Author's note: Here's another 8027 fanfic. This time it's a TYL80TYL27 version. This story will be at least three chapters long and I hope everyone reads it to the end.
Also: MORE 8027 PLEASE! Thank you!
Lie to Love
By ilYamaTsuna7227li
Chapter 1
It was silly.
What was? You might ask…
Well, the fact that Sawada Tsunayoshi, a well-known mafia boss, still did not have a love life.
It's not like he wasn't interested or whatever… It was just that in all his 24 years of life there was never a person who was right for him, never an instance where falling in love was a good thing. It was always something getting in the way. And also…
"Jyuudaime, I have the papers you need to sign right here. Do you need-?"
"I'm fine Gokudera-kun. Thanks." Tsuna said firmly as he took the papers. He watched his storm guardian frown at him slightly before nodding and leaving. The brunet watched with regretful eyes as the other left. He sighed and looked down at the documents.
It was lonely.
For the past ten years of his life, he had just watched as his friends fell in love. True, he too did have an obsessive infatuation once with Sasagawa Kyoko, but as time passed by his feelings for her just vanished. He became the sky who protected the people around him without getting too close.
Always, always watching from afar.
The brunet's hand around the pen tightened as he looked down at his desk blankly. His eyes burned with the need to cry for some reason.
The small form shook a bit as the brunet let go of his pen and just buried his face in his hands. The lack of sleep the last few days was making him emotional. Add the fact that he hadn't been eating at all to the equation, it was a shock that he wasn't delusional yet.
Tsuna let out a breath as he leaned back against his chair while closing his eyes. He could feel a few tears slide down his cheeks at the action. He didn't bother to wipe them, not wanting to move from his comfortable position.
"This is so stupid…" Tsuna murmured. "So what if I don't have anyone? It never mattered to me before…"
But then an image of Gokudera and Haru, Yamamoto and Kyoko, Ryohei and Hana, Chrome and Mukuro, Lambo and I-pin, Hibari and that who-knows-who girl, flashed through Tsuna's mind and somehow he felt his heart ache.
Ever since he was fourteen he was forced to watch as everyone around him found someone. Always giving others his blessing and just smiling in content at their happiness. Although Yamamoto and Kyoko did break it off a few years ago and each had found someone new… It still hurt him that they found someone new so easily. Whereas he…
Knock! Knock!
"Tsuna?" Came a familiar voice that made him snap his eyes open. "I'm coming in…"
The brunet sat up straight as his tall and gentle rain guardian entered. For one moment amber and chocolate brown eyes stared at each other and to the brunet's confusion he saw worry flash rapidly in his guardian's eyes before the other stepped towards him in a hurry.
"Tsuna? Are you okay? Are you hurt?" Yamamoto asked as he approached his boss. The brunet blinked in confusion before he suddenly felt fingers wiping away the tears on his cheeks.
"O-Oh…" Tsuna said as he realized the source of the rain's worry. He chuckled as he held the rain guardian's hands. "I'm fine. This is nothing. I was just yawning so, yeah…"
Yamamoto's eyes hardened at Tsuna's attempt to shrug off the tears. "You've been acting strange lately. You haven't been eating or sleeping at all this past week."
Brown eyes widened. "How-?"
"I wake up early and sleep late, Tsuna." Yamamoto said. "Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and I can see that you're still awake. I'm not an idiot you know."
Tsuna's eyes blinked in astonishment before he smiled uncertainly. "I wasn't taking you for one."
Yamamoto didn't bother to give a comeback to this statement and instead he continued. "You haven't been eating in the dining room lately too. When I ask the others if they brought you food, they said they do but it always comes back untouched." Yamamoto's eyes sharpened. "It makes me wonder where you're getting your nutrition."
"It's amazing what a few uhm- cupcakes and biscuits can do?" Tsuna said but the rain shook his head. His eyes flashed genuine worry for his friend as he sat by the couch near Tsuna's desk and motioned the other to him.
