A/N: Hishikawa, here. This wasn't really edited, I apologize in advance for any bothersome errors. I typed this on my mobile. This is dedicated to the Amnesia Amino community for the week two challenge. ( ・д・ )エェ- ʅ(´・ᴗ・` )ʃ


罪人

The Sinner

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Toma/Heroine


"Toma?"

My ear is drawn to her soft voice from behind me. I feel her warm hand rest on the sleeve of my sweater and slowly slide down to touch the backside of my hand.

"Toma."

She says my name again firmly.

Sighing, I shifted my body and faced her properly on my bed.

My hand hesitates to turn itself over to hold her's.

Even now, I'm unsure if she will forgive me for the terrible things I've done to her.

Right when I think about that, her hand turns mine over and squeezes it gently.

"What are you doing?" I ask her humorously. "You don't need a bedtime story to fall asleep, do you?"

In the darkness of my apartment, I watched her emerald eyes widen excitedly. I couldn't help but grin at her childishness.

I ran a hand through her wavy hair and lightly pulled on one of the hazel strands.

I joked again.

"You're not actually serious. Are you still a kid?"

"I'm not a child." She denied it immediately. Her puffy cheeks burned a light pink as she started to sulk.

No, the girl I once knew has grown into a woman right before my eyes. I was an idiot not to realize it sooner. I feel her curled hands thump on my chest lightly. It was then that I realized I was holding her in my arms.

"Forget it. Let me go." She huffed frustratedly as she tried to pry me away from her small frame. "It's getting too warm."

Smirking, I pull her closer to me and whisper into her ear.

"I gave you a chance before."

"Huh?"

The heat in her cheeks burned brighter as I drew even closer.

"I've told you before didn't I-" I pressed my nose into her rose scented hair and closed my eyes.

"I'm not going to let you go."

I felt a frustrated puff of air blow against my heated skin. Just when I thought my sulking girlfriend was going to ignore me, I felt her hand sneak over to my hand again. Her fingers gently entertwined between mine.

"I give up." She sighed in defeat and turned her body back towards me.

Closing her emerald eyes, she moved her head into the crook of my neck and breathed in deeply.

The memory of her fallen diary resurfaced. When I shamefully pinned her to the floor; when I was strongly driven by my jealousy of the thought of her loving another man. When I was convinced that she was never meant to be mine and would leave my life entirely.

Jealousy, frustration and sorrow. Lying and keeping her away from the outside world; as long as she would stay, I didn't care about what I said or what I did.

"You knowー"

More soft words left her lips.

I heard my heart thumping out of my chest from inside my ears, and the quickening breath escaping from my lips.

"I love you. I've always loved you."

I brought a hand up to one of her flushed cheeks affectionately, and gently moved it up to smooth away her bangs. Delicately, I planted a soft kiss on her forehead.

I know.

Her love fills me with happiness, and at times it feels surreal. I know full well that I don't deserve it after what I've done.

If there is truly a god who punishes sinners, I only ask that they grant me a little more time before I'm taken away from her.

I shut my eyes before whispering back to her sleeping form.

"I love you too."

And I will for as long as you're here with me.