(AN: I had to re-edit this chapter sorry if there is any confusion don't forget to tell me what you think! xoxo Amy :D )

Dublin, Ireland. I never thought I'd ever be back here, the last time I step foot in this airport I was on a mission, a mission to get my happy ever after which I almost had, for

four months of my life I was happy, he and I... we were so happy...like I had always dreamt. I'm here now though, alone...while he's locked up behind bars, I don't want to

be here, I'd be lying if I said I did, but I had no choice, she needs me. Cheryl Brady... me best friend we were so close when she lived in the village, but now she's getting

married, that's why I'm here it really did take her long enough to set the date... I don't blame her, many people think I do... for what happened...I mean maybe at first I did

but deep down I knew that he was only trying to protect her, and really no matter what me or Cheryl said to him, he was never going to change his mind. It has been two

years since I last saw him, I promised him a happy ever after...(sigh) but a lot has changed since then, well for one me mum and I worked out our differences right before

she 'past away' , then I met me dad in the most awkward way anyone could ever imagine but that story is for another place and time, I found out shortly after that I wasn't

an only child, turns out I have not one but three sisters... I met them a couple of weeks after me mum died. I stopped dealing drug shortly after that, got the kids & Amy

back in me life, even got the deli back I'm more of a silent partner with the business now, when Doug dead he left his share to his brother, so he runs it mainly now,

although I do try to help out whenever he really needs it, he's not me biggest fan really with everything that happen between me and his brother but we manage to work

together. After everything that happen these past two years nothing is the same anymore so every once and while when I start feeling like me life is getting back to

normal, there is always something that pulls me away from it, there is always something missing...and that's him.

"Oh my God, Babe, you're finally here!" Ste could hear a familiar voice stated, Cheryl Brady, oh how he had missed that voice, he turn around to see her coming towards him

followed closely by Nathan. Cheryl pulled Ste into a hug, "Babe, you have no idea how much I've missed you." Ste couldn't help but laugh, "Cheryl, you were in town two

weeks ago..."

"I know I just missed you!" She squealed out causing it to echo throughout the airport.

"I've missed you too, Chez." Ste stated with a smile as he pulled away from the hug.

"Ste." Nate greeted.

"Hey Nate, how are you?"

"I'm very well, thank you, how about you?"

"Really glad to be off the plane. What are you guys doing here anyways I thought I was going to meet you at the hotel?"Ste questioned.

"Well, yeah, but then I started to think that you would probably be tired after everything, then I thought why should you go pay for a hotel when we have room at ours, so

we hopped in the car, drove all the way here to surprise ya!" She explained proudly.

"I can't say I didn't like this surprise." Ste responded. Cheryl quickly grabbed Ste's bag and handed it to Nate to carry, "Chez, I am capable of carrying my own bag." Ste

stated as he tried to retrieve his bag. "You are not allowed to fight me on this, you are our guest and Nate will be carrying your bag." Cheryl stated as she linked arms with

him. The three made their way out of the airport. The drive to Chez & Nate's house wasn't that long with Cheryl's aimless chatter, Ste could only smile he had forgotten how

talkative Cheryl was, "Oh and Deccy just got his license so he's driving with Padraig so they should be here by tomorrow, Eileen wasn't too happy with that, though, but

that's the joy of having kids growing up I guess, oh and then on Wednesday my Auntie from my mum's side is flying in..."

"Chez...Chez!"

"Yeah, love?"

"Not to be mean but why are you telling me all of this?"

"Was I going on?"

"Just a little bit, Babe." Nate stated from the drivers seat.

"I'm sorry, I'm just really excited!"

"It shows, but I'm glad the kids are coming, though. Haven't seen Declan since the last time he was in the village and I'll finally get to meet Padraig."

"The kids are dead excited too, Declan keeps on asking about you." Nate added as they continued down the road. The rest of the trip was quiet, Ste tried his best to keep his

mind off of him, he never thought in a million years he would be here getting ready to celebrate Chez's wedding without the love of his life. Twenty minutes had past when

Nate pulled the car into the long drive way. At this point all Ste wanted to do was sleep. Nate placed the car in park, the three made their way out of the car, " Why does this

place seem bigger to me?" Ste jokingly questioned.

