CHAPTER 1 OLD FRIENDD AND MY OLD HOME.
Bella's POV
I had lived in a small town called forks for 7 years with my twin sister Hailey, well that was before my mum left my dad because she couldn't stand to live in a small town anymore. She wanted bigger and better things as she put it. Hailey got to stay with dad and I got to go live with mum, not that, that really bothered me I was always more of a mummy little girl and Hailey was more of a daddy's little girl. So they thought it would be best that way and then we could visit each other over the years. About 5 years ago mum met this minor league baseball player named Phil who lived in Phoenix, and about 3 years ago they got married. He was much younger then her, but he made her happy.
My time with mum had made me grow up much more quickly then I should have had to. I basically became the mum. I cooked and cleaned and made sure we went shopping and she had fuel for her car because my mum can be very forgetful. Mum was a kindergarten teacher and we never had much money but she always did her best. She was young at heart, which is why I think she liked Phil so much.
When they first got married everything was great. Phil played baseball and mum went to all the home games and a few of the away games when she could between me and work. After a year had passed Phil got a contract with one of the teams and it was enough money that mum decided to quit her job to spend more time with me and Phil. It was around this time things got uncomfortable for me in the house. I was now 15 and had blossomed as Phil put it. I kept everything that had happened between Phil and me a secret from my mum, Hailey and even dad. I didn't want people knowing and thinking it was my fault. I knew it was my fault, he always said it was my fault. So after 2 years I had to get out of the house. I used the reason that I knew mum wanted to spend more time travelling with Phil, and that I was a big girl and could go back and live with dad for the last year and a half of school. Mum did in the end accept and said if I ever needed her I should call and come home straight away and she would be there for me. I knew she would, but I also knew I would never take her up on this offer.
So while I was packing I was thinking back to the friends I had left when my parents had separated. I hadn't seen them since my parents separated they were never home when I came to visit, which wasn't very long because I didn't like all the rain and green of Forks.
I had been best friends with the family that lived next door. They were Emmett, Edward and Alice Cullen. Emmett was a year older then me, Edward and I were the same age and Alice was 1 year younger. Emmett had black short curly hair and green-brown eyes. He was chubby last time I saw him but tall as well. He was like a big teddy bear. He was my Emmy-bear.
Edward and I had been close. We were best friends. He had bronze colored hair that always seemed to be falling into his eyes. He had green emerald eyes that you seemed to be able to get lost in. His window and mine faced each other and we use to write messages on paper and flash them at each other when he couldn't sleep.
Alice, Hailey and I were great friends though. She had this energy that was infectious. I use to call her pixie because she reminded me of a pixie in a movie we watched. Alice was a short petite girl, with spiky black hair and hazel gold colored eyes that seemed to sparkle when ever she got really excited.
Their parents were like my second parents. Carlisle and Esme, Carlisle was a doctor and Esme was an interior decorator. They had adopted Edward, when he was about 2 years old. His parents were Esme's sister and her partner. They died in a car accident and left Edward orphaned and Esme being the big hearted person she was, took him in straight away and a few years later they adopted him. I loved going over to their house, there house was huge and gorgeous. I even had a room there that I shared with Hailey for us to stay whenever we wanted a sleepover. Which, with Alice was nearly every weekend, but I always loved it.
Now I was moving back. I was moving back to live with my dad and Hailey. I couldn't stay with mum and Phil anymore. I couldn't be in that house anymore. I hated it there, but I couldn't tell anyone that. My dad was the chief of police, and it would ruin my and Phil's relationship and I knew it was all my fault. So I closed myself off from everyone and everything. Well not quite everyone Hailey and I had this ability that we could talk to each other in our minds. We always knew what each other was feeling, and when we would need each others help. We were we always together in some way I suppose, but even I had managed to shut down my feeling so she wouldn't always be able to feel me. I kept it all hidden from her, I didn't want anyone to know what had happened. I wasn't ever going to find love I didn't deserve it.
The plane touched down at the airport and I walked off the plane knowing that dad and Hailey would be waiting in the terminal to pick me up. I had to compose myself before I walked through the doors, I didn't want either of them to realise my problems, that I was fleeing mum and Phil.
I walked into the terminal and saw dad and Hailey standing side by side. Hailey was bouncing up and down almost in the spot. She was clearly excited that I was coming home. Dad just stood there looking stoic as always. He was never one to talk about or show his feelings, he and I were alike, where as Hailey and mum were more alike. They were both a flighty and both could be a little hyperactive. I loved them though.
