I don't own anything or anybody from naruto(although i do wish i could)coughsasukeCough
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Hithere, welcome to yet another yaoi fic about Naruto and Sasuke. If you dont like yaoi then i highly advise that you dont read my fanfic.
well, this is my first fanfiction, so bear with me if you see any mistakes, because my computer sucks and doesn't proofread anything for me and it suxs big time.Cause i wont know if i spelled somethin right or not.
ok now im going to shut up and let you read now, enjoy
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'thought'
"normal talking"
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Today was just another boring day, no different then yesterday. Same boring Routine, wake up, shower, and grab a piece of toast to eat on the way out the door. Naruto was heading to school on the same path that he always did, looking at his own two feet as he walked knowing the path all to well.
"Hey! Naruto!" someone yelled from behind him, He turned around to see Shikamaru running after him."Wait up, I'm getting tired already," Shikamaru yelled as he caught up with his friend.
"Watsup," Naruto said as he put on a smile for his friend. "I thought I wasn't ever going to catch up with you, well lets get to school I'm sure I can get some shut eye there," Shikamaru grinned as he patted his friend on the back and continued their path to school.
At school Shikamaru and Naruto said their goodbyes as they split up to go to first hour. As Naruto waved goodbye, he went to turn around and bumped into something, well rather someone. "Hey! Watch it," Sasuke yelled as he turned to get a look at his attacker. "Sorry I didn't mean..." Naruto stopped mid-sentence as he realized who it was. Obsidian cold eyes and Raven hair is what he saw when he turned his cerulean blue eyes up. "Nevermind I dont have to be sorry to you," Naruto said coldly as he hurried up and dashed to his first hour before Sasuke could do antything more than look shocked.
"Hi Sakura-chan," Naruto said as he passed through the math room door. A head full of pink hair turned around followed by irrate emerald green eyes. "What do you want Naruto," Sakura spat back at the blonde boy.
"I just uh...wanted to ask you if you could...uh let me borrow...," naruto stopped trying to say what he wanted to say when Sakura returned his speech with a glare. 'NO I WILL NOT LET YOU BORROW MY MATH HOMEWORK, WHY DON'T YOU EVER DO IT BY YOURSELF, YOU BIG LAZY BUM' inner Sakura wanted to say but instead settled for the much more easier answer without all the attention of the class being drawn to her. "No," Sakura stated with ease taking a seat next to her rival, Ino.
"But you don't even know what I was going to ask...," naruto said with a pouty and whiny filled voice as he took a seat in the back next to a window. Naruto spent most of the class staring out the window, lost in his own thoughts.
"Earth to Naruto, the bell rang three minutes ago," Iruka said as he shook the blonde boy who seemed lost in a completely different world. "Huh," Naruto questioned as he snapped back to reality and stood stuffing his book back into his backpack. "Don't forget the homework on page 271, Naruto," Iruka yelled after the said blonde as he left the classroom in a hurry, so he wasn't late for his next class.
'Now I have to face that bastard sasuke, Next hour, my favorite hour, P.E.' Naruto thought as he blindly ran past people going the opposite way that he was going. Then 'BAM' he smacked into someone for the second time today, and all his luck it was the same person too. "That's the second time we've bumped into each other, Naruto," Sasuke said grudgingly as he offered his hand to the blonde boy who was sitting with his head down shadowing his eyes.
"What's wrong with you, why are you just sitting there, Dobe," the raven haired boy said bending down to try and look into his eyes, but just as Sasuke got down to Naruto's level, the blonde boy shot up and dashed. 'what crawled up his butt and died' Sasuke mulled over in his mind as he stood and started to run to his next class too.
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"EEEK! Look at sasuke-kun, He's so hot," yelled the eerily growing group of Sasuke fangirls, as their attention was drawn to the raven haired boy when he jumped to get the basketball away from Naruto. He succeeded in the atempt to get the ball, as he grabbed it he twirled around and landed taking off, dribbling the basketball to the beat of his heart. Sasuke out ran the other players except for a certain blonde who was on his ass the entire time. As Sasuke jumped to shoot, Naruto jumped too, knocking into sasuke in a failed attempt to try and catch the basketball in mid-air.
