I do not own Fairy Tail!
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I know I cannot change the past. I know the world will not forgive me. I know I deserve to die for all the sins I've committed and yet, Meredy forgives me. Jellal forgives me. Even Erza forgives me! I don't deserve their kindness! I'm just a witch who just ends a person's life without a second thought. I'm rotten! I'm rotten to the core!
I thought I could redeem my sins by using Last Ages and at least save a single life. But as I looked at the clock and saw that time turned back by only one minute I felt my heart shatter. My life is only worth…one minute…? I should've expected that. I'm evil after all.
Here, as I lay on the ground of the once beautiful City of Crocus, my body horribly burnt, I remember all the people that I've hurt…
Jellal.
Jellal, I honestly don't understand how you could forgive me after I pretended to be Zeref and possess you. I knew you liked Erza…I took you away from her. I made you a cruel and manipulative person. I am the reason why you killed Simon. I am the reason you've been imprisoned. I am the reason you are constantly hiding from the council. I am the reason…I am the reason why you can't be with Erza…
Erza.
Erza, I am very sorry I possessed Jellal. I really am. If I hadn't possessed Jellal your friends wouldn't have to build that tower for eight long years. You would've experienced true freedom if I hadn't interfered.
Gray.
Gray, I know you will mourn for me. You consider me as a friend right? And so does all of Fairy Tail? Gray, you showed me the light. You showed me the kindness that my mother has given to you…I don't deserve all that kindness…
Strange…I can't move anymore…not good…
Ur
Ur…Mother…I'm sorry. I'm so, so, sorry. I thought you abandoned me. I thought you replaced me. I thought you didn't care anymore.
But I was wrong…
Mother…I know that you aren't dead. I know you became one with the ocean. I want to see you again. But I can't. I'm going to hell where I belong…
Meredy.
Meredy, you treated me like your own mother. You always have. After you've found out the truth about your Hometown I've expected you to treat me like the rotten witch I am. But you didn't. Instead, you still loved me and even stopped me from killing myself! You treated me like I didn't even slaughter your whole family. Meredy, I'm sorry I wasn't able to give you the life you deserve. I'm sorry I made you do horrible things. I'm sorry…
I could feel myself slipping away…I know I'm dying and yet I keep asking myself the same questions…
Why…
Why couldn't I save anyone?
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Why couldn't I atone for my sins?
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Why did I become evil?
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Why?
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It feels like I just wasted your time…please forgive me! I'm sorry if I happen to (unintentionally) copy your ideas but I already had this in my head after reading chapter 335 and finally worked up the courage to post it here on FanFiction (after crying of course) . And for those who read my other story 'It's all Jellal's Fault!' please wait patiently for chapter 15! It'll be up soon!
So…what do you think of this slightly depressing oneshot? I'm planning another one focusing on Ultear and Meredy. (one where Ultear gives Meredy the 'talk')
Feel free to point out any errors that I've missed. And…please review!
Ja Ne minna~
