| Most Randomest idea came to my head when watching Sunset Syndrome and the after ep! And plus it's been nearly 5 years :'( So please enjoy.
"You'll be great without me"
Was she really great without him though? That' the thing; Zoe Hanna was a strong person. If you wanted to make her weak and fragile you would have to try your very hardest. It was like she was built of stone; you would have to chip through the stone to make break her. Those 5 little words always repeated in her head; no matter what. She would lie awake at night as the flashback of that night he left her played on her mind; like a stuck broken record, over and over until she fell asleep. She would always hear those words echo loudly when she didn't even want to hear them. It was like he had left some sort of scar on her, something that would always haunt her by bringing back all the memories that they shared.
Zoe Hanna was learning to be "great without him"; she was slowly learning that people don't stick around forever. Not even Nick Jordan. She needed to face everything and it would always mean facing them alone; No matter what the problem was it was going to be just her. She didn't have Nick to always run too now.
"And with chemo and radio you stand a good chance of 5 years; Plus?"
Yet those 5 years were meant to be full of happiness. The one year they spent together should have been they start of something new; something to make the most of. They should have spent it together day after day; cherishing every single second of everyday that went by. They should have got married like they had planned too, Zoe should have wore a big dress and Nick should have wore those bespoke suits he always talked about yet proudly showed off. They should have had children running around that big garden they also talked about; she should have told Nick about her fertility problems... if she did, who knew where they would be right now?
Zoe watched as the sunset rose as she slowly approached the quiet garden. She wished she could hold him again or just smell his aftershave; anything that made him close to her again. She wished there such thing as a time machine; she would use it in heartbeat. She slowly ran her fingers over the gold printed writing "R.I.P Nick Jordan" before setting the bunch of flowers in the pots provided. She kneeled down staring at his headstone as she read the message over and over. No matter how long it had been; it was still raw, it still pained and it still tore her heart out slowly. It was like it was a nightmare and hopefully she would wake up any second now but Nick would be there to hold her; keep her calm but he wasn't and he never would be. Never ever again. But Zoe Hanna really did have to be "great without" him because he was never coming back and she would never have her Nick Jordan.
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