Unable to deny the other, the brunet stood up and walked towards his best friend. The swordsman reached out a hand and pulled the other into his arms.
"Hey-!" Tsuna said but then suddenly he felt his movement become sluggish and his breathes came out in slow pants. His eyes began to droop heavily. "Wha-?"
A soft blue light covered the two as it thrummed peacefully. Tsuna felt his body relax and in his mind he could tell that Yamamoto was using his soft rain flames to get him to sleep.
"Yama-…" Tsuna began but his eyes closed as his hand grabbed on to the other's shirt.
"Shh… go to sleep Tsuna." Yamamoto murmured. His voice was compelling the other to sink deeper into unconsciousness.
"I-I don't-" Tsuna began as he trembled lightly. "Stop…"
The rain guardian chuckled gently. "No can do. You need some sleep."
"No…" The brunet moaned and suddenly tears slid down his eyes once more.
Yamamoto watched in stunned fascination as more tears slid down the brunet's face. "Tsuna?" He said as he wiped away the tears. The brunet didn't answer as his body shook even more.
The Vongola could feel the warmth radiated from the other and it was hard to make himself pull away from the swordsman. The tears slid down faster.
"Hey, don't cry…" Yamamoto murmured in worry as he continued to wipe the tears.
Idiot Yamamoto… Tsuna thought as he sunk deeper into unconsciousness.
There was another reason why Tsuna didn't have another person in his life. He had tried you know, to be with other people. But when some girls confronted him to go out with them, he always finds himself unable to answer…
…Why?
Stop making me fall for you even more. Please Yamamoto…
…That's why. He was in love with his rain guardian.
"Hey Tsuna, Gokudera's out on a date with Haru. Why don't we go and hang out too?" Yamamoto said with a grin. The brunet flushed delicately but nodded with a smile.
"Sure!"
"Yamamoto…" Tsuna murmured so softly that it was hard to hear what he said.
"Yamamoto-kun…" Came a girl's voice as Tsuna was about to turn the corner to throw the garbage. He stopped in his footsteps as his eyes widened when he saw Kyoko and Yamamoto behind the school building.
"Oh, Sasagawa-chan!" Yamamoto greeted. "What's up? Are you looking for Tsuna?"
The young Sasagawa blushed as she shook her head. "N-No I… Actually, I was wondering if…"
"Hm?" Yamamoto tilted his head as Tsuna watched what was happening. His hands began to shake in anticipation as he continued to stare wide-eyed.
"W-Will you gout with me?" The young girl blushed deeply as she smiled. Tsuna's eyes widened as he looked at Yamamoto who looked equally surprised. But there was a hint of pink in his cheeks as well.
"I-I, uhm…" Yamamoto scratched the back of his head.
"Please!" Kyoko said and Yamamoto blinked before he smiled.
"O-Okay…"
The garbage bag in Tsuna's hand fell to the ground.
"No…" The brunet moaned as tears fell down his eyes and he tossed and turned in his sleep.
"Hey Tsuna!" Yamamoto said as he entered the classroom. A silent and dazed Tsuna was looking out of the window of his classroom. He gave a jerk when Yamamoto stopped beside him.
"Y-Yamamoto…" Tsuna said and he gave a pained smile. "You scared me."
The dark-haired swordsman blinked. "I'm sorry." Suddenly he noticed the bags under the brunet's eyes. "Hey, you look tired. Are you okay?"
"I'm fine. It's just Reborn's usual training." Tsuna said as he shook his head. The swordsman didn't ask why Reborn's training made Tsuna's eyes look so dim.
"Hey I have something to tell you." Yamamoto said and suddenly he went red. Tsuna's eyes shadowed beneath his bangs.
"Sasagawa-chan and I are going out now." Yamamoto said and then he laughed awkwardly. "Weird right?"
Tsuna looked up and smiled painfully as he shook his head. "It's not weird. I think you suit each other. Good job… I hope the two of you are happy." Tsuna said as he tried not to inject any bitterness in his tone.
