."Italic" - spoken in Trigedasleng
When names are spelled as "Klark, Leksa, Ekko, etc."- also Trigedasleng
Trigedasleng transtlations:
Ain hodnes - my love
Natrona - traitor
Ai hod yu in - I love you
Kwin - queen
Now she is, too, known for her ruthlesness, but only when needs to be. With Lexa she felt invincible, strong, like there will never be an end to it. To everything. To them. To life. She has came to Polis four weeks after she conquered The Mountain. She was broken, angry, sad, and hopefull. Lexa had offered her to stay, offered her some of her best warriors to train her while she's on duty. She gave her food and sometimes comfort, but the one thing that Clarke valued the most was understanding. Clarke did forgive Lexa as soon as she was able to relive the events in her own head and try to find another solution. She knew her people come first, they're the same, she knew she would have done the same thing if the opportunity arose. She did the same thing. She burned three hundred of Grounder warriors alive, so that 86 could live. People who were just following orders, even though they probably didn't need them, but it is reasonable to think that the Sky People were a threat to the Grounders. And unknown, just like Mountain Men who drained them from their blood and turned them into monsters. She had done the same thing when she killed hundreds of people in that mountain, to save 47 of her own. And it hurts. Every day. Just like it pains Lexa - all the things she's done, but she did it so that her people wouldn't have to. She carries that burden, so that her people would be happy. Alive. It took Clarke a while to understand how Lexa is keeping on doing it all and bearing it all on her chest, but since she became one of them, since she became Trikru, she saw how they needed Lexa, and how she is the only one who can do what needs to be done, and has a level head on her shoulders. One of a kind. A rare piece of art that entrances everyone. Wether it is fear, gratitude, respect, or even resentment from few sides that they feel towards her, it doesn't matter. Lexa has her kwin by her side, and that is what matters to her. She has Clarke.
It has been two years since Clarke came to make peace with herself and with Lexa. It was too much on her mind, and she needed to let it go. She told her that she understands and therefore doesn't need to forgive. Because she understands.
After Clarke decapitated the Ice Nation's queen in a war between the Ice Nation and the Coalition, her son, Stohl, has taken her position after swearing alleigance to the Commander. Clarke was already known in Polis, even before that. She was a Legend because of her quick transformation to a strong warrior, the one that is to be feared, the one good enough to be in Heda's personal guard. When she wasn't training with other warriors, she used to spend a lot of time in healing quarters, or simply helping warriors on the scene. And then she became their kwin, and she dedicated herself to her people even more. Because she loves them, and they love her, and she loves Lexa.
But after the Coalition meeting one night, she was taken by the Ice Nation's king who wanted to avenge his mother and take Trikru lands. She's been missing for almost three weeks now. The Commander is broken, but she has to keep level head if she wants to get her back. She knowns that Clarke is a great warrior, she could take care of herself. She will find her way back home. In the meantime, Lexa tried to unpuzzle how they had taken her. Her watch over Stohl had been constant since he took his position. 'Of course he had to have an assistance.'- she thought. End of the third week since Clarke's been kidnapped and no move in the investigation, Lexa started to panic and fear even more, and that is something that Commander must not feel. But she isn't whole anymore, not without Clarke. So she called for the Coalition meeting. Ice Nation wouldn't come, since by taking Clarke, they declared war to the Tree People and to the Coalition itself. Lexa was sitting in the highest chair at the end of the table, stoic and calm – on the outside, but rage boiling through her veins, waiting to catch the ones responsible. It was all she could do. So she stood up, barely maniging to control herself and not kill everyone she suspects that could have helped in the kidnaping. Other leaders saw her bloodlust, but no one dared to say a word, fear circling through their bodies and shivers down their back.
„We have natronas in our Coalition", she started slowly, more calm then she could've imagine. That only increased fear in other leaders. „They can stand up and step forward, and they will die by quick, easy death. If no one, steps forward, there will be severe consiquences. And as for the ones responsible, they will die wamplei kom thauz kodon, after I'm done with them." She knew it's a long shot and didn't expect for anyone to actually confess.
However, four of the generals started lauging and stood up at the same time. They were of Grass clan, Horse clan, Fire clan, and Iron clan. „We are the ones, Heda," – Horse clan boldly stated, „We have decided to ally with Azgeda and we will take over your land. Trikru don't deserve to posses such power." Then he turned to other clan leaders: „You are welcome to join us.", he said with satisfying smirk on his face.
