Disclaimer: It all belongs to Joss Whedon and Mutant Ennemy. I'm just borrowing it. The song is by Michelle Branch Pairing: S/B Time: post-Crush A/N: Sorry for the spelling mistake, I'm French./ / are thoughts

Dreams of love

Buffy looked around herself. Weird, a minute ago she could have swore she was at home and now she was at the bronze. But that was not the weirdest thing cause when she looked at the stage to see the band that was playing, she saw Spike get on stage

-Here's a song about how I feel about a girl, he said, she's my life and the reason I get up everyday but every time I try to just get around her, she just hurts me more. I know I haven't been a great guy for her everyday, but she could at least believe me when I tell her I've change and that I love cause I truly do. So here's to you, my luv. I hope you'll have a good life without me, as you always wished.

Buffy's breath stopped for a second as she heard Spike talk(Weird, I never heard him speak with that accent) with such passion

/Is he talking about me?/

She truly didn't know and her feelings got even worse when she heard him sing.

Of all the things I believed in

I just want to get it over with

/Oh my god, what a beautiful voice, I never thought he could sing that well. But he said that he would leave her so does this mean he'll leave town?/

Her heart was filled with misery and despair at that single thought but her being her normal "Denial Queen" self, she just pushed that thought away. She could never fall for a vampire.

Tears from behind my eyes, but I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

Feels like I'm starting all over again

The last three years were just pretend, and I say

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I've tried to hold on to

/Does he really feel this way? Does he really love me like he pretends he does? But that's impossible cause soulless monsters can't love/

I used to get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away

To a place where I am blinded by the lights, but it's not right

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

I want what's yours and I want what's mine

I want you

But I'm giving in this time

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall I lie awake

You're my shooting star.

The crowd clapped wildly as Spike finished the last notes. Whispers from all around the room came to Buffy's ears about how could someone be that mean and hurt someone as sweet as him. Spike bowed and said:

-So that was for you Buffy, wherever you are. I love you, always, no matter what. But you always say you want me out of your life. So there you go, I'm gone.

He left the stage with a look of complete sadness. The only living part of her heart broke looking at his expression. She couldn't believe how clear her live was now. All those look of hurt came flashing back in her mind, all those times she rejected him, all those times she was mean to him, during all those times, he loved her. She hurted him so badly and yet he was still coming back, every single time. She finally realized how unfair she was to him, he helped her and she just shrugged it off and said that if he got the chip out he would be back to his old self. She never saw how wrong she was. She changed him, she made him want to become someone good, someone worthy of her love. And only now she realized something was wrong with that. It wasn't him that as worth her love, it was her that didn't deserve a love as faithful and pure as his love. And that was the worst for him because he didn't think she could never love him, she made sure of that, but truth was she already loved him. She loved every part of him. The annoying and cocky vampire, the sweet and sensitive man she saw sing tonight. But it was too late now. He was gone. She pushed him away like every man she loved. But maybe if she found a way to stop him before he was really gone. She ran as fast as she could but when she reached his crypt, it was already empty, empty as her heart right now. She collapsed on the floor, sobbing. She cried herself when she heard a voice:

-Buffy, wake up

IT WAS JUST A DREAM

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