." Said Beckett.
"Wait we just slept together and you are thinking about your mom?" asked Castle curiously.
"Oh my god Castle! Not like that. No, I was just thinking about what she would say to me if she saw who I was today. You know, chasing this thing so long that I almost die, twice! And that I have let it consume my life for 13 years." said Beckett.
"Hey Kate," Castle said to her as he slightly lifted her face to be in his line of sight.
"she would be proud of you. You are a strong, beautiful, amazing..." and before he could finish his sentence she interrupted.
"The most remarkable, maddening, challenging, frustrating person you have ever met?"
"Uhhh... Well, what I meant to say was... umm." Mumbled Castle, trying to think of a non-offensive thing to say.
"It's OK Castle. I understand what you meant and I kind of am anyway. I see that now and I believe that I have wasted too long being afraid of what the outcome it, that I don't even try." Said Beckett trying to make him feel better.
"But all of that changes now. I need to take control over my life, and not have my mother's murder control it. I need to find something else to focus my time on. Like you!" Kate said as she sat up and faced Castle.
"Me?"
"Yes, you Castle. From now on, I will do whatever it takes to make you happy and to make this work. I love you Rick and I never want to hurt you again." Beckett said as she kissed Castle's lips.
"Kate, one of the things that makes me happy, is you. Kate all I want is you to be alive and right here in my arms. I will do everything I need to, to protect you and to keep you safe. That's why I took the deal with Smith. That's why I had to make sure that you weren't pursuing your mom's case. All I want is you. OK?" Castle said smiling, and Kate looking down at the sheets feeling ashamed for being so rude to Castle when he explained why she had to stop.
She now knows that she does need to stop, and she has. While she was hanging off that building all she could think about was Castle and how she didn't get to tell him how she felt. Since then she has realised that she does need to stop and after the man who shot her got away, she realised she didn't care at all. All she cared about was Rick, and being with him.