Yeah...just something. Have fun...or not.


I can't even begin to believe how she could stand there and tell them I had died, all teary-eyed and full of remorse. I'm not saying she shouldn't have left me there, I deserved it fully. I caused the Morlock's deaths, I worked for Sinister, I led the marauders down into those tunnels. I regretted it every day of my life. I tried to pay some penance for my crimes, always knowing that it could never make up for what I had done. I'm not saying I was a saint, but I'm not a monster. I still have my consciousness.

The guilt of what I had done clawed at my mind and nearly drove me insane, not that I didn't deserve it. I had tried to kill myself for what I had done, and I never got over the urge to take that knife I have hidden at my side, and just swipe it across my jugular, across the thin, vulnerable veins in my wrists. I always searched for my punishment, getting it in everyway I could, anyway I could manage to make myself feel like shit. I was always getting injured on missions and in the danger room. I was always putting myself in danger. Not because I was valiant, because I'm not, but because I was always hoping that maybe that sentinel would kill me, maybe that bullet. Maybe whatever it was would finally be the end of me. Every time I got injured, I thought of it as if I were receiving the blows the Morlocks had received onto myself, making myself experience what they had.

But Rogue….

Sure, you can leave me to die in Antarctica after a mock trial, but stop lying to everyone around you. Stop acting like you're the innocent one. I know guilt when I see it, and you are guilty as sin, guilty as me. You were never pure, never innocent. It's time you dealt with it. You are as guilty as me. Someday someone will to do you what you tried to do to me. Someday that guilt will consume you.

I dropped the envelope into the mailbox and walked back through the double glass doors into the hotel and up to my room. That letter to Rogue would find her, just as this knife in a few moments would find it's mark.