Lexa had suspected on Grass leaader, Horse leader, and Fire Clan, so she took care of their guards and isolated anyone who might help them earlier, just in case. They have been missing more and more during these three weeks and no one knew about whereabouts, and their connection to the Coalition started to weaken. Iron clan, however, she didn't know about, but she could take care of one delegation anyway. 'They must have joined recently', she thought. Before any of the leaders could speak, she turned to Indra and nodded slowly, as if she was expecting this. Indra started yelling in Trigedasleng, and in a matter of seconds warriors entered the room and captured surprised traitors off guard. Without guards.
„Teik emo set raun ona tri" – „Take them to wait around a tree, I will come for them shortly. If someone still wishes to join them, they may step forward. Now.", Lexa said stoically, as she always is, even though she could barely control herself, but no one even looked up from the floor to meet her furious green eyes. „Good. Welcome to join me in delivering punishment to these natronas", and with that, she turned and exited the room.
It was already sundown by the time meeting ended, and people were gathering around tied leaders, looking them with questioning eyes. Lexa came shortly after they were ready. She took Clarke's dagger that Lexa gave her when Clarke became her general. She looked at it and held it tightly, as if she was holding on hope that she will see her kwin again.
She stepped in the middle of an empty circle around tied leaders.
With one last glance over the dagger, she addressed the crowd in Trigedasleng. „We have gathered here today to punish these traitors that disgrace their people. They have betrayed our Coalition by making an alliance with the Ice Nation in order to take over our lands." The crowd went wild, they wanted to kill them themselves for destroying the peace hardly built. Lexa held her hand high and they went silent in seconds. She took a deep breath trying to collect herself for what she will say next. „They have betrayed me, and you.", she then looked to the ground and then glanced over the crowd, „They took our kwin.". Crowd went even more crazy and started to fight the guards to get to the people that dared to take her away from them. Lexa just stood there, watching, trying to get her own grief and anger under control.
People knew their kwin is not in Polis, but they didn't know that she was taken. Lexa closed her eyes to prevent tears creating in her eyes and gripped the dagger more firmly. The pain she felt in her chest was overbearing. The emptiness that drill a hole in her soul was consuming. Everything turned uspide down in three weeks. Everything that she lives for is probably dead. Clarke is probably dead. She turned the tip of the dagger towards herself, trying to wage her next step. Slowly, she started pulling the dagger towards her heart. As the tip touched her skin, she heard murmurs of the crowd near the city gate. She started shivering as she heard soft and suprised voices murmuring „kwin", and then calling their heda in fear. Lexa opened her eyes not aware of what's happening. Luckily, no one was looking at her to see what she was about to do. She ran towards the gate and saw her kwin covered in blood and half healed cuts all over her body. Her feet couldn't separate from the ground for a second.
„Klark"-was all she managed to say as she started walking towards her houmon, her love.
„Leksa...", Clarke looked at her with pain evident all over her features, but her eyes were full of love and relief as she saw her heda, but her heda's eyes were full of tears. And that's when sadness and anger overwhelmed her. Clarke suddenly felt the familiar arms around her, and that's when all went black.
Her eyes felt heavy, her body sore, not able to move. All she was able to do was hear the voices around her and angry crowd outside. She managed to open her eyes to find Lexa pacing around the room and Nyko tending to her wounds. She let a groan as she felt Nyko's hand on her hip trying to close the dagger wound there. In instant she found Lexa above her, yelling at Nyko while he kept his head low and couldn't let out a word.
„Leksa, beja", Clarke said with strain evident in her voice and pleading look in her eyes.
Lexa looked at her, seeing in her eyes what Clarke wanted and sat next to her while kissing her hand's every inch, not missing even a part.
„Klark" was all she said before tears started falling down her face. She felt a hand rubbing her cheeks and lowered her eyes to convince herself that it's real. When she looked back up she saw Clarke's face milimeter from her own. She placed her hand on Clarke's cheek closing her eyes to feel again. To feel Clarke, to feel alive with Clarke, to lose herself again in Clarke. Without a second thought she leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on Clarke's lips, careful not to move her, but desperate enough that Clarke felt Lexa's pain. She didn't stop kissing her lips slowly and gently until she was assured that it's not a dream.