As soon as Hailey spotted me she ran at me, I knew I had to steady myself because otherwise I was going to end up on the floor squashed under Hailey. Dad stayed and waited for me to get to him but I knew it was going to take a few moments until Hailey finished attacking me. Hailey almost pounced on me, pulling me into a big huge hug. "Bells I have missed you so much. Bells, Bells, Bells." Hailey said squeezing me into tight hug. "Hails… can't… breathe." I only just managed to get out. Hailey and I were almost complete opposites. He had the same hair and eye color, but she was taller then I was and she had more curves. I was about 4" shorter then her and had a small frame and lacked in curves I was also clumsy and she was as graceful as a dancer, but she preferred sport and I hated it. But I loved that we were different.
Once Hailey had finally let me go we walked back over to where dad was waiting. "Hey Bells, you look good, how was your flight?" He asked gentle pulling me into a weird hug. "Hi Dad, the flight was okay and I am good. You look good yourself." I replied. There was no more conversation between the two of us. But we didn't need it. I could see that he was happy that I had come home to live with them, and that he had missed me a lot in the past few years I had not come to visit claiming that I was too busy. But that wasn't it, I just could never tell anyone the real reason was Phil.
Hailey and I talked all the way home. She told me all about what she was doing at school and how the Cullens's were going. She asked me about high school in Phoenix and what my friends were like. I told her that I hadn't really made any friends, most of the people ignored me because I was different, I preferred to read and spending my time not partying.
We arrived home and dad helped me take my stuff upstairs to unpack. Hailey said she had to go, she was going out and asked if I wanted to tag along. I told her I was going to pass telling her I was tired after my flight and that I just wanted to unpack and the crash. I was glad she didn't push me on that fact. I wished her a good night and told her we could spend more time together tomorrow before I started school the following day. I was transferring half way through the school year. I wasn't looking forward to my first day of school, but at least Hailey was going to be there with me.
Alice's POV
I had just found out that Bella was moving back in next door. I was nearly jumping up and down with excitement. I hadn't seen her for years but I knew that we were still going to be great friends. I had missed her so much when she left with her mum. She was my best friend, well her and Hailey, and I was so sad to be losing my best friend. When Hailey had told me she was moving back I spent the week before she was due arrive bouncing up and down in excitement. Hailey thought my response was funny and kept laughing at me all the time.
I raced down stairs the day she was due to arrive. "Edward, Emmett guess what? Guess what?" I was bouncing up and down in front of them. "What Alice?" they groaned at me together. "Bella is moving back today. Yeah! My best friend is moving back home." I said still bouncing up ad down in the spot, I was so excited. "Oh, and guess what else? We are all going out tonight with Hailey, hopefully Bella will be with her. I have this feeling that Bella won't be there though but we are all still going. You guys have to come, Hailey and I have decided. Hailey will be here as soon as she can after they arrive home from the airport, so you better be ready to go as soon as she gets here." I told them. They were coming whether they liked it or not. "I have also laid out clothes for you to wear tonight to make a good impression if Bella decides to come." I finished still bouncing up and down in excitement. We weren't going anywhere really flash, just an underage bar that was in Port Angeles.
Hailey came over a few hours later, without Bella. Sigh, I was really hoping she would come. "Hey Hails, where's Bella?" "Bells said she was tired after her flight and that she just wanted to unpack and go to bed. But the truth is Alice I think that there is something else up. I don't know what it is. But I know something else is up with her, she has changed. She is not the happy person I remember, everything seems like a front, like she is hiding some deep dark pain." Hailey told me concern flooding her features. "But your bond I thought you could sense her emotions and know what she is feeling, even talk to her telepathically." I replied. "We can, I can, but I think that somehow she has managed to find a way to block out emotions that she doesn't want me to sense. So that she doesn't want me to worry. But I can tell by looking at her Alice something is up, something is up with my twin and I'm worried about her." Hailey really did look worried about Bella. I knew they were close even though they lived miles apart. I couldn't believe Bella was able to block out emotions from Hailey. That was a new development. I was the only person that knew about Bella's and Hailey's bond. I knew it was a twin thing. So I decided it was best to try and calm Hailey's fears. "Don't worry Hails we will get to the bottom of this. Bella will tell us when she is ready. We will get her to tell us eventually. I know we will, we always did as kids. So don't worry. We will get through this together like we use to." I heard the boys coming downstairs so I decided it was best to stop our conversation before we were overheard.
