You know what? F*ck it… Why the hell are there no more of those FemMC X Soma? I mean, they are sooooo cute and match and like really made for each other! And because right now the anime for God Eater Burst is airing, I kinda got its fever, you know, after seeing Soma being a jerk and stay cool just like he is in game (though he's so muuuch cooler in game). GOD! I can't get enough of this ship! So, I decided I'll make one on my own (though I should be doing something else right now, but I can't control myself) with mixture of drama and triangle love! Muahahaha!

Warning: May contain spoilers if you haven't finished the main story of God Eater Burst.

Pardon my rumbling…. And you all should've known, I don't own God Eater, its story, nor the characters. Enjoy.

Moving On

One month. It had been a month since the leader of the Far East Fenrir First Squad lost a few people she cared for, including the one she loved. First, it began with her just-a-few-seconds acquaintance, Eric der Vogelweid, which happened in front of her very eyes. To be truth, that accident made her shiver, if not tremor, every time she held her buster balde God Arc for a week or so. Eventually, she learned to move on, to face the reality that the next time it happen, it could be her head that Ogretail devour.

The second time it happened was when Lindow Amamiya, her self-appointed idol, went missing. To the brunette girl, Lindow was her big brother and mentor figure, like someone whose acceptance and recognition was the thing to fight for. After the Far East Branch gave up searching for him, again, she could only learn to move on, though harder this time. Moving on and accepting the younger Amamiya's disappearance seemed like impossible, so she tried to forget about him, killing her emotions and feelings for him. Then, came the intelligent species, Shio the aragami girl. Through her, she could experience the satisfying role of a big sister, something she never felt before and it brought her happiness. Her sadness of losing Lindow was overwhelmed with her love for Shio. To hell with her luck, it seemed the God of Death loved her more than anything. Once more, her loved one was taken away from her through Johannes von Schicksal's Aegis Project.

That's it. No more. No more loving anyone anymore. Let's just focus on completing the missions and keeping the squad alive.

Or so she tought. Ren's presence alone was enough for her to open her heart once again. His cute face, sonorous voice, and his charm, perhaps? It pulled her close to him. Made her think Maybe this time, this time, I can be happy with him. It didn't matter who he was, what he was. Ren brought enough happiness in her, moreover, he introduced her to the feeling called…

…love.

The new-type leader? Fell in love? With a God Arc personification? Get out of here.

Oddly, it was true. Sometimes Alisa would overheard the brunette talking with someone happily, giddily, but only to see her friend -superior talking and blushing all by herself. The Russian girl was starting to think maybe their last mission hit her head good, but most of all, happy to see her friend finally regain some emotions she lost after Lindow and Shio's accidents. As if the Goddess of Fortune finally smiled upon her, the Far East branch finally continued the search for Lindow Amamiya who had turned half-way into being aragami. There was a chance to save him, and the female leader of the First Unit would take up that chance. With her beloved Ren to guide her through, she felt invicible.

Of course, that blasted God of Death wouldn't let her be happy that easily.

Lindow's aragami transformation was too far and the chance of saving him was smaller than the chance of an Ogretail to defeat a Dyaus Pita, even with her helping through resonance. Albeit all the odds against them, Ren came to help and give away a miracle. Using his own core, Ren stopped and reverse the transformation so that the aragami in Lindow stayed in Lindow's right arm, breaking himself in the process.

Upon Lindow's and the Far East Fenrir's agreement, the female leader was permitted to keep Lindow's broken God Arc, to keep Ren. Though sometimes it wasn't enough. Sometimes she needed to feel him, to touch Ren, that was why she would come over to Lindow, regardless of time and place, and embrace Lindow's transformed right arm, of course with Sakuya permission too.

Now, was one of the times when she felt the need to hear his pulse again.

Cafetaria, Noon

"And, and, I blast its head with one shot and it went, like," Kota opened his hands high up in the air, like a kid, and yelled "…BOOM! I always know I'm awesome!"

Alisa sneered. "Hah! Someone awesome would never trip and roll down the rubbles after shooting like that."

"Hey! Don't tell them that! It was supposed to be perfect…"

After smiling a little to Kota and Alisa's friendly bickering, the female buster-blader stood up her chair and sat down on Lindow's right side. The group knew what this meant, it was the time for her daily, if not hourly, odd behavior of hugging Lindow's right arm. The atmosphere went heavy along with her mood, but Kota and Alisa could only bicker one another again to lighten up the mood while Lindow and Sakuya tried to console her, and Soma… just being Soma, though his eyes were kinda filled with worry every time this happened.

"Lindow, Sakuya, may I…" asked the First Unit leader with pleading eyes with a glint of guilt.

"Go ahead. I know you miss him." Lindow offered her his aragami arm. "It's okay, right, Sakuya?"

"Yes, it's okay," answered Sakuya, suppressing her look of worry and confuse to not disturb her fragile leader.

The brunette leader smiled with gratitude, just like every time they allow her to do so. "Thank you."

Without wasting any second, she carefully touched a part of Lindow's arm, being as gentle as she could. Slowly, slowly, she embraced his arm, placing the pulsing vein near her left ear. Her face would show the mixture of happiness, contentment, and endless sadness. Sometimes without the former leader willing to, Lindow's black arm would caress her cheek and she accepted it like it was natural. A big smile and feeling of relieve came over her and she let go of Lindow's arm.

Usually after doing that, she would say something to Lindow like, Why did he have to sacrifice his life? Why did he leave me alone? Was he suffering, is he suffering? I envy you, Lindow or something along those lines, but this time was different. The First Unit leader held up her head, face her predecessor, and with glassy eyes said "You're lucky to have him, Lindow. Take good care of him."

"You bet, rookie," Lindow said with his usual sloppy big brother look. A bit surprised with her different line, but relieved nonetheless. "And I bet he's happy to have someone like you to care for him."

Care? That wasn't the word she would use. She didn't just 'care' for him. She loved him, for God's sake. But, oh well… She didn't have the courage to confess to Ren, let alone telling the world that she loved him, so yeah… the word 'care' would suffice for this feeling, for now. Besides, she even considered not to have a feeling this strong for anyone else because in the end she would lose that person to the God of Death, as always.

'Yeah… It's enough just being like this,' she tought. 'No more loving… No more hurting…'

Will it be like that? Will it be just what the First Unit leader hope it would be? Will it be, when there were another pair of sharp sea blue eyes which eyeing her with worry and maybe, just maybe, with a hint of love?

Pardon for typo and feels… I just love the sight of heartbroken FemMC over Ren…. Onto the next chapter!