I am going to keep writing "Gambler's Forgiveness" but this idea popped into my head and I wanted to see where it went. Set somewhere between "Gambler's Fallacy" and "Forgiving Rollins". Due to recent events, Olivia fails to have Amanda's back during an undercover operation and Amanda is assaulted as a result. The events force both women to face past demons and battle with the concept of trust and forgiveness. It will probably be around 3 or 4 chapters long. Let me know if you want me to continue :)
Olivia fights the urge to roll her eyes as she allows her "friend" to lean on her for support as "Amy Rollins" gets progressively more drunk. Knowing Amanda she probably is drunk, Liv thinks to herself.
They are undercover at a local bar in which three rapes have occurred over the course of the week. They have been chatting amiably with a charming gentleman for a few minutes now, the sandy-haired, green eyed man taking quite an interest in Amanda. Olivia forces a smile as she hears a drunken giggle escape Amanda's lips. Amanda is good at this. Too good if you ask Olivia. Like she has done this several times before.
Things between the two female cops have been tense more often than not. Olivia still unable to forgive Amanda for her deceit, and Amanda feeling too intimidated by her Sergeant to make up for it. On top of that, Amanda has shown up late to work twice this week and Olivia has not hesitated to ream her out. Amanda is lucky to still have a spot on her team and her tardiness is not conveying appreciation. Deep down Olivia knows that she wouldn't really transfer Rollins from her team. Despite her insubordination, she knows that she is an asset to her team and one of the best detectives she has ever worked with. More importantly she knows that the boys would be devastated, for Amanda has become like a sister to them over the years. She begrudgingly admits that she cares for her detective and would probably miss Rollins as well, not that she has been showing it recently.
Unbeknownst to Olivia, Amanda has also been increasingly irritable. A date was soon approaching. An anniversary of sorts. One that every year she wishes she would forget. Nightmare's have been a frequent occurrence, becoming more vivid with each passing night. After waking up in a cold sweat she tries to stay awake the rest of the night, only accidentally falling asleep a couple of hours before she has to leave for work. Then she is late, gets reamed by Olivia, is thoroughly exhausted and physically sick, rinse and repeat. She knows that this is not a healthy cycle but she is not one to admit when she needs help. Even so with Olivia's icy demeanor and everything being so busy at work, she wouldn't know who to turn to.
Amanda is startled out of her thoughts as this man, who could be their suspect, circles his callous hand around her slim wrist. She stifles a gasp and wills herself not to think back. Not to remember that this is the exact part of her body that he held down. Olivia shoots her a confused look from behind the man's head and she quickly slips back into her role. A slut. That's what she is any ways right?
Olivia feels the pressure on her bladder indicating that she needs to use the bathroom. She debates with herself for a moment. If this were Fin, Nick, or even Carisi she might try and hold it until the operation came to an end but this was Amanda. She has shown quite well that she can handle undercover operations without Olivia's help, or even permission for that matter. She relays to Amanda and the tall gentleman that she has to use the bathroom, but assures rather vehemently that she will be back in under two minutes, eyeing the man a little longer than necessary. She figures that she will go in and out, and the boys on her team would have eyes and ears on Amanda the entire time in the van.
Amanda swallows audibly as Olivia walks away. Unable to admit to herself that she is scared as the grip around her right wrist becomes increasingly tighter. She feels hot breath hit the side of her face as the man leans down and whispers something to her, "What do you say we ditch your friend and get out of here?"
Amanda's breath catches in her throat as she ponders quickly a course of action. She knows they have to try and get him to try something to see if he was the perp and catch him in the act, but she wants Olivia close by when that happens. As anxious as she is around the older woman, she knows that Olivia would intervene if she was being assaulted. "Why don't I wait for my friend to come back before we do that huh? It's her first time in New York and I want to make sure she gets home safe." Instead of heeding her advice however, the man seems to grow more impatient. He snakes is hand beneath her short dress and rests it on the soft skin of her inner thigh.
"C'mon Amy, I'm not a guy who takes no for an answer." She freezes at that, unsure of what she got herself into. Suddenly she is dizzy. Her heart is pounding and her head is heavy. She realizes that he must have slipped something into her drink when she turned to watch Liv go to the bathroom. She feels him snake his arms around her waist and guide her out of the dingy bar. Any hope of the guys watching disintegrates as she feels her necklace cam tugged from her neck and her ear piece and wire snatched from her body. Still incapacitated, she silently prays that Liv trusts her enough to come find her.