"Hi boys." Hailey called out as they made their way down the stairs. "Where is Mi Bella?" Emmett asked. "She said she was tired after the flight and just wanted to unpack and then call it a night. Bells and I are going to be catching up tomorrow so maybe you can come over sometime and visit." Hailey replied. Emmett and Edward had big grins on their faces after that and it cause Hailey and I to laugh. "Come on boys let's go and have a good night. I'm sure that Emmett can't wait to see Rose." I chuckled. And with that we all raced out to the car to have a good night.
Bella's
POV
Hailey had gone out and Dad was down stairs watching some
game on the television, I think it was baseball. I had packed
everything away and knew that I would have to go shopping soon and
get some more winter supplies the weather here was very different to
that in Phoenix. I went to the bathroom and showered and got ready
for bed. It hadn't really been a long day, but it had been long
enough for me. I had finally escaped. I had finally gotten away and
my mum would never have to know and she could go on being happy and I
could just go on.
I walked back into my room, put the dirty clothes into my laundry hamper and curled up in my bed. I lay there thinking about everything that had happened before I had left how I was best friends with Alice and Edward. There use to be nothing that I kept hidden from them of Hailey but I knew that I would never be able to tell them what had happened in Phoenix with Phil. It was all my fault and I knew they would blame me also. With that thought I cried myself to sleep. My dreams were terrorized with those memories, and how I would never find love and that I would end up alone for all time.
I woke early the next morning and went downstairs to organise breakfast. I hunted in the fridge and found everything to make bacon and eggs. I decided to make scrambled eggs with cheese and chives because they were my favorite. Dad came down a few minutes later just as I was finishing cooking everything. "Mmm… That smells good Bells, but you didn't have to cook." "It's okay Dad. I woke up early and I was hungry so I just figured I cook enough for everyone. Should I wake Hailey?" I asked dad. "Mmm… She might not be happy if she misses this breakfast you made us. It tastes damn good too." He replied already having seated himself at the table and helping himself to the breakfast I had cooked. "Okay dad. I'll just go and get her." With that I headed off to Hailey's room to wake her for breakfast.
"Hailey, Hailey, HAILEY." I said as I shook her shoulders. "Hailey wake up sleepy head, I've mad breakfast." I said still shaking her by the shoulders. In my mind I was screaming at her. Hailey get your lazy butt out of bed now. Breakfast is cooked and ready and if you want any get your butt out of bed now. I knew she heard every word I said in my mind. I walked away still yelling at her in my mind. I was hungry and I wanted to get back to breakfast before it got cold or dad ate it all. I was glad that when I got back to the kitchen table there was still some left and to my greater satisfaction it was still warm.
Bella mind talking is in italics. Hailey mind talking is italics underlined.
I sat down at the table and helped myself to breakfast. In my mind in was chastising Hailey and stirring her about how good my breakfast was that I cooked. I was sending her my feelings of how good it tasted. I was also mentally laughing because I knew that this was annoying her because she really did not want to get out of bed. About 5 minutes later I could hear her talking to me in my mind. Bells that was not nice. It's the weekend Bells you are meant to sleep in on the weekend. Just because you stayed home last night does not mean we are all bright eyed and bushy tailed first thing in the morning, and to top it off you have to tease me with how good breakfast is just to get me up. Now come on sis, that's not very nice. Sounds like someone isn't a morning person, and sorry about last night but I was tired it had been a long day and the flight wasn't the best, turbulence. Now hurry your butt up and come and get some breakfast. About 5 minutes later she finally appeared at the table. "Well good morning Sunshine. Come and have some of this yummy breakfast I cooked for us. It really does taste good." I said to her. Hailey just sat down and helped herself to some eggs and bacon then walked over to the microwave to heat it up, because now it was stone cold. While she was waiting Hails said to me. "Hey Bells, we might be having a few visitors over later today. I'm sure you remember Emmett, Edward and Alice. They were sad they missed you last night, especially Alice. So they said they might come by today." Great I thought silently to myself, there goes the day I had planned. "But Hails I was planning a sisterly bonding day. You and me shopping. I need some more winter clothes, I don't have very much seeing as how it is so much colder here the Phoenix." Hailey was sitting down by now eating breakfast. Hailey sat there quietly for a few moments before she replied. "How about me make it a girl's day and invite Alice. She really did miss you last night, she has missed her best friend for years now Bella. So what about it?" "Okay, sounds like a great idea. I have missed Alice also. How about you finish up call her about it then we will get going in say an hour?" I asked. I was responded to with a head nod because she was eating again. In my mind she said. Okay Bella, but I think you should call and invite her. You know there house number, go on call her while I finish breakfast then we can get ready together and all head out to the mall. We will have to go to Port Angeles, there is no where to shop around here. Go call Alice. I nodded to my sister and went over to the phone to call Alice.
