"I really don't think this is a good idea."

Twenty-two times. I've counted. This is the 22nd time Konohamaru has told me this since we left the diner. It was already dark out, the Konoha sky completely covered in stars. One of the most beautiful sights I'd ever seen. If only I could enjoy it. But this man kept yammering on and on in my ear. "I don't think you should go tonight, Mayako. You're in way too deep." He warned. Crap. Well, he certainly knew how to bring up touchy subjects. I stopped walking, spinning around to face him, hands on my hips. "Oh really. Couldn't guess that's how you really felt. Oh wait, yes I could. You won't shut up." Ho-ho, so clever. But Konohamaru was even more clever than me. "Hey, it's your eternal soul here. Your karma." He held up his hands in surrender.

I bit my cheek in irritation. "Thanks for that reality bomb." I grumbled, continuing to walk. He easily followed, hands behind his head. A trait that reminded me of...him. "Someone needs to tell you. This isn't gonna end well. He's just using you." He stated. Ouch, right in the heart. Though for a completely different reason. "If I'm doing the math right, I'm sure our desires cancel the other out." I could feel him roll his eyes behind me. "Whichever way you look at it, it's wrong."

He was such a spoil-sport, seriously. "It's cheating." He added, as if his first sentence didn't get the point across. "Plus, he has a wife. Aren't you just the mistress?" Cute way of saying hoe. Or home-wrecker. "Ugh. You talk too much." I understand. He has a lover. A future, a past. I get it. But it's too late for me now. I couldn't stop myself even if I wanted to. As he so graciously pointed out earlier, I'm in too deep. "Besides, isn't your age difference too much?" He somehow wound up beside me. My gaze fell over to him. "No." I said abruptly, causing him to deadpan. "He's, like, in his 40's." What an over-dramatic man. "He's 32." I corrected. "Same. Shit." He pushed. I snorted in retort. "Sure, you're only off by eight years." In my head, this rebuttal seemed to go a lot smoother. But, even to me it seemed a little off.

Nineteen.

That's my age. We're a good thirteen years apart. That's an entire teenager. But, if you count my 20th birthday next week, then we've only got a good tween going on. I crossed my arms over my chest. "Besides, aren't you only four years apart? Don't you feel ashamed pestering a young girl in the middle of the night?" I questioned. He huffed. "I'm your sensei. It's my job to pester you about your crappy life descions." I spun around to face him and gently poked his nose. "Former sensei. I'm not a child anymore. I'm legal. I'm a B-ranked Courier ninja now. I have responsibilities and shit. You don't have to be so worked up." I removed my finger, watching his face process all the information I had given him. It seems to have gone in one ear and out the other, because that worried look came back into his eyes.

Before he could start, I placed my finger over his lips to silence him and started walking again. Soon we'd have to part ways. "I get it. You're in shock. I mean, you used to look up to the guy." I said slowly. Not wanting to hit any sensitive buttons. He scoffed. "Still do. Just didn't think he would...do this. He never seemed like the cheating type back then. And with one of my students, no less. I should've never introduced you two." He bit his cheek, the regret etched on his features. I placed a reassuring hand on his shoulder. "We would've met regardless. Besides, I already know he doesn't love me." We stopped in front of a forest path. He grabbed me by both my shoulders, shaking me slightly. "Then why?! Why keep going back?!" I could feel the confusion surge through his entire body. This has been going on for a year now. He must've wanted some sort of explanation. But if I told him, would he turn his back on me? I relented just a little. "Because..." Before I could spill anything, the alarm in my wrist-watch went off. "Oh! I'm gonna be late!"

Sweet rescue. Haphazardly, I removed his hands from my being and took off into the forest. "Talk to you later, sensei!" Crap. I started calling him sensei again. "I mean Konohamaru!" Damn him. He knew how long it took me to stop saying that, too. Stupid old man. I watched as my surroundings got darker, more cluttered with trees. The stars became less visible. Truly a descent into darkness. "Ah ha ha. Funny." I couldn't help the sarcastic comment that fell from my mouth. It's just like the universe to ironically make the way to my ultimate sin look like the underworld. So funny, truly. I made my way out of the village and continued running.