"Jeez, what is your problem, dobe. That's the Third time you've run into me," Sasuke said while rubbing his head and looking at the blonde, who was blushing as he pushed himself off of sasuke. "Sorry," was all he said as Naruto walked off to the boys locker room, when the teacher blew her whistle signaling everyone it was time to go. Sasuke couldn't believe it Naruto was blushing, because of the incident. 'Does he like me, or something,' Sasuke wondered as he walked towards the locker room.
Naruto dressed in a blur, faster then anyone could give him credit for; and got out of the locker room as fast as he could. He ran past a quizzical looking Sasuke, who tried to grab a hold of him before he got away but he was to slow, it was a thought never made an action. Sasuke instead got dressed fast,flying out the door as fast as naruto had.
Naruto decided now was a good time to climb up to his favorite place in the world, the school roof-top. While up there, said blonde decided to sort out this feeling he felt, the one that brought confusion to him. Not even five minutes into his thinking, he heard someone call his name. 'Who could that be...' Naruto thought while sneaking to the edge of the roof-top, to take a peek at who was stalking him. Naruto gasped when he found out who it was,'Sasuke, what does he want, that bastard' hopping up and climbing down from the roof-top, the blonde boy went to confront the raven haired boy.
Sasuke turned when he heard footsteps behind him, finding the one he was looking for walking up to him.
"Hey," Sasuke said waving at naruto, so he would see him. It wasn't needed as naruto brushed past him and kept on walking. But this time Sasuke's thought was made an action, rather quickly.
"What's wrong with you," Sasuke questioned as his grip on Naruto's arm tightened, Naruto was still facing away from him.
"Are you going to answer me," this time said raven boy, jerked naruto around. Sasuke was a little weirded out because he was greeted with a grin that was all to fake.
"You do know it's lunch time don't you," Naruto pointed out as he let his fake exprssion fall and tried to pry Sasuke's hand off of his arm with his free hand."And if you don't mind I would like to eat sometime before the bell rings again," trying desperatly now to make sasuke let go of his arm. He needed to get away and do something rather important, something he knew sasuke or tsunade would never allow him to do.
"The only way I'm going to let go of your arm is if i go with you," Sasuke said this as a bargain, to make sure that the blonde won't do anything stupid. He remembered Tsunade telling him to watch out for Naruto, one time when the blonde was in the infirmiry. He wasn't sure why the always grinning blonde was in the infirmiry, but he figured it was because he got beat up pretty bad seeing as he wasn't in school for quite a while after that; and that a lot of people despised the blonde. Didn't know exactly why but when the raven was looking out for the blonde, people would walk by and sneer a nasty comment. When Sasuke looked for Naruto's reation, he kept walking but his head was downcast, staring at his feet as he walked. Now he wanted to be with the blonde next time someone said something so he had some idea of why people steered clear of him.
Sasuke looked intentionally down at the now fuming blonde. Naruto growled and stared back at saske, "fine," was the blonde's reply before he shook of Sasuke's now loosened grip and started walking, Sasuke right behind.
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Sasuke was peeved not only did the entire walk consist of silence but he did not hear one nasty comment. People just waved and smiled at him, but looked at Naruto with disgust.
"Hey Sasuke-bastard," Naruto said as he stopped. "we're here," he started walking again, Sasuke followed him or tried to. "Wait here I'll be back in 10 minutes," Naruto said holding his hand out to stop sasuke from following him.
Sasuke nodded as he watched Naruto run up the stairs to his apartment; not knowing what the blonde had in mind to do.
"Hey Sasuke," Sasuke almost jumped out of his clothes when he heard a voice but didn't know where it was coming from. Turning his attention downward toward the bottom half of the apartment building, he saw shikamaru with a sandwich stuffed in his mouth. Shikamaru walked up to Sasuke tired looking as always,"What are you doing here," was the simple remark as he pulled the sandwich from his mouth.
"I came here with Naruto," was the simple answer that came from Sasuke's mouth.
"Then where is Naruto," Shikamaru's face became more stern at the confusion of not seeing the usually hyperactive blonde bouncing around.
Sasuke said while pointing toward Naruto's apartment,"He went to his apartment to get something to eat." He withdrew his hand from its gesture, and was surprised to see shikamaru's energy forming a look that was half way worried the other half shocked.
"What's wrong did I say something," Sasuke asked putting his hand in front of shikamaru's face and waving it.
"How troublesome, Naruto doesn't usually eat at home, unless he didn't come home to 'eat '," shikamaru said while emphasising the word eat.
"Then shouldn't we go see what he's up to," Sasuke stated once again pointing at the apartment that blonged to Naruto.