„I thought I lost you. I wanted to die with you. If your spirit left your body, I would let mine leave this.", she showed Clarke the dagger and Clarke could see the tear in Lexa's armor near her heart.
Anger filled her once again and she stood up, not letting a sound out of her mouth, not feeling the pain of her almost healed cuts, but could feel her soul aching. She didn't care too much that they hurt her, but they hurt Lexa. They hurt Lexa, and they will pay.
„Take me to natronas" she said with unwavering tone. Lexa was surprised, but she took her hand and led her slowly to the poles that held the traitors tied. People from all around Polis came in a matter of hours to see what is happening, and when they saw Clarke heading towards the poles, now less covered in blood, but hurt and still with her head high, and now the steel look in her eyes, they couldn't help but stare in awe.
She stopped herself in front of the Horse clan leader and started looking at him from toe to head. When she settled on his face, he let a laugh remembering her in chains and her struggle to live while they were cutting her piece by piece, and he spat on her. She didn't even blink, she just took a sword from the nearest warrior and stabbed him in the gut. She knew it wouldn't kill him instantly, but he will spend days in agony before he dies. Then she turned to look the other traitors, and stopped on Horse man again and said to him slowly, but so that everyone can hear „What you did to me will never be forgotten. But I will make sure that your spirits remember everything that I will do to you even when they cross to another body. You will scream, and beg, and try to end your own fight. Without success. You will cry and rip your own nails out from your fingers. You are not aware of what I'm capable of just yet, but soon enough you will be." , then she turned to the people „I will, however, spare their people. They are not a part of this. But if they turn again against the Coalition and the heda, they will suffer the most painful deaths.". She turned to the Horse clan leader once again „As for you, you will spend your last days dying, but will only die when I allow it. Better start talking.".
Crowd started chanting kwin and then heda as they walked away together to their house. Clarke saw five guards standing in front of the guest room door and turned to Lexa. „There was an Azgeda warrior by your side when you came back. She brought you back. I couldn't risk a betrayal again, so I didn't lock her up or torture her, but I have put her under constant supervision and forbid exiting her quarters until I speak with you.", Lexa stated calmly, turning her head to Clarke encouraging her to talk.
„She was one of my guards there", she stated and memories started flooding her head. Before Lexa could say or think anything, she continued „She recognized me right away. She was a prisoner in The Mountain. Bellamy came back for her. She couldn't set me free the moment they brought me in, but she promised that she will. She brought me extra food and water, and when we saw the opportunity, we escaped and she brought me here.". Clarke then turned and looked at Lexa, pained with her memories in captivity. Lexa as if she sensed it pulled her into an embrace the way only she could. And that's when Clarke broke down. They stood there, in front of the door and the guards for quite some time before Clarke finally calmed. She raised her head from the crook of Lexa's neck and looked at her pleadingly.
„Can I see her, heda?" Lexa only nodded and guards cleared the way to Echo's room.
As soon as Echo saw her coming through the doors, she stood up holding her head low stating „kwin". Clarke crossed the room and hugged Echo as hard as she could. „Ai laik Klark, Ekko, I told you.". Echo merely smiled when Lexa interrupted „It is your title, Clarke, you should wear it with pride.". Echo only bowed saying „heda", as Clarke came to pull Lexa in a kiss, smiling „Of course I'm wearing it with pride, heda, but Echo is my friend, and she saved me. She should at least get to call me by my first name.". „It is fine, kwin, I wouldn't do that anyway, people may not understand.", Echo stated and Lexa cut in immediately after „Echo can't go back to the Ice Nation now. She will have quarters assigned in the guest house next to ours. She may stay here as long as she likes, but as long as she is loyal to me.", Lexa turned to Echo „Of course, heda, my alleigance is not in question. I think that I have proven it. I disagree with our king and his land hungry allies. I swear to you, heda, and to you, kwin, that I will fight and die for you. I will defend you with my own life, I will defend peace you are trying to build, and kill everyone who may pose a threat or opose to you.", Echo said with pride in her eyes, and hope that heda will belive her. „Very well,", Lexa contently „one of our guards will escort you to your quarters and you will have your armor and weapons brought to you there. I expect you to be ready for duty at dawn, then we will have a meeting to discuss Clarke's matter and upcoming war. First the three of us, then with the rest of the Coalition.".
