"No... No no no no no! Nonono!" It was all Raine could say. A terrifying mantra. A skipping record. "I- I thought I was going to die... I really did..." Was she crying, or was rain just falling onto her face? Blood dripped from a cut in her side. And leg. And arm. A gasping breath. "No... No no no!" She slammed her auto-mail onto the concrete angrily with a screech. "What good am I as an alchemist if I can't save a little girl? Not one. Not two." Trembling. Shaking. Shoulders sagging and breathing ragged. So broken. "I CAN'T SAVE ANYONE!" The truck she'd been in was forgotten- no, this was much more than that. "EVERYONE AROUND ME DIES!" Her auto-mail hit the ground again with a loud clang. But Raine didn't care. It could have shattered and she wouldn't give a crap.

*But that's what you get,* a small part of her mind taunted. *You promised not to make friends... Avoid family. Now look. You broke your promise.* "I'm sorry..." She sobbed. "I'm so sorry." Who exactly was Raine apologizing to? Did she know? Was it Nina, the poor girl who couldn't be helped? Or Meghan, the little sibling doomed from the start- cursed when she began searching? Or was it herself, The one who bought herself a one way ticket on the road to hell? Maybe it was all three. "No. No. No." Back to the broken sentences. A shattered soul. Raine Evans. A hollow shell. No one could come near her- but yet, people still got in. Still got hurt. "NO!" A pained scream. Agony. Torture. Torturing herself.

"I thought we were both going to die." Was she really scared of death? Or scared of failing? Scared of being reunited with people- because she lost them. And to her, it was her own fault. "I-I... I can't... They can't... No one can come near me. Every time they do..." No. Don't finish that. "They end up dead. We would all end up dead." A simple line. A shuddering sob. "We would all be dead. All die." A heart wrenching realization slammed into Raine like a tin of bricks. "And it would be my fault. I'd be standing on a hill of dead bodies. A ground paved with corpses. Oh, god. I'm so sorry..." Too sorry for words. "I couldn't even save Nina. That's how weak I am. I couldn't save a little girl." Torment raged in her mind. "Because I'm just a human. A small insignificant being."