Overdose

Okay guys, this is the first chapter of my first multi-chapter fic. I've already started working on the second chapter so please let me know if i should continue this.

Disclaimer: I don't own anyone in this story. I only own the plot.

This is the fourth time I've found her drugged up. This has got to stop or someone's going to end up hurt. The first time I found her like this I had just come back from my tour a few days earlier than expected. I definitely wasn't expecting what I saw when I surprised her at her house, then again she wasn't expecting me either.

*Flashback*

I knocked on the door but there was no answer. It was eerily dark inside her house. All the lights were turned off. What the hell was going on? I took the spare key out of my purse and put it into the door. I turned the key clockwise and hear the satisfying click of the door unlocking. I opened the door and looked into the house, it was ghostly silent. I glanced back out to the driveway and noticed the impending darkness suffocating the neighborhood. This was ominous.

I turned back toward the house and took one step in. Looking around I closed the door behind me and called out "Sel? Are you here?" I heard a clang come from upstairs and I took the stairs up by two. I walked through the long hallway towards her room and opened the door. I saw a shadow of a figure laying on the floor with a bottle beside her. I saw an orange dot of fire light up as someone inhaled from the cigarette. The smoke soon filled the air and I knew it was Selena.

Again, what the hell is going on? "Dem?" I heard her whisper. She put out the cigarette as I walked over to her and sat down beside her. "What the hell are you doing?" I said with anger bubbling inside of me. She didn't answer my question but instead threw her arms around my neck and hugged me tightly. "I missed you Dem, so much. So very very much". I smiled slightly then pulled away looking into her eyes. They were puffy and bloodshot red. I saw pain in them as she looked into my eyes. She looked lifeless, as if someone sucked the soul right out of her when I left. "Sel, are you going to tell me what's going on?"

She giggled, slurring her words a little bit, "What do you mean? Everything's good, I'm good, you're here, that's all that matters". She hugged me tightly again and grasped onto my shirt like she never wanted to let me go. I didn't believe her for a second. What happened while I was gone? Why was she acting like this? Why is she drinking? Why is she smoking? Where is my Selena? There were so many things I wanted to ask her but I couldn't bring myself to do it.

She had her arms firmly attached around my neck and was soon nodding off to sleep. I wrapped her legs around my waist and picked her up. I walked to the bed and carefully laid her down to sleep. Within a few seconds she was asleep and slightly snoring. I looked down at her before I left the room and realized how beautiful she really was. I brushed the thought away and went downstairs. I locked the front door and proceeded to the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea.

I was staring off into space alone in the kitchen, just me and my thoughts before I realized the time. "Crap". I walked back upstairs and settled myself beside Selena on the bed. She shifted slightly so that her body was pressed up against mine and I wrapped my arms around her waist holding her still. I kissed the top of her head and closed my eyes. I could feel my back untangle itself and I sighed. It was a long day but I couldn't wait for tomorrow. I had to know why Selena was acting the way she did. I had to know because I love her. I love my angel more than anything in the world and I wouldn't let anything hurt her. What if something hurt her while I was gone? Oh God.

As I drifted off to sleep I asked myself one more time, what the hell is going on?

I woke up the next morning with Selena lying next to me. Her breath was lightly hitting my cheek every few seconds and I looked down to see every inch of her body pressed against mine. Her arm was firmly around my stomach and her head on my shoulder. I began stroking her hair while thinking about how much I missed her while I was on tour. She's my best friend, how could I not miss her?

I glanced around the room and noticed that it was a mess. Not a usual teenager's room with clothes everywhere but it was still a complete mess. There were papers on the floor and pictures ripped up. I saw broken pieces of glass on the floor beside the far wall and an empty bottle of vodka lying where I found Selena the night before.

Last night scared me. How could someone as perfect as Selena end up like that? She had a loving family and tons of friends who undeniably loved her. She also had the support of thousands of fans, so why would she do that to herself? Why is she hurting herself? Is it my fault? I wasn't here with her when she needed me most, I should've been. I looked down to her arm slung across my stomach and spotted something I was sure I wasn't supposed to see. What the hell? As my hand moved towards her arm and touched the deeps cuts Selena groaned and quickly pulled her hand away. Oh God, she was awake.

She looked up at me with terrified eyes and I still noticed they were as lifeless as last night when I found her lying on the floor. Anger began bubbling up inside of me and I voiced my thoughts from earlier, "What the hell Lean? What in Gods name are you doing yourself? I come back and I see you drunk and smoking and now I see you've been cutting yourself too? How can you be so stupid?" I exclaimed in obvious anger. She simply looked up at me with tears threatening to fall down her angelic face.

She looked down at her wrist and traced the lines of her cuts lightly. When she looked back up her eyes softened and she finally began to sob. I pulled her into a hug and began soothing her. As I rubbed circles into her back and kissed her head I whispered, "Everything's going to be okay Sel, I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere. I'm not going to leave you, I promise".

She seemed to cry for hours and began losing her breath. As she gained control again she lifted her face from the crook of my neck. I wiped some of her fallen tears with my thumb. It pained me to see her like this. She smiled a small smile that barely even graced the beautiful features of her face. She looked down and muttered a thank you. I lifted her chin up to look in my eyes and asked "What's going on Selena? Please tell me. You have to let me in".

A long silence passed in which she just stared at me blankly and finally nodded her head. "Dem, I need you here now more than ever. Just please don't freak out okay? Please just listen to everything I have to say before its too late" I nodded quickly, getting scared. She fell silent again and I said, "I promise. I need you just as much as you need me. It hurts me so much to see you like this".

"Okay" she said tentatively, "This is what happened…"

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