She held out her hands saying „Klark" and motioned towards the exit. Clarke took Lexa's hand instantly and they left to their room.
Clarke was taking a bath and Lexa couldn't help but stare, not daring to take her eyes off of Clarke as if she's going to disappear if she even blinks. Clarke could feel Lexa's eyes on her and she turned around to look at her.
„Leksa, it's okay. I'm safe." Was all she said as Lexa crossed the distance between them and took Clarke's hand in her own.
„No, Clarke, it is not okay. You could have died.", Lexa said disbelivingly. „Do you know what would happen to me if you died? I don't have a soul anymore. You are it. You are all that I have, and the only thing that I want to have. It is not okay. They will suffer for what they've done and when I'm done with them no one will be able to recognize them, or put them together, or even find their body parts.". That was only a piece of anger Lexa could express at that moment. She had Clarke there, now, and Clarke always calmed her.
„Ai hod yu in, Leksa, and we will do it together. I'm here now, you are not alone.", Clarke said and sighed, „Even if I died my spirit would find you again...", and that's when Lexa cut in. „No, Clarke, you can't die. Can't you see? I would kill entire nations just to get you back." Then Lexa was the one who sighed. She directed her look from Clarke's hand to her eyes „You are my weakness." And with that, she closed the gap between them in a passionate kiss. The one that told Clarke all Lexa couldn't express in her words. It started slow, then grew desperate, and then angry, as if Lexa is killing an entire army of warriors with that kiss. She bit Clarke's bottom lip in anger and when she felt copper in her mouth, Lexa pulled back and exited the room. When she came back couple of hours later, she found Clarke sleeping in their bed. She strip off her shoulder guard, then her armor and changed into night clothes. She laid down on her side so she could look at Clarke. After few minutes, she pulled Clarke into herself in a protective and possesive embrace. Clarke opened her eyes and looked at Lexa who just kissed her forehead saying „En ai hod yu in sentaim, ain kwin". And I love you too, my queen. And they fell asleep.
They both woke up with first light but they stayed laying and looking at each other. Lexa was only now able to see all the wounds on Clarke's body properly. Even though she already had scars and battle wounds, Lexa couldn't help herself but feel pain in her chest. Her kills were marked on her left shoulder. Thirty-four of them, mainly in a war agains the Ice Nation. One of them was different, bigger and had a circle around it which meant that she killed a leader, and that one was visible as it was on the peak of her shoulder. But beneath those marks, there was number 900 carved with knife with burned flesh around it. Three hundred for grounder warriors that she burned alive. Two hundred and fifty fot Tondc. The rest were Mountain men, women, and children. On her right shoulder she had a tattoo Lexa did for her when they bonded. It symbolises her status in Trikru as their kwin. Behind her right shoulder there was a brand. The one that trapped her spirit to Lexa's in their bonding ceremony, and on the side, beneath her tattoo another one that she recieved on the completion of her training and gaining the role of Lexa's general.
The instant Lexa laid her eyes on Clarke's tattoo, the one that says that Clarke is hers, and hers only, she started tracing fingers across the edges of it, then on the bonding brand where she kissed slowly, lingering around it for a while. Clarke let a small moan and Lexa looked in her eyes, seeing dark blue watching her longingly, her own predatory green turning dark. She grabbed her by the waist with one arm and the other reaching for her neck, but taking time to touch and brush as much of skin as possible. It sent shivers down Clarke's spine and she couldn't help but moan once more. It was all Lexa needed. She grabbed her by her neck and pulled her in firmly brushing their lips without a single word, but before Clarke could reach for Lexa's lips, Lexa started placing kisses along Clarke's jaw. Soft and tender, and slow. When she reached for her earlobe, Clarke already held one hand on Lexa's waist and the other in Lexa's hair. She missed this. Having Lexa all for herself, and giving herself to Lexa completely. She missed looking at her, talking to her, with her, about her with other warriors. All of it. Her thought were, however, interrupted by Lexa's change of pace heading for her neck. Clarke froze for a moment in pleasure, but instantly released and turned her head so Lexa can get better access. She sucked on her pulse point causing Clarke to produce sounds that trigger Lexa to be even more agressive, to take what's hers again. She brushed, and sucked, and bit along her neck, then her collarbone leaving marks all across for everyone to see. Clarke placed both hands on Lexa's cheeks and pulled her in for a kiss, and Lexa quickly obeyed. She sucked and nipped Clarke's bottom lip, placing a soft kiss to calm it. She pulled away for a second and looked in Clarke's eyes once again before she continued. She brushed their lips before she went for another kiss, tracing her tongue over larke's lip to seek and enterance. She instantly began working her tongue all around Clarke's, fighting for dominance and deepening the kiss to the limits. They didn't stop until they had no air in their lungs, when Lexa pulled away.