Yamamoto laughed as he placed his arms around the brunet. "Thanks Tsuna! You're the best!"
The brunet's hand clenched onto the fabric he was holding as he whimpered lightly. The bags under his eyes were red as he hiccupped pitifully.
"Sasagawa-chan and I broke up." Yamamoto said to Tsuna who spit out the coffee he was drinking.
"W-What-?" Tsuna said in surprise. "But you've been going out for five years! What happened?" He asked in genuine concern.
Yamamoto laughed. "Maa… maa.. We parted in good terms." He said with his usual smile that eased Tsuna's worry. "We just decided we needed to see other people this time." The guardian shrugged.
"O-Oh…" Tsuna said and his eyes lightened as hope formed in the pit of his stomach and his heart began to beat faster…
"I have a new girlfriend now." Yamamoto said, effectively making Tsuna's heart sink and his eyes widen blankly.
"Y-You do?" Pain erupted in Tsuna's heart and he found himself clutching his shirt trying to keep himself steady. "That was fast…"
"It's one of our old classmates in middle school." Yamamoto laughed. "I think she's cute but I doubt you remember her, it was a long time ago after all."
"Yeah." Tsuna said as his eyes shadowed. "I wish you happiness in her."
"Thanks Tsuna!" Yamamoto said with a charming smile and Tsuna found his heart sinking to his stomach. "How about you Tsuna? Found a girlfriend yet?"
The brunet laughed hollowly as he looked at his rain guardian sadly. "I doubt I'll ever find anyone for me Yamamoto."
"Huh, why?" Yamamoto asked as he frowned. "You're a great guy! I'm sure there are a lot of girls there who like you."
The brunet's eyes softened. "But I'll never like them back." Tsuna shook his head.
"Why?"
Tsuna placed a hand under his own chin as he said in a heart breaking voice. "Because there is only one person that I will like for the rest of my life and that person won't ever notice me…"
The brunet sobbed quietly as he hugged the pillow closer to himself. He whined as more tears slid down his face and his small form shook from his suppressed cries.
"Jyuudaime…" Gokudera called out worriedly as he placed a cool hand against his boss warm forehead. "Wake up jyuudaime."
Brown eyes full of tears fluttered open as it looked feverishly at the person who woke him up. "G-Gokudera-kun?"
"We're here too Sawada." Chocolate brown eyes widened even more when he saw to his embarrassment and pain that all of his guardians were in his bedroom. With a grunt, the brunet sat up as he rubbed his eyes trying to wipe away the tears.
"E-Everyone, what are you doing here?" Tsuna said weakly. He met each and every worried pair of eyes with guilt.
"You wouldn't stop crying Tsuna…" Yamamoto spoke up and immediately Tsuna looked to him. His face was pale with worry. "So I called everyone here."
"What's wrong boss?" Chrome spoke up shyly. "Are you in pain? Is there anything we can do to help?"
"If you are having nightmares, we can dispel it if you wish." Mukuro suggested.
"Vongola, perhaps you were eating sweets before sleeping." Lambo suggested his voice quiet with worry. "Maybe that gave you nightmares."
"Herbivore." And there was a telltale click of someone hanging up their phone. "I called the perverted doctor. Can I leave?"
"Calm down Hibari." Ryohei said gruffly. "Our boss is extremely sick. You should stay here."
Hibari frowned but made no more comments as he leaned back against the wall.
"Everyone, I'm happy that you're all worried." Tsuna said with a timid smile as he hiccupped a bit. "But I'm fine, really. You should all get back, don't you have some missions to go to?"
The guardians all frowned while Hibari huffed.
"No jyuudaime. We put our missions on hold for today." Gokudera said in a serious tone. "We can't possibly concentrate when you're this way."
