Would you
show me the door?
My apologies
I will slither out across the
floor
I will crawl out on my knees
I'm ugly, my soul is ugly
too
I have so many flaws
I'm sorry but there's nothing I can
do
I hate myself because I...
A skinny, pallid boy about sixteen lay stretched out on his bed in the Slytherin dormitiry for sixth year boys. He pointed his wand at the spiders building their webs in the corners of the ceiling as he gloomily thought about his day. Images of James Potter's face floated through his mind making him angrier than he already was. Snivellus they called him. They, Potter and his trusty sidekicks Lupin, Black, and Pettigrew. Why did they torment him so? Why did they have to embarrass him in front of the whole school? Then images of Lily came to his mind. Lily, sweet Lily. How he loved her, but she could never love him, a greasy Slytherin.
I'll stand
far away!
My apologies
I wouldn't wanna dull your sunny
day
I'll crawl out on my knees
If his school life was bad, then his home life was worse. He hated going home. He hated his drunken muggle father and his cowardly mother, who always looked the other way whenever Severus had to submit to his father. But most of all, he hated himself.
I'm sorry, I
wreak of depression
I have so many flaws
Your happiness is my
only obsession
And that Lily Evans just made things worse. He knew that she was only trying to help and thats why he loved her so much. She would never love him. He didn't want her pity. It only made him feel worse. He wished he had friends, but nobody seemed to like him from day one. He was pale, weak, and greasy. People called him a freak and oddball. Even his own family. Lily never called him these things. She was nice, but she didn't really talk to him at all.
Just you, all
you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For
you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I? And figure out
what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make
you satisfied sometimes I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only
you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
Severus sighed and stood up. He decided to walk down to dinner. As he made his way to the common room an older boy about sixteen with blonde hair bumped him.
"I'd watch where I'm going if I were you." Lucius Malfoy sneered. He was tall, handsome, and rich which were good qualities to have if you were Slytherin.
"Well you're not me, Malfoy." He replied, silently cursing himself for not having a better comeback. Malfoy smirked, and strutted away with his girlfriend Narcissa Black trailing behind him. Severus made his way out of the common room and up to the dining hall. When he got there he sat down in his usual seat at the end of the Slytherin table where he was, thankfully, alone. He pulled out a book and began to eat and read at the same time. He was so engrossed in what he was doing, he didn't hear someone walk up to him.
"Hello, Snivellus, what are you reading?" He looked up to see the arrogant face of Potter.
"Fuck off, Potter." He said keeping his eyes on his book.
"Watch your language, Snivelly, or I'll hex your vocal cords to oblivion." James said angrily. Suddenly, he snatched up Snape's book and tossed it off to the side. Snape looked up at him angrily and reached for his wand. James smacked Severus' hand causing his wand to fall on the floor and he grapped the front of Snape's robes and pulled him so cose to his face that their noses were almost touching.
"Look, Snape, I want you to get one thing straight. You aren't anything special. You're nothing, a nobody. You shouldn't even exist." James said, his voice a menacing whisper, "And I've seen the way you look at Evans. Stay away from her, you hear? She's mine now." Snape just glared at him and jerk himself free and ran back to his dorm. Once he got there he went directly to the bathroom.
I'm nasty,
I'll try not to get me on you My
karma last night, was your dinner
My apologies
God forbid, what
would we do?
I'll crawl out on my knees
I'll stand far away
I
have so many flaws
I wouldn't wanna dull your sunny day
My apologies
I will follow
you cause your a winner
I will crawl out on my knees
You aura,
it glows like toxic waste
I have so many flaws
Spit and I would
lick it just to taste your presence
Lily! His Lily was with that arrongant, sonofabitch Potter! He punched the Mirror in rage, glass flew everywhere cutting his fist.He searched in the bathroom for what he was looking for. Then he found it. He held the razor up so that i reflected the light. He watched in fascination as the blade sliced through his skin leaving a bloody red trail. He was tired of his life. He hated it, he wanted out, to escape. He curled up in a ball on the floor, tears flowing from his eyes and bloody flowing from his forearm. Suddenly an angry knock startled him from his thoughts.
Just you, all
you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For
you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I ? and figure out
what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make
you satisfied sometime I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only
you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
"Snape! How much longer are you going to be in there? I need to use the bathroom!" came the voice a fellow student. He put the razor away and clean up the blood and glass and opened the door.
"'Bout time!" the other said impatiently and rush in the bathroom. He looked at his watch. 9:30. How long had he been in there? Oh well it didn't matter he had something to do. Something he had been puttting off but he was going to do it tonight. He walked out of the Slytherin common room and made his way to Moaning Myrtle's bathroom. Nobody would bother him there. When he got there he made sure the ghost was not around and pulled a chair to the middle of the bathroom. He then conjured up a rope which he magically hung from the rafters.
I'm staring
at your picture
Standing on the chair the rope is tied
He slipped the rope around his neck. Tears sliding down his face. Oh Lily why? Why did you go for Potter instead?
Once I'm dead
my ghost will come and haunt you
Cause it's you, that commited
suicide
It's you, that commited suicide
Cause it's you, that
committed suicide
When IT'S YOU THAT COMITTED SUICIDE
SAID IT'S
YOU THAT COMITTED SUICIDE
He took a deep breath...
Just you, all
you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For
you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I ? And figure out
what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make
you satisfied sometime I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only you
And jumped...
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