„You must be careful, Clarke. If not for you, then beja, do it for me. Beja, Klark", she spoke quietly hoping that Clarke would understand, slowly caressing her cheek. „I will be, Lexa. Anything you wish."- Clarke said with strong assurance in her voice looking directly at her. She will never let Lexa be hurt again. No matter by who.
They both put their armors on, and as Clarke tried to strap her weapons, she felt her wound on the hip and winced in pain. Most of her wounds were healed during the time when she was escaping to Polis, but there's still pain in some places. Lexa took her sheathet sword and put her hands around Clarke's waist strapping it there from behind, but her hands were full of desire and couldn't let go without feeling clarke in her hands. She pulled her in closer gently, but with confidence and brushed her nose on Clarke's neck giving her one more soft kiss.
„What now?"- asked Clarke as she turned around to face Lexa.
„Now we go meet with Echo, then with other clan leaders. And after that, we'll go and kill the traitors the way we promissed.". Lexa cupped Clarke's cheek, put a chaste kiss on Clarke's lips and held out her hand „Let's go".
Echo was waiting outside their house for a while now, and she was lost in thoughts whicb were cut off by a guard granting her enterance. She was taken to the war room in heda's huge mansion. Seconds after, Clarke and Lexa came in and she greeted them both „heda, kwin".
„Ekko, it's nice to see you in armor again"- Clarke said to her as Lexa looked at them curiously.
„Shall we start?"- she asked not taking her eyes of two women. Clarke sighed and noded in confirmation.
„Explain what had happened. How did you escape? What do you know about their army? Allies? Every intel you may have will give us an upper hand in the upcoming war."- Lexa stated, motioning them to speak.
Clarke was the one to start. „I was taken to the Ice Nation's land the night after the last Coalition meeting. I wanted to take a walk to clear my head and try to think of new trade routes to avoid conflict with Wastelanders. When I went out the gates I felt someone grabbing me and I passed out. Next thing I know, I was beaten in some hut and was freezing. I opened my eyes and saw Stohl standing above me laughing with 3 other clan leaders. They were from Horse clan, Fire clan, and Grass clan. I was tied to a timber when Stohl approached me, and couldn't defend myself.", shy sighed heavily, trying to supress her emotions. She will not be weak, so she continued „he held a dagger in his hand that was pointed towards me. Then he started circling around and asking questions.". Lexa froze. They tortured Clarke for informations, just like they did to Costia. But Clarke was still talking „I didn't say anything to them. They were frustrated, so they started cutting and stabing me harder. They threatened to send my head to you. After the first night, Ekko was put on guard. But they were all there and she was helpless. There were too many guards everywhere. On the fourth night, she set a part of the camp on fire and they all went leaving me tied and ungarded. That's when Ekko came and freed me, and brought me back here.".
After she told the story, Clarke let out a shigh of relief. Lexa, however was not so relieved. She was tense, and in thought. But Ekko cut in before either could say anything else. „Heda, they wish to create an alliance with Skaikru. They already have small amounts of their weapons, but they want more, to create a significant difference. But even if Skaikru accept the alliance, our king will take their guns and wipe them out. You know what is the opinion of Azgeda leaders on the matter of Sky people. They wanted Clarke to help them with the alliance, but she didn't break.". Lexa still stood in the place conteplating when she turned her head to look at Clarke.
„Klark", she said slowly and cautously, waiting for Clarke to look at her back.
„Sha, Heda?"- Clarke asked knowing what she will be asked to do.
