Logan lay awake again, he hadn't been able to properly sleep since he met Jean again, after coming back from the lake. She was even more beautiful than he remembered…her face came easily to his mind as he lay curled up in his bed, listening to the sounds of Scott and Jean come through the walls. He shut his eyes tightly but tears still trickled out of the corners of his eyes. Why could nothing ever go the right way? Why did she love Scott? Did she? Did she feel anything at all for Logan? All those questions and more ran through Logan's mind as he tried to shut out the sounds that his extra sensitive ears were picking up.

Suddenly there was a knock at his door and a slim frame appeared in the door frame. Logan caught his breath as he saw Jean enter his room in her nightwear. He fought to control himself and find his voice at the same time.

"Jean…er…hi"

"Logan, I could feel your grief from my bedroom…I know it's me…I feel terrible, but is there anything at all that I can do to help without hurting Scott?"

Logan's voice croaked out " There is nothing…unless…you would….kiss me…just this once…please…"

Jean felt so sorry for him that she couldn't resist. She felt attracted to the man anyway, which was unforgivable, so this couldn't make things any worse. It was only a kiss…what harm could it do?

"Ok Logan…just a kiss, nothing more"

She slowly leaned up from where she was sitting next to Logan until her lips met his. They both felt a surge of emotion that they had both never felt before. It was like heaven…forbidden heaven, as they both knew they shouldn't be doing this. Logan pressed his lips hungrily against hers and she felt her lips opening so that she could taste his mouth. They had both never felt anything like this. Logan pulled her closer until she was straddling his lap. They were gasping and kissing alternately, both of them breathless. He pulled her closer, running his hands across her body, and she was reaching down his stomach, not getting enough of him. It was only when she paused slightly that they came to their senses.

"Hey Jean, I can't do this … and neither can you" Logan said brokenly.

Jean nodded and sighed as she slid off his lap and stood up.

"Logan, I cannot deny what I feel for you but I belong to Scott and I'm sorry but I have to be with him. I love you Logan, as you love me, but it cannot be." She said determinedly. Then Jean headed to the door. She turned back and whispered "I'm so sorry…" and closed the door.

Logan clenched his fists and beat the pillow. Why?...when he was so close? This had just made him want her more than ever…love her more than ever…