Tsuna gave off an awkward laugh. "I'm not sick Gokudera-kun. I'm fine really." As though trying to prove his point, the brunet smoothly slid off his queen-sized bed. He stood up but staggered a bit at his sudden action. "See?" He smiled but it wavered when he saw the unconvinced looks of his guardians.
"Kufufu Tsunayoshi-kun, don't try to fool us." Mukuro spoke up. His heterochromatic eyes flashed intuitively at the brunet. "The tears you cried while sleeping obviously says you are not fine."
Tsuna blinked at what Mukuro said before flushing guiltily. "T-That was…"
"What was the dream about Sawada? I'm sure you can extremely tell us right?" Ryohei urged the young sky.
Tsuna looked at the ground his expression changing to sadness before quickly changing to a fake puzzled expression. "I-I don't remember." He lied in an apologetic tone.
"Are you telling the truth?" Came a surprising remark from the cloud guardian, "It'll be troublesome if you just don't tell us, herbivore."
"Were you having a nightmare Vongola?" Lambo asked as he approached the brunet.
"Uhm, not technically a nightmare… I think." Tsuna added hastily as he remembered that he just said that he didn't remember what his dream was.
"Boss, please just tell us what's wrong." Chrome said as she also approached the Vongola. "We know that there's something you're not telling us. You haven't been eating with us lately and you keep yourself in your office most of the time…" Tears formed at the corner of the illusionist's eyes. "We're really worried."
Tsuna's eyes widened. "Chrome…" Guilt flashed in Tsuna's face. "I…"
"That's enough." Suddenly came a voice from Tsuna's bedroom door. All of the guardians looked up to see Reborn leaning casually against the door.
"Reborn-san!" Gokudera greeted.
"Kid, you're back!" Yamamoto said with a grin. "From wherever you went… Ah where was it again?"
"That's confidential." Reborn smirked as his fedora shadowed his eyes. "Anyway, what are you doing? Barging into your boss' room without his permission..." Reborn gave the guardians and icy glare, making them freeze.
"W-Well we were pretty worried about Sawada." Ryohei said as he gave an awkward laugh. Lambo was hiding behind the brunet.
"Hmph. I guess that is a valid excuse." Reborn turned his glare to the young heir. "And you Dame-Tsuna? Why are you making your guardians worried?"
Instead of freezing in fright and gulping like he usually did… Tsuna just gave his tutor a tired smile. "Sorry Reborn. I didn't mean to make anyone worry."
Reborn looked at Tsuna with a bit of surprise while the guardians looked alarmed by the tired tone.
"Sou?" Reborn said before he turned to the guardians again. "Can you leave us alone for a moment?"
"Reborn-san?" Gokudera asked in confusion to Reborn's request.
"Is there something wrong, kid?" Yamamoto asked equally confused.
"Nothing. I just have to talk about something with Dame-Tsuna." Reborn stated with crossed arms. "Why don't you go and prepare breakfast for Tsuna while you wait?"
Hibari was the first to leave at Reborn's order before he was followed reluctantly by the other guardians.
"Well, if it's the arcobaleno's request then I guess we have no other choice but to follow." Mukuro said as he placed an arm around Chrome's shoulder. "Let's go my dear Chrome."
"Hai, Mukuro-sama." Chrome said obediently.
"Tako-head, let's go." Ryohei said as he dragged the restless storm out of the room.
"Jyuudaime, I-I'll see you later." Gokudera said before he turned angrily at the sun guardian. "Oi let go of me! I can walk on my own!"
"Tsuna we'll see you later." Yamamoto said with a small wave. He gave the arcobaleno one last uncertain look before leaving.
There was a sound click when the door closed. Reborn turned to his student who sat back down on the bed with a resigned sigh.
"What do you want Reborn?" Tsuna said as he focused his slightly red eyes at his tutor who frowned at him.
"Dame-Tsuna…" The arcobaleno breathed in deeply as though what he was about to say next were very rare words. "I have always been proud at what you have done. Proud of your character, at how selfless and strong you are …" Reborn started as he crossed his arms. His tone was quick and soft and his eyes were shadowed by his fedora, hiding his expression.
