Hello. This is my first attempt at writing legitimately, as I am trying to get over my fear of writing. Reviews and feedback are appreciated. Thank you.
Changes
Sometimes I question my previous self. I've changed so much, that I question my old actions and decisions. I'm more careful nowadays. I watch what I'm doing, and I try not to get myself into situations that I possibly can't get out of, all thanks to her. She helped me. My friend Jasmine...
But I still ask questions.
Why did I jump into situations without thinking? Was it because there was no time to think things through? To make a plan ahead of time? Or was it because I was reckless? Why did I love danger? Was it for the thrills? Did it really make feel that way? Only I myself know.
But I don't know.
I'm constantly asking myself, "Why did I do these things?", and I never have the answers. All I know is that doing these has gotten me into a lot of terrifying situations. I shiver thinking about it. I used to tell myself not to go back into the past. Lately that has been hard for me. From the nightmares to the flashbacks, I can't seem to get things out of my head. My friends try to help me, but...
Change is hard to deal with. For me at least.
It's so unpredictable sometimes. You don't know if you're going to change for the better or the worse. I seem to have changed for both ways. Since I've opened myself up to my emotions, since I told her about my past, it's like everything kept flooding back to me. But I will keep trying.
Trying to put the past behind me.