Edward is RED, Bella is BLUE, Alice is GREEN for convo on phone.
Ring, ring. Ring, ring. Hello, Cullen residence Edward speaking. Hi Edward, its Bella. Can I talk to Alice please. Oh, hey Bella. Hang on. ALICE! Great he just called out to her. How is it going? How was your flight? I am okay, flight wasn't too bad, and we got a bit of turbulence. Sorry about last night I didn't know you all had plans, I was just wiped after my day. Hey that's okay. We all have those days. "What did you want Edward?" I heard Alice in the background. "Bella is on the phone for you." He said in reply to Alice. Hey Bella, here's Alice. Nice to talk to you maybe we can catch up later. Bye. Bye Edward. I waited for the phone to be handed over. Hey Bella, how's it going? What can I do for you? Hey Alice, I'm good. But I was ringing to ask if you wanted to come on a girl's day with me and Hailey. I need to go shopping to get some new clothes. I don't have a lot of winter stuff, never really needed it in Phoenix. So do you want to come? YES! Alice squealed down the phone. I would love to spend the day with you guys. I have really missed you Bella. And I have excellent taste when it comes to shopping. So we won't have any troubles there. I could hear the excitement in her voice and I practically envisioned her literately bouncing up and down in the spot. I knew she love fashion, she had even we kids. Okay Alice. Be here in an hour and we will leave then. Tell the boys our plans for the day please so they don't come over while we are out. Okay Bella, see you in an hour. Bye. Bye. And with that I hung up the phone. Now I was worried with what I had gotten myself into.
I headed back upstairs to my room to get organised for the day shopping. Hailey came in about 10 minutes later and decided to help me get ready. What I should be wearing, my make-up everything. I hated wearing make-up and argued with her on many points. But she kept it plain and simple on me, all neutral colours with just a hint of mascara. Hailey on the other hand, had smokey looking eyes, with eyeliner and mascara, blush and a bright pink gloss. She looked stunning. We headed back downstairs once we were ready and waited for Alice.
We made it Port Angeles and spent an eventful day shopping. Hailey and Alice practically dragging me in and out of every clothing and shoe store. I wanted to go to the bookshop and eventually they gave in and headed to the shoe shop next door while I went in search of some more books to add to my collection. I loved reading, in the past few years it really had become my escape from reality. I needed it, a break from life. After many hours and many more shops later, I now had a much bigger wardrobe and Alice and Hailey had even picked up some new additions to their as well. I was all ready for the next day, my first day at Forks High.
We headed home. On the way we stopped to get take out. It was going to be just Hailey, Dad and me for tea. But that was okay. Alice said she would be over in the morning for a ride to school with us. I just hoped my baby would be here tomorrow before then. I wanted to drive to school. I had a lot of money because of my step-nanna. She was Phil's mum and I loved her. She left me a lot of money in a trust fund which sent me regular payments while I was at school and would be all mine once turned 18. She had even brought me my baby as a 16th birthday present. It was a baby blue Mercedes Benz E class coupe. Nanna had somehow managed to get it for me before it was released. I have no idea how she managed it, but I loved my car.
When we got home, Hailey and Alice helped me cart all my bags to my room. Once we had finished that Alice raced home and Hailey, Dad and I sat down to tea. It was still fairly early. 6.30pm. an hour later there was a knock at the front door. Hailey jumped up and raced to answer it, I think she was hoping it was for her, and that it was the Cullens'. "Bella door." Hailey called out to me. I got up and walked to the door. I saw a man standing in the door, he was from some transport company. I looked past him to see my baby sitting on the back of the truck. "Are you Isabella Swan?" The man asked me. "Yes, I am Isabella." I replied. "Here please sigh this." He handed me a clipboard and I signed where he indicated. He took the clipboard back and handed me a copy of the paperwork I had just signed. He walked back to the truck and I walked outside to watch them unload my baby. I was so excited. I would be able to drive my baby to school tomorrow. I was internally squealing and jumping up and down for joy.