~a~

"Made it." Being a ninja, I'm ashamed at how low my stamina is right now. Though, from the shaking in my legs and the twists in my stomach, I'll chock it up to anxiety. I lifted my head to stare up at the familiar wooden cottage. Well away from Konoha, hidden under the leaves like the dirty little secret it is. The lights inside were already lit, so there was no mystery as to whether he had arrived yet or not. I stood up straight, regulating my breathing before doing the best I could to fix myself up. Not that it really mattered; we'd be sweaty enough after this anyway. I grabbed the doorknob and opened it, stepping inside and locking the door behind me. Before making another move, my heart skipped about twenty beats as I saw him standing in front of the couch. His eyes were as blue as I remembered. Perhaps a bit more tired, but the same still.

His hair was as blonde and shaggy as I remember. Stories floated around that, before, his hair used to be spiked and tall. I would've loved to see it. His whisker marks stood proud on his face, along with the Hokage robe he was currently donning. Which was the ONLY thing he was donning, actually. Such a tease. He gestured towards the door with his chin, and I understood. Nothing would be said, and no one would move until I made the appropriate hand seals. So, I clasped my fingers together and started performing it. "Kiko-nankan no Jutsu!" Fancy way of saying 'Sound Barrier'. The chakra left my body and did just that, engulfing the entire house. As soon as I opened my eyes, he was right in front of me. "Naru-" But he smashed his lips onto mine before I could finish. Along with this, he pressed his heated lower regions against mine and moved with such skill it caused me to squirm. Damn, he was seriously impatient today. Though this was how these meetings usually went. The only thing on his mind was his wife, even now. It bothered me.

I laced my fingers within his locks and yanked his head back, forcibly removing his lips. I proceeded to nip at his neck, relishing in the gruttal sound that erupted within his chest. I giggled and ran my tongue up his neck and on his lip. "Just think of me." I smashed my lips onto his, as he had done earlier. I was caught off-guard when he suddenly placed his hands beneath my thighs and hoisted me up. Taking the hint, I wrapped my legs around his waist and off to the bed we went. With little compassion, he flopped me down onto the mattress and crawled on top of me before I could regain my breath. Damn him. He was devishly handsome, and out of breath. "Bold tonight, kid?" I hated when he called me that. And he knew it, too. "I'm not a kid, you dirty old-ah!" I gasped out in pleasure as he suddenly captured one of my nipples in his mouth. When did my shirt come off? He growled, sending vibrations through me. He continued this slow torture on both sides, until I was tearing up and clawing at his forearms.

He nipped at my ear and growled into it. "As sensitive as one." What did that even mean, I mean really. "Whoa!" When did his fingers slide in? I was a naturally sensitive person, so I was already writhing and crying out on the sheets. "So beautiful." He was an asshole. There was no emotion in his eyes, but he said those words to me. Though I guess this is my fault. I came. Just from that one sentence alone, it did the trick. Fed up, I flipped us over and swiftly engulfed him. He allowed me to do this for a few minutes, murmuring my name multiple times, his fingers roughly locked into my hair. A pain I'd feel in the morning. I had to love this part the most. Because he was completely under my control. At least, that's what I like to tell myself. But in reality, it's just me who feels anything in this room.

When he couldn't take it anymore, he yanked me away, causing me to gasp. "Enough." He growled hoarsely. I got the message. I climbed on top, straddling his hips and felt him slip inside. He didn't give me time to adjust and just started hammering into me. My body shook and convulsed in pleasure. "Mayako." He moaned in my ear. It sounded desperate, and I knew why. It's times like these I know I'm not a good person. But I can't help myself. He lifted my head to stare at myself in the mirror which was on the wall. My long, light brown hair clung to my face. My blue eyes were clouded with lust, while his were veiled in regret. Our skin was practically pink now from the force we were using. Trying to persuade the other. That's all this really was. A deal. A bargain. The rest of the night was just a blur, but I felt a crushing guilt that I haven't felt in a long time.

