Chapter 1

Back to December

The reminder of the past is difficult, it can either make your heart grow warmer or it will make your heart squeeze. In my case, I think it does both. The reminder of my innocent childhood is both heartbreaking to remember but it's also a good memory to remember on how carefree we all once were. I still hear innocent childish laugh when I look at the pictures that hung on the wall, the innocence shined as bright as the sun as my friends and I posed for pictures, hugging, jumping and making faces at the camera.

As I walked down the huge hallway I made myself a mental note to get someone to remove the damn pictures that I hate so much but still keep them to cause my self pain that is so not worth it. I don't need that kind of pain to dull my life. Sometimes, I wish I could forget the past but I would never do it because past made me who I am today.

The rain and soft wind made me shiver or it could of been the electric blue eyes that were staring at me, my hair was a total disaster and I looked like a wild mess while I stared back at the man who destroyed me over and over again.

"You can't be here, you know that." He say's in a deep voice and I feel like a child that has been just scolded by an adult.

"Let them hear, let my parents, let Kat hear." I say with a sarcastic laugh, "Hell, let the whole neighborhood hear what the little good innocent Elena does with her sisters boyfriend behind the closed doors." I raise my whispered voice, throwing the words like venom.

"Can you just be quiet? I'll talk to you about it but can we just walk away from the house." He tells me, his voice is softer now and when he grabs my hand to pull me away with him, I swear I can feel him shake.

"We can't do this anymore, E." He says and I take a sharp breath in.

"I know we can't but you can come with me." I say and nod my head trying to convince him to leave this town with me, we could conquer the world together.

"I can't leave her, she needs me and I need her." He tells me and I feel my heart shatter into million pieces.

"So that's it? You can't do this to me." The rain and now the tears that are flowing down my cheeks mix together, this situation would almost be funny if I wouldn't be so heartbroken right now.

"I'm sorry, I can't be with you."

"You know what I can't do?" I ask him, I laugh a little before I start raising my voice with every word, " Every time there is a hope that you love me even a little bit dies and I still come back hoping that you can fall in love with me and you know whats the hardest thing in all this? I ask again, I see him shake his head.

"I stand here and look at you and I know that if I stand here even for a second more, I will love you even more." I whisper.

This time, I walk away from him.