"Most definitely," Shikamaru worriedly said while making a run for it up to Naruto's apartment, Sasuke right behind.
'I just hope he's not doing what I think he's doing' Shikamaru thought while almost running into naruto's door out of fear of what might have happened to his dear friend. Sasuke bumped into shikamaru at that point, both of them hitting the door with a 'BANG'.
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Once Naruto had unlocked his apartment door he shut it, locked it, and ran through his livingroom. He stopped in the hall to catch his breath and stare at his bathroom on the other end of the hall. Walking toward the one room that agrees with him and almost helped him escape the dirty glances and scornful remarks. His feet dragged across the carpet, as a numbing feeling came over him, walking toward the white room remembering his last attempt.
His last try, to run from the people who hated him most, failed when Tsunade interupted his last right. the bloody memory came back to him as he felt the cold metal slip between his fingers.
FLASHBACK
"MONSTER," a woman called from her window at a fifteen-year-old, blonde-headed, blue-eyed boy.
'Don't listen to what they say' a voice rang through his head 'it's not true'
"WHAT DO YOU WANT," another voice called not as soothing as the one in his head.The one he had been aquainted with, known as kyubbi.
"DO US ALL A FAVOR AND KILL YOURSELF DEMON," yet another one called from across the street.
'Please don't listen to them' Kyubbi pleaded, Naruto understood now that kyubbi was the demon, a red fox, but knew that kyubbi was nothing like what they had described him to be.
"IF IT WOULD PLEASE YOU THEN MAYBE I WILL." naruto bursted into tears as he ran to the only place he cauld go without being mamed, while doing what he was about to do.
On the way he ran past a familiar face, a pillar in a field of pain.
"NARUTO," the all to worried voice called after him. This woman was like his mother although his biological mother was dead, this woman was Tsunade.
Naruto ran up the stairs he knew too well, pulled open the door that he unlocked and locked everyday, and threw himself inside without closing the door behind him. Not caring if anyone found him dead, if anyone saw the sin he was about to commit, the one that would set him free from the names and voices.
The only thing that mattered to him was getting to his bathroom as fast as possible. When he reached the hallway, it looked oddly longer then it really was. Putting both hands on the wall for support, he made his way to his sanctuary. The one place that he could find peace and quiet. The kind of quiet that you only find in a sanctuary, something that was the only important matter to Naruto right now.
When he walked in the doorframe of the small white room, he started hearing the voices, the names over and over. Quickly he reached for the medicine cabinet pulling it open. Renching the razor from the cabinet, all the while losing his balance and falling on the floor.
He began cutting his wrist, once, twice, thrice...Then when he was satisfied with the amount of blood he saw. He cut at his other wrist over and over again in the same spot. Then he began feeling dizzy and light-headed and his world began to spin, making him want to throw up with one problem he couldn't get up.
Next thing he knew he heard a scream and his last sight was Tsunade bending over with her tear streaked face, picking him up, before he lost conciousness.
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Naruto paused, wondering if he really wanted to do this to himself. He remembered the way Sasuke was so cold to him, and pushed him away. Then he remembered the smiles and waves the raven haired boy received, all the while disgust was the only look and emotion he received from them. Why was he so upset over Sasuke? He didn't care about him, did he?
Then it hit him like a ton of bricks, naruto loved him. That was the feeling he felt when he was on the roof-top, but something else was there. What was it? It had to be the reason why he had decided to try this again.
Naruto loved him. Then why was he so willing to end his life because of him.? What was the purpose, what are the odds Sasuke might even like him, too.
It dawned on him then when he remembered the cold stares and insults he got from Sasuke. Just like the people that day a year ago. It triggered something inside him unrequited love, that was the reason. The next thing he knew, his wrists were cut and bleeding more excessively then the last time around.
His world was spinning and he couldn't hold himself up anymore. While falling to the ground he heard a BANG at the door as if someone had shot at his home. His wrists fell to his sides as he started to slump over.
voices and the doornob jiggling were the last things he heard, as he thought 'if no one cares then why would anyone love me' before the darkness clamed him.
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mwha hah hahahhahahahhh...:D
I'm so evil, if you want to know if naruto lives or dies then be sure to submit a review. and i will update soon.
i'll give a COOKIE to those who can guess what I have in store for you.
BAI, ontill nehxt tieme (i know i spelled it wrong its supposed to be that way)
