*Okay...... so I'm a terrible writer... I just realized I am writing the next few chapters from how I did this one. So I rewrote it so it fits with the following chapters. GAH! I feel so bad for this, I am sooooo sorry! BTW new chapter is in the works. I know the last two were pretty short so I will try and make the next one a little longer to make up :) Well.... it is a big chapter, lots of stuff happening haha but again, sorry for the fail on my part. Its only a few changes but I still feel like an idiot*
Where I Ended Up
I pressed my head against the cool leather of my driver's seat listening to the waves crash against the rocks, for a moment masking the sounds of my heaving chest. The last rays of sun shone through the window, and through the diamond of my engagement ring. Today was the day, I knew it was. I rose my hand and with my fingertips brushed away the streaming tears from under my eyes. I had to do it today, I was tired of hiding, lying and leading him on to believe that I intended to marry him.
"You can do this.... he will understand, I think." I laughed at my inability to even convince myself. Deep down I believed it but for now, I knew it was a lie and a bad one at that.
Three weeks ago my life was simple, easy and now here I sat, ready to change my entire life and that of all who surrounded me. All because I fell in love.
Sure they say falling in love can be the most amazing experience in your entire life; I wish that was the same for me. It sure was for my parents although their romance was not what you call the most conventional love. When it started my mom was a klutzy, unsocial human and my dad well.... he was and still is a vampire. The stories I have heard about their whirlwind romance. Made what I was about to do a little better, I was releasing Jacob from a lie, one that I believe will heal rather than hurt.
As I thought of my parents I smiled. They were my rock, the ones who guided me through my last three weeks of heartbreak and realization. If they had not been around I would have never been able to see the signs that lead me to him, and happiness.
The family was still in a daze that I had been able to break an ancient magic. The imprint from a werewolf well, shape shifter was believed to last for eternity. That was until I came around, I had a knack for breaking the rules. The Cullens were famous for that and as I thought about it, I knew I was making the right choice, but why did it still hurt so much?
Once the sun set I knew it was time to do what I had been dreading since Jacob came home. I glanced at my engagement ring and sighed as I turned the ignition and started my car. "This is it.. there is no turning back. You can do this."
Another unbelievable lie but I had no choice, Derek was waiting for me and I knew I could never hurt him. I loved him with all of my heart, as I had loved Jake but that faded away the moment I saw Derek, my true love. My eyes fell onto the glove box, inside sat a black velvet jewelry box and had sat since Derek had placed it three days ago.
I slowly drove away from the cliffs and back down towards La Push and the beginning of a long night. Part of me just wanted to drive back up to the house and wait for another day, give Jacob a chance to relax from his trip. Even though it wasn't hard to guess that he would be at Billy's place a whole five seconds before racing back up to the house to see me.
The familiar red house came into view and my heart began to race, the lights were on and I saw Jacob's motorcycle parked near the door. He had probably just got home and was doing a fast unpack before leaving again.
I shut off my car and stepped out into the chilly September air, I threw on my jacket and headed towards the door. With each step my breathing grew more and more rapid. As the door came closer and closer, I tried to push what I do, out of my head. I started thinking about how my birthday was coming up, in two days. In reality I was only eight years old but due to my lineage I aged so much faster, and passed for a woman in my early twenties and would stay like this for the rest of my life, the pros of being part human, part vampire.
"Nessie." His eyes lit up the moment I stepped through the door. The same look I got ever time I was around him. Ever since the day I was born, the day he imprinted on me and the day everyone thought I had met the man I was destined to be with forever. How wrong they had ended up to be.
My stomach twisted as Jacob came and pressed his lips against mine. I laid my hand against his chest and could feel his heart racing. I remained still until he slowly pulled away looking very confused. I tried to remain as composed as I could, I just wanted to get this over with. Jacob did not deserve to be lead on anymore and I could not pretend anymore. Our love was over.
Thankfully Billy was not home he was either just finishing a day of fishing with my grandfather, Charlie or still with Charlie watching baseball at his place. Being completely alone with Jake made this just a little easier.
Jacob's confusion slowly turned into a face of worry as he placed his arm around my waist. "Is everything alright honey? You look a little upset, and have you been crying? Did Edward start on you again about the wedding being so soon?" I could feel his arm beginning to shake at the thought of my father and his protests about us getting married so quick.
"No.. Dad didn't do anything its something else." I lightly bit my lip as we took a sit on the couch, and as we sat down I slid out of Jacob's grasp and turned so I was sitting on an angle, looking right at him. I took another deep breath attempting to calm myself down as my chocolate brown eyes settled on the face of my soon-to-be former fiancé. "Jacob.... we need to talk."