Tsuna's eyes widened as he looked curiously at his tutor. What brought this on?
"The sky who protects his guardians without getting too involved with them." Reborn continued. "You have embodied this duty perfectly."
Silence.
"Uh, thanks I guess." Tsuna said with a small and sad smile.
"But Dame-Tsuna…" Reborn's eyes sharpened. "If you don't want to be that way, all you have to say is no."
Uncertainty and surprise flickered in Tsuna's eyes. "Huh?"
"Tsuna, the things that make human beings strong is that they fight for what they want. They have the ability to say 'no' and fight for their destiny, not wait for it to happen." Reborn's eyes flashed at Tsuna's face.
"Reborn what-?" Tsuna looked up, his eyes desperate.
"Before, you were all ways so resilient." The obsidian eyes flickered nostalgically. "Always denying that you will become a mafia boss… I admired that part of you. The part that never gave up."
Tsuna's pursed his lips. "But in the end I became a mafia boss. All my fighting against my destiny was wasted and I just… gave up."
Reborn frowned. "You didn't give up, Dame-Tsuna. You chose to be a mafia boss not because the ninth and the rest of the mafia were expecting you to be one. You chose to be a mafia boss because you wanted to keep fighting for the safety and happiness of your guardians. You didn't give up."
Tsuna's eyes widened at Reborn's statement. "Reborn…"
The arcobaleno's face hardened. "But now Dame-Tsuna, you have changed. You have become too selfless that it's almost inhuman. Always watching your guardians find happiness while you stay behind and make yourself miserable. Haven't I taught you anything? Didn't I always say to fight for your happiness as well?"
Tsuna's eyes flickered uncertainly. Did Reborn know what was making him sad? Did he know of his infatuation with his beloved rain?
"Of course I don't actually know what's wrong with you." Reborn sighed. "I have been away far too long to understand the workings of your current state of mind." He explained before he gave Tsuna a steely stare. "So you have to tell me what it is that's making you like this. I won't stand for lies." Reborn took out his Leon morphed gun. "You know what happens when you lie to me."
The brunet gulped before he took a step back. Reborn smirked. Finally an expected reaction.
"R-Reborn…"
"Don't be a coward Dame-Tsuna." Reborn said with a frown. "You can have anything you want if you fight for it. The thing you desire most is just within your reach but what happens if you're too cowardly to reach out?"
A vein in Tsuna's temple twitched as he frowned at his tutor. "Don't be so unreasonable, Reborn. Not everyone can get what they want just by simply fighting for it! What's the use of fighting for someone's heart when from the very start it never belonged to you?"
Reborn and Tsuna's eyes widened at the sudden rush of words that came out of the brunet's mouth. Tsuna blushed before rapidly covering his mouth with his hand while Reborn's eyes became calculative.
"You… like someone Dame-Tsuna?" Reborn stated and his eyebrow shot up. "Is this what it's about?"
"N-No I-!"
"Don't lie!" Bang!
"HIEE! I'm not lying!" Bang! Bang!
"Don't screech like a girl and stop lying!" Bang! Bang! Bang!
"O-Okay maybe I lied just a tiny bi-!" Bang! "Okay, a LOT of bit! Happy?"
"No, not until you tell me who it is." BANG!
"I-Itte! I'll tell you! I'll tell you!"
A smirk formed in Reborn's face. "Good." Bang!
"Hiee! What was that for?" Tsuna shouted in accusation. Reborn tipped his fedora forward.
"Just a stray bullet."
"Liar!" Bang!
"Don't call me a liar."
"H-Hai!"
Preview: "…But that's because everyone already has someone! And I… what do I do if the only person I'll ever love loves someone else?"
Author's note: On the next chapter, everyone tries to cheer Tsuna up but they FAIL big time. Oh how will they resolve the mess they caused? Find out on the next chapter! READ and REVIEW