"It's been awhile since ye last been here." Cheryl stated as she grabbed his bag. "Well, what are ya waiting for come on." The three made their way into the house, Ste had

missed it here, it was so quiet, he kind of missed that, with the kids and Amy back in the village, and with his whole family living nearly 30 feet away quiet was one thing Ste

was not used to. Ste was lead into the family room as Cheryl quickly ran up stairs to make sure the guest room was tidy. Ste looked around the room, it was filled with

pictures he had seen a thousand times and some new ones. He walked to the fireplace where he saw a group picture of Cheryl, Lynsey, and Joel with Brendan frowning in the

background a smile grew across Ste's face, that man was never once smiled for pictures. Ste placed the picture back next it was a picture of Ste and Cheryl from her

engagement party at the Dog. So much had changed since then, Ste looked through the familar faces in the background when he came across the devil himself, Seamus

Brady, the man who caused all the pain, the monster that hurt the love of his life, Ste hoped that monster was rotting in hell where he belonged.

"Alright, Babe, everything's good upstairs..." Cheryl stated as she re-entered the room causing Ste to be broken out of his thoughts.

Ste placed the picture back, "You should know I hate him for what he did to our Bren," She stated.

"I know, Chez." Ste stated.

"He was my Dad, though, and even after everything... I still love him. What kind of person does that make me? What would Brendan say..."

Cheryl questioned as she picked up the picture that Ste was holding.

"That makes you a good person, Chez. 'Cause you... you somehow held on to the good memories of your father... your brother, he wouldn't think any less of you for that. He

loves you." Ste stated as he took the picture from her and placed it back on to the fireplace. Before anything else could be said the two were interrupted.

"Surprise!" a young boy with a thick irish accent yelled out. Ste and Cheryl turned their attention towards the entrance of the family room to see Declan and Padraig. Cheryl

nearly knocked over Ste as she jumped to greet her nephews, " Oh my god, Deccy, Paddy, what are you guys doing here?!" she asked as she pulled them in for a hug.

"I thought it be fun to come a day early, that way we get to spend more time with ye before the wedding." Declan explained as he set his and his brother's bags on the

ground. " You alright, Ste?" Declan asked with a smile. A smile just like his father's. Ste thought to himself, "Ta, how about you guys? How was your trip?" he asked.

"It was pretty good but Pad kept asking if we were there yet." Declan explained.

"Before I forget Paddy, I want to officially introduce you to one of my best mates from Hollyoaks villiage, Ste. Ste this is Padraig."

"Hi." the preteen stated shyly.

"Its very nice to meet you Padraig, your auntie as told me lot about you." Ste stated as he shook Paddy's hand.

"Right, the three of yas must be hungry who wants lunch?" Cheryl asked.

Declan and Padraig cheered as they ran into the kitchen Cheryl stopped noticing that Ste wasn't following, "You coming, Babe?"

"Uh...no... I think I'm going to lie down for a bit. I'm kind of tired from the trip."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah," Ste stated as he made his way towards the stairs.

"Oh, alright, love." Cheryl stated warmly. Ste made his way up the stairs and made his way into his room. He slowly close the door behind him and leaned up against it.

Why am I here? Why did I think for a minute that I could handle this? Being around his kids, his sister, his entire family, and what am I supposed to do walk around with a

fake smile painted across my face? He should be here, he should be with his family, this was a mistake... I know he would want me to be here, how am I... why... for two

freaking years I was fine I got me life back on track without giving him a second thought and now all of a sudden... I hate him sometimes...I hate that I need him... I hate

the fact that it always comes done to him.

Ste wiped the tears that were fall his face and hopped into the bed, "what did I get myself into?"

After Cheryl left Ste in the family room, she made her way into the kitchen where the boys were raiding the refrigerator, "Alright you two away from the refrigerator." she

demanded with a smile. The boys backed away leaving a mess behind them. "I swear you two are worse than your father in a kitchen." she joked as she gathered the food

she needed.

"Where's Ste?" Declan asked.

"Uh, he went for a lie down." Cheryl answered quickly.

"Is he okay?"

"He's fine sweetie, he's just tired from his trip that's all, Paddy can you set the table for me?" She stated. The two watched the young boy as he grabbed the plates and the

silverware and as made his way into the dining room.

"He seemed off." Declan stated.

"Who Ste? Why would you think that?"

"This is about Dad, isn't it?" Declan asked. Cheryl stopped dead in her tracks. "I know he and Dad were together, as much as Mum wanted to hide it from us, I also know that

He and Dad...well... I know that things ended in a bad way, in a way that neither of them wanted... He was acting weird Aunt Chez, and its cause of Dad isn't it, being around

us.. it reminds him of..."

"Deccy, it's no secret that your Dad and Ste's relationship wasn't perfect, but...(sigh)...look I'm sure Ste is fine." She finally stated as she continued to cook. "Look go get

your Uncle Nate, lunch will be ready in 20 minutes. He should be out back."

Declan didn't move, "Deccy... please." she plead. Declan made his way out to the backyard.

Cheryl placed the knife she was holding down, "Please...Lord let Ste be okay. Please."

End Of Part One