Bella's Baby (except hers is baby blue)
Is that yours Bells? Came the question in my mind. Yep. That's my baby. I'm so excited that it got here before school tomorrow. I'm driving. I replied in my mind to Hailey. Cool. Nice car. Was her reply. I could tell she was just a little jealous. She never got anything from Nanna, and I always felt bad about that. But I had spent all my free time with her when she was sick and a lot of it before then. She only lived a block away from mum and Phil's. I loved her very much. I think that was why I was so spoilt. Phil didn't even get what she gave me, and he was her on son. Hails you aren't jealous are you? I asked her. I got no reply from her. Hails I love you. I'll let you drive it sometime okay. I'm sorry Nanna didn't give you as much as she gave me. I'm sorry. I know you like Nanna very much, but please don't blame me. I love you, just as I loved her. It's okay Bells. I know she loved you very much and that you two spent a lot of time together. I'm sorry I was jealous, and as long as I get to drive it too I am okay with you having that car. Can we take it to school tomorrow? Hell yes we are taking it to school tomorrow. You, me and Alice, it will be cool us turning up to school in it don't you think? Hell yes Bells. That car is only been released not that long ago. How long have you had it? I have had my baby for about 10 months now. I got it for my 16th birthday. Okay now my baby is unloaded, what do you say we get ready for bed and organised for tomorrow? I am so anxious over starting a new school half way through the year. I don't think I will get a wink of sleep tonight. I need to go and unwind. Maybe I will unpack our shopping then read. That should help me relax. Night Hails. Bells I'll give you a hand to unpack your shopping okay. Then I guess we should call it a night. We have spent the whole day out, and don't worry about school tomorrow, you have me and Alice. The boys will be there too.
With that we both walked back upstairs. Hails disappeared into her room first then came into mine. Here Bells, I got you a welcome home present while we were out shopping today. I hope you like it. Like it, I loved it I thought. Hails had gotten me a beautiful ceramic fairy. As a little kid I had always loved fairies and it seemed Hailey had remembered that. "Hails its beautiful. I can't believe you remembered how much I like fairies. But I have a surprise for you to." I handed her the box. I waited while she opened it, waiting to see the expression on her face. I could tell that she loved her present as much as I had loved mine. I had gotten Hails a mermaid figurine. Mermaids were her favourite when we were kids. I knew our gifts were only figurines of things that we loved together as children but they were the perfect reminder of our past together.
Bella's fairy, the Hailey's mermaid figurines.
Hailey helped me finishing unpacking. Once it was all put away and Hailey had helped me pick out a outfit for tomorrow. I decided that it was time we called it a night. "Okay Hails, we need to call it a night. We have school in the morning and we need sleep. I really like the fairy, thanks sis. I hope you like the mermaid. When I saw it I thought of you straight away." I said to my sister as I yawned slightly. "I think you're right Bells. I love the mermaid. It is brilliant, thank you so much sis. When I saw that fairy she reminded me of you. Well goodnight Bells. See you in the morning." Hailey said to me yawning also. "Night sis." I replied as she walked out my bedroom door. I changed and climbed into bed waiting for the blackness to take me into a dreamless state.
I woke only a few hours later screaming. I had a nightmare where I was back in Phoenix and I was trapped there. I hadn't escaped and got away to my dad's. Phil was there and he wouldn't let me go. Oh my god. I couldn't believe the dream. It had been so real. I looked around the room and realised it had only been a dream. I saw the fairy that Hails had given me just a few hours ago. I relaxed slightly, but that didn't stop the tears from failing. I was shaking uncontrollably, so I curled up into a ball gripping my pillow as tightly as possible and cried my eyes out, thinking of everything I had escaped. Thinking of how much my Dad and Hailey loved me and how I could count on them, but how could I tell them?
I thought - I will never tell them. I will never tell anyone. They will blame me for it. It is all my fault after all, everything is all my fault. I will just have to keep up the facade that I had been living with for the last two years. I don't have a choice. If they found out, if anyone found out they wouldn't love me anymore, they would all hate me and blame me for everything that happened. I can't have that. I know I don't deserve to be loved but I don't want them to hate me either. I need them. I need Dad and Hailey. I won't say a word.
I continued to cry until my tears ran dry. I decided that would be the last night I cried over what had happened and how I would never tell another person. I knew I would just keep up the happy facade and end up alone. I could handle that. With that I went back to sleep and didn't dream another dream for the rest of the night, until I woke the next morning.