„I will need you to go to Camp Jaha with first light. You will go as my general, my kwin, not as Sky Princess. They need to understand the severity of the situation. I will need you to persuade them to ally with us in this war. If they refuse, I will have no choice but to wipe them out. We can't let those weapons fall in the wrong hands. It will not be only about Skaikru then, but all the clans. I can't let all the people suffer to prolongue one people's lives for a while until they get under the Ice Nation to wipe us all out, even if they are your people, ain kwin"-Lexa told her the last part with compassion, but they both know that it needs to be done.
Clarke was evidently hurt, and Lexa could see that, but she didn't know that Clarke was angry because Trikru are her people, but Lexa still adressed that her in the last part as if Clarke was still of the Sky People. Trikru gave her home, they fed her, trained her, taught her Trikru medicine, Trigedasleng. They accepted her for who she was, and they accepted her as their kwin. They would die for her and kill for her as much as they would for their heda, and she for them. No one ever judged her in Polis, people were kind to her, thoughtful, helpful even after everything she did. She could never call Camp Jaha her home and those people her people again. She does still love them, especially the remaining 47 of original 100, but it's different now. It's something that has changed inside of her, and she would do anything to protect the Trikru, even if that means wiping entire nation out. She did wipe one by herself after all – The Mountain. She would, of course, give an oportunity to swear alleigance to the Trikru, Heda, and herself, and only the ones that refure will not be spared.
So, she finally spoke after few minutes of silence „I will do what must be done. Trikru are my people now.", she said calmly looking at Lexa.
„I will send 20 of my best warriors to accompany you to Camp Jaha, I can't risk anything happening to you. You should be there in four days, three if you travel in faster pace. And yes, Trikru are your people now. Thank you for that.", Lexa said and then ordered her guards outside to prepare everything for the trip tomorrow morning, thought with difficulty.
She just got Clarke back, and now she must send her in danger again. She hated herself for that, but what needs to be done, needs to be done. There is no point wasting time contemplating decisions that are already made.
„Ekko, you will probably be needed for the Coalition meeting today, we need information on their armies and weapons. With four other clans allied with Azgeda, it will be long and close fight.", Lexa said already thinking about strategies and possible complications. Clarke looked her curiously „Four other clans?". „Yes,", Lexa answered „Iron clan joined them. Probably recently.".
'That's why Mikael of the Iron clan was tied to a pole', she figured in her head.
„I need to get going to Camp Jaha today. We can't wait for another night if the Iron People joined them." Clarke stated already on her feet ready to leave.
„Klark, you are injured, you shouldn't travel for at least one more night", Lexa told her quietly, as she knew, too, that what Clarke is saying is true.
„Leksa, nou get yu daun. I wil be okay. If I need help, I will send one of the warriors to Polis. I will have Nyko to come with me. I'm already much better, I just needed rest."- Clarke had made her mind.
Lexa only nodded in approval, still battling with her emotions. Not only that Clarke needs to go to the people she was born with and are her family, but she will most likely need to choose. Lexa couldn't lose her again. Clarke as if she sensed Lexa's thoughts, turned around before she left, grabbed her by her waist and kissed her putting every single emotion in it. Promissing her. Loving her. Wanting her.
She broke the kiss and leaned in to whisper in Lexa's ear „Ai badan yu op en nou moun, ain hodnes."- I serve you and no other, my love. Lexa smiled for the first time since Clarke came back and reached to cup Clarke's cheek „En ai hod yu in, ain kwin.", then she closed her eyes and she leaned to Clarke whispering „Come back to me, beja?".
„I will." Was all Clarke said as she exited the room and headed towards the city gate, too pained to look behind. 'I would do anything to come back to you', she thought.
After half an hour warriors were on their horses and crowd gathered around to see their kwin off. Clarke took everything she needed from their room: Lexa's dagger, her sword that was Lexa's gift, and put on her white gold armor that she got from people of Polis when she became their kwin. She walked hand-in-hand with Lexa as crowd was chanting their titles. They kissed each other's hand and Clarke mounted Atens, her stallion, and with one quick glance to Lexa, they headed off.
"Italic" - spoken in Trigedasleng
When names are spelled as "Klark, Leksa, Ekko, etc."- also Trigedasleng
Trigedasleng transtlations:
Ain hodnes - my love
Natrona - traitor
Ai hod yu in - I love you
Kwin - queen
This is my first fanfiction, reviews would be more than welcome, in order for me to improve. Thanks for reading.