~a~

"So tired."

I yawned, stretching my arms well above my head as I walked down the Konoha streets. I had about three packages I had to deliver today, and if I wanted to be done by sundown, I had to hurry up. I had to inform the Hokage of my leave before setting out, so I made my way towards the tower. Just as I reached the entrance, I heard something whoosh towards me. Too sore from last night and too tired to react, I wound up getting hit in the face with some sort of plush kunai. I glared at the thrower, though it softened just a bit when I recognized the face. Ah, the universe was seriously toying with me. Of course it would be him. Why not.

Bolt, Naruto's son, laughed in my direction. Oh, yes. On top of being married, he also has children. Two, to be specific. Worst part? They all know who I am, yet they've got no clue I'm screwing their daddy in the middle of the night. I'm waiting for that karma to hit. "Nice catch-NOT!" It's scary how much like his father he is. Even down to the whiskers on his cheeks. Which, technically, I still don't understand the genetics behind, but whatever. I puffed out my cheeks, sticking my tongue out at him in rebellion. "Ah, hush up squirt. When you reach my knees, then let's talk." I taunted, taking relish in the annoyed expression he presented me. Gotta admit, though, he's a cute kid. "Yea yea." He flipped me off; I did the same. Something we did while his parents weren't around.

"Bolt!" Oops, got caught. And by the LAST person I wanted to see this morning. I turned my gaze onto Hinata Uzumaki (formerly known as Hinata Hyuga) with a fake smile. Seeing her made my stomach do all kinds of flips. Nervous like a kid being caught with her hand in the cookie jar, I waved. "Morning." If she had even the slightest hint of us being together, she didn't show it. "Good morning, Mayako." Ugh, even her voice was pretty. Her light purple eyes turned sternly onto her son. "You are in big trouble." I would've laughed in his face if it wasn't going to be considered bullying. Small chuckles could be heard behind the mother, and my eyes fell onto their daughter, Himawari. A beauty like her mom, but she had the whisker marks too. I really don't get that. "Don't laugh at your brother." Hinata chided.

If it were me, I would've told the kid to laugh harder. But I guess that's why I'm the mistress and she's the wife. Hinata looked me up and down. "Are you here to see Naruto?" She questioned. I nodded slightly. "Yea, just to let him know I'll be out of town today. And then tomorrow I have classes." I informed her. To raise more money, I work as Naruto's assistant from time to time around the office. ...Sensei was right. I really am in too deep. Hinata waved me off. "It's okay, I'll let him know. You have a busy day, right?" She was just such an angel, it hurt. Made me feel like more of a little shit than I already am. I gave her a smile. "Thanks, Uzumaki-san." That tasted like liquid fire. I started walking away, but she placed a hand on my shoulder. I almost thought she was going to deck me, but her eyes were compassionate.

"You should come by for dinner sometime. You're like a part of our family, you know." Forget what I said. This woman is the devil, digging her blade into my heart. It was getting really hard not to break down. "Ah-ha. Thanks. Maybe one day." I'm not sure I'd be able to handle that. "But it's your birthday next week, right? Come by the house, we'll make a party!" Ah. I didn't have a good excuse to decline. "Okay." I said easily. I gave a wave towards them. "Alright, see you in a couple of days." I walked off, leaving them to enter the tower. Just as I exited the village, I saw Konohamaru-sensei with his arms crossed in the village entry. He was supposed to be on duty, but he was passed out. I giggled to myself. "You're on duty, old man!" I shouted, waking him up from his slumber. Lazy eyes stared at me. "Shut it. Don't die. Break up." I stuck my tongue out in agreement and raced off.

Break up? Oh sensei, if only